I hesitated before wrapping my arms around his torso letting the tears flow like a waterfall. He tightened the embrace putting his chin on my head, I didn't even know for how much long we were standing in the middle of the sidewalk. I decided to pull away and I wiped my tears feeling sorry for my pathetic self. I hate crying in front of people.

"Are you okay Lauren?" He reached for my cheek caressing the skin with his thumb, I nodded smiling slightly and he put his arm around my shoulders and we began walking on the sidewalk. I had my head on his chest and I felt warm and safe.

"I argued with my mum. I'm grounded." I said with a raspy voice due to the previous sub and he rubbed my arm comforting me. "What did you do?"

"She's mad because I'm not studying like I should be and other stuff." I shrugged keeping my eyes on the ground, I couldn't talk about Ashton. I don't know what to say, I'm too ashamed to admit that my boyfriend is using me for sex. Even though I'm not sure of it, but, it's an hypothesis and it might be correct.

"Are you sure you're crying only because your mum grounded you?" I'd be lying if I say that I didn't expect this question. It was obvious. Does even a seventeen, soon to be eighteen, year-old girl cry alone in the dark because her mum grounded her? I cleared my throat and wrapped my arms around my body because we were getting closer to the beach and the wind is chillier here. Luke noticed my shivering and he stopped on his tracks.

"Laur, are you cold?" He asked with a concerned look and I shrugged, "It's okay, I'll get used to the temperature." He took off his jacket and unzipped his sweat-shirt handing it to me, "Wear mine, you're only wearing a thin sweater." I nodded putting on the black material gripping the edge of the sleeves.

"Now tell me the truth." He spoke starting to walk again, "I think that Ashton is dating me only for hooking up." His head snapped to my direction and he seemed uncomfortable. "Are you sure?" He muttered, "I don't know but when I rejected him earlier, he was angry. He practically obliged me to have sex with him."

"What a dick." He hissed fixing his beanie and I bit my lip keeping my mouth shut. "You don't want to have sex with him?" He asked.

"I don't know really. I don't think I'm comfortable enough to lose it." Luke stopped suddenly and he locked his eyes with mine raising an eyebrow. "Are you trying to tell that you're virgin?" My gaze dropped to the floor and I was ashamed.

"Well yeah .." I mumbled and he cursed under his breath, I'm sure he noticed my red face even in the dim lights. "Shit, sorry. I'm just surprised because you don't look like one."

"There's nothing to apologize for." I said deciding to drop the topic and continue walking. We reached the beach and the breeze blew through my hair. I tightened my grip against the sleeves of Luke's sweat-shirt. We sat on the sand and I couldn't say anything but Luke wrapped his arm around my shoulders closing the gap between us. His chest was warm and I wanted to stay wrapped in his arms forever.

"Thanks for keeping up with my shit." I said and he chuckled rubbing my arm. "You were crying Laur, I had to do something." I smiled widely even though that was the last thing I wanted to do. I lifted my head slightly and kissed his cheek. He tightened our embrace letting out a long sigh.

I turned my head to meet his eyes and our noses brushed leaving our lips separated by less than few inches. I felt my heart beating quickly against my chest and it was like my blood was frozen in my veins. My lips parted and I wanted to talk but I couldn't find the words. Luke's gaze was torturing me, his eyes were sparkling due to the moonlight and he didn't have to talk. His eyes could do the work for his tongue.

His thumb brushed against my lower lip and I closed my eyes under his touch. His hot breath was tickling my skin and I wanted only one thing. Kiss those goddamn lips. Ashton appeared in my mind and a voice started reminding me that I'm in a relationship and I shouldn't do this to him but Luke's raspy voice paralyzed me.

"Let me kiss those lips." He whispered and I nodded without even thinking twice about the consequences of my actions. He pressed his lips against mine gently, keeping his warm hand on my jaw. His lips moved slowly with mine letting a huge knot form in my stomach. He pulled away caressing my cheekbone.

"I missed this." He murmured closing his eyes, "Me too." I spoke.

I sighed putting my head on his shoulder and a weird feeling invaded me. Guilt. I felt guilty for kissing Luke, for cheating on Ashton. I regretted kissing him because we don't have something going on anymore since more than two months and each of us took a different direction but here I am, wrapped in his arms.

"It's getting cold here, we need to go back home I think." I said cutting the awkward silence, he nodded standing up brushing the sand off his skinny jeans. We started walking back to our neighborhood talking about everything but what happened in the beach.

I sneaked to my room on my tiptoes and I changed into my pajamas. I lied on my bed thinking about what happened earlier. I felt dirty and guilty for what I did, Ashton doesn't deserve this. Even though we're not on good terms right now but still. I cheated on him. With his friend. I couldn't believe that one day I'll cheat on someone.

The next morning at school, I was quiet. Kenzie noticed my weird change but I told her that I'm mad at my mother deciding to not tell her about Luke neither Ashton. I was too ashamed to even talk about them both. When I entered maths, I met Luke's eyes and he smiled at me. I half-smiled dropping my gaze to the ground and I walked quickly to my seat.

"Did Luke just smiled at you or I'm having hallucinations?" Kenzie questioned raising a perfectly filled eyebrow and I shrugged. "He's being nice, I don't care." Soon after, Ashton pushed the door open with Jacob, Calum and Melissa following behind.

"Hey Lauren." Melissa greeted with a smile then took a seat behind me with Calum following closely behind her. Ashton stopped in front of me and said, "We need to talk after maths, I'll be waiting."I nodded without saying anything and before I face the sea of questions asked by Kenzie, Mr Hamilton started yelling at everyone to be quiet.

The hour passed smoothly only because I was focusing on the lesson, yeah for once, he did teach us something. When the bell rang, I gathered up my things trying so hard to avoid Kenzie's questions. I felt someone grabbing my arm when I left the classroom and I met deep green eyes.

"C'mon, I'm listening." I crossed my arms glaring at him, he looked at Kenzie who was standing next to me. "Heum, Mackenzie. Let us alone for few seconds." He demanded and she awkwardly shifted traveling her gaze between us. "She's my best friend."

"No no, it's okay. I'll be in class. Take your time." She protested with a weak smile before leaving us alone disappearing in the crowded hallway. Ashton fixed his bandana before deciding to talk. Thank God because I'm getting annoyed.

"Listen, I'm t-" I interrupted him before he starts feeding me complete bullshit. "Listen Ashton, I don't wanna do things that I'm not convinced to do them. I hope that you understand this."

"Yeah but, we're dating. That means you fully trust me to do things. You don't need to be so self-conscious and awkward." He said rather meanly and I wanted to slap him. So fucking hard.

"Self-conscious? Really?" I snapped, "Trust doesn't mean that I'm obliged to do nasty stuff. I'm not fucking having sex with you because you wanted to. This is my body and I can do whatever the hell I want to do with it." He wanted to say something but I interrupted again.

"What happened to you? Are you really with me for sex?" I questioned trying so hard to not burst into tears in the middle of the hallway. His eyes widened and he shook his head quickly. "No baby, I swear! it's just that I wanna feel things with you and make you feel better about yourself and you're just not letting me."

"You already make me happy, that's all what I'm asking you for." I argued back and his lips curled into a smile and he wrapped his arms around me engulfing me in a tight hug and I suddenly tensed because yesterday's actions appeared in my mind and I felt guilty again.

"Are you alright?" He pulled out of the hug with a concerned look, he must have noticed my weird change and I shrugged giving him the best smile that I could show. But, I can't help but think about what am I going to do with Luke. I don't know how I'm going to tell Ashton, I need to tell him one way or another. The only thing that I'm afraid of to happen is that I'm going to loose him probably forever. Even thinking about this drives me nuts, I can't loose him again.

Later that night, I stayed in my room going through some stuff for school before I remembered that we're Friday. Holy shit the party! Seriously, I've completely forgot about it. I opened my bedroom door and I called my mum but she's no where to be found even Ellie. I don't need to search for my dad because he's never around.

I found a note on the kitchen counter and I sighed taking it. 'I took ellie for a sleepover in your grandma's house, we'll be back tomorrow's afternoon, remember you're grounded so you won't go out (the door is locked) and there are some leftovers in the refrigerator! have a nice night.'

I crumbled the paper and angrily threw it in the trash bin. I can't believe that she locked me in the house. What am I? Ten? I sometimes question if she's insane or psychotic. I heard my phone ringing upstairs and I went to grab it. Kenzie's name flashed on the screen.

"Where the fuck are you Lauren?" She said quickly and I wanted to throw myself off a cliff. "I won't be able to make it, have fun there."

"What? Why?" She asked confused. I seriously hate my mum so much.

"I can't go sorry, bye." I responded quickly hanging up the phone throwing it on the bed. I paced in my room thinking about a solution. I can't spend the whole night and half of tomorrow locked in the house. I can't even jump of my window, that's impossible. I went downstairs and checked the living-room windows, but they were locked from outside too. This is insane. What kind of a mother does this to her soon-to-be-an-adult daughter? Does she think that I'm Ellie?

I sighed furiously and sat on my bed again upstairs, I grabbed my laptop opening Tumblr scrolling angrily through my feed. I felt my phone vibrating and I cursed taking the device in my hand. I expected it to be Ashton but it was a text coming from Luke.

From : Luke : heyy laur where r u?

From : Laur<3 : I'm stuck in my fucking room bc my mum locked the door and went out with my sister

From : Luke : be there in 10

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Woooo lukeeeee :')))
I hate ashton tbh so much here
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