I found myself standing on a balcony, overlooking the entire city below me. I wasn't entirely sure what I would accomplish from doing that, but it was relaxing nonetheless. The cool breeze blowing through my hair, the relaxing noises coming from birds and children playing in their backyards, the smell of nature and someone baking in their kitchen. Speaking of baking, I was starving. My stomach growled, no, screamed at me, telling me that it was obviously not happy that I hadn't given it sustenance yet. I pushed off from the railing, I had a lot of stairs to climb to get to the kitchen, and there normally weren't any maids walking about around here. It was my time to make a noise of protest, seeing as how I was lazy by nature.

I brought out my phone, because technology does come in handy sometimes, and I went to the first person I thought of. I clicked on their contact, and then hit the little green phone button, pressing the small device to my ear while it rang.

"Hello?" I heard over the phone, and I smiled at how quick she answered.

"What are you doing right about now?" I questioned and she made a noise as if she had to think about what she was doing.

"I'm not doing much of anything, why? Are you hungry or something?" she teased, not knowing that it was in fact the reason for him calling out of the blue like this.

"Yes, actually. I was going to see if you wanted to have food sent to me or something because I really don't want to walk all the way down to the kitchen and maids don't typically come around here." I informed her. She giggled at me.

"Ah, so I guess this is where the cravings come in, eh? It's a really good thing that I happen to have been taught about pregnancy and I was already walking up the steps to your room with some things." Yuki said as the door to my bedroom opened. She took one look around the room and grimaced. "This place is a mess. It looks like someone came in here and basically destroyed it."

"Well, in case you forgot, I did spend a few weeks writhing in pain while this little monster grew inside my body here." I mentioned, and she softened her features.

"I know." Was all she said as she set the bag down. I instantly eyed it but I didn't want to be rude and just go right after it. "Zero, for the love of god I brought the food for you. Eat." She commanded and I grabbed the bag before sitting on the bed and rummaging through it to see what I wanted. There was chocolate, soda, a deli sandwich, a jar of pickles, a few pastries, and even some juice. I had never loved Yuki more than I did right then.

I grabbed the sandwich and a soda, plopping down on the bed where she came and sat gracefully on the bed beside me. She picked up the book that was on the nightstand on Kaname's side, looking at the front of it and frowning.

"What's wrong?" I asked as I took a drink of the soda.

"This is such a boring book. I thought you didn't like to read?" She asked as she set it back down where she got it, mindful of keeping the page in it.

"It's something Kaname was reading, I never really bothered to look at it. It's not mine so why do it?" I stated, eating away like I had never had food in my life. "Speaking of him, where the hell is he? I haven't seen him in like two days."

"He's in another town, visiting with some people there. He didn't tell you?" She asked, confused about me not knowing his whereabouts. I scoffed.

"As if. He doesn't tell me anything about where he's going, when he's coming back, or what he does. It's like he avoids me or something and I'm sitting here all by myself most of the time." I grumpily murmured. She looked at me with pity, like I needed it, and sighed. She didn't say anything after that.

"I hope it's a boy." I said out of the blue. It probably was rather off topic, but she knew exactly what I meant.

"Really? Why's that?"

"Well, I mean, have I ever been good with girls? I wouldn't even know where to begin with that. It's such a foreign thing, and Kaname is obviously not going to be around enough to do anything." I explained.

"Well you're good with me." She stated softly, a teasing look in her eyes but I just rolled mine. "Besides, the maids will be taking care of the baby for most of its childhood. The only time you actually start to do things is when he or she is about nine or ten years old." She told me, and I furrowed my brows.

"Why would I do that? I'm not the kind of person to just throw my kid off to someone that I probably don't know and not even try to take care of him. I don't see the logic in that." I said, and she leaned back on the bed.

"Well, I know that you don't want to do something like that, but once you have this baby and you're well again, you have to be crowned and then you'll never really be free to do anything. It sucks, I know, but many people have had to do that, and their kids turned out just fine." Yuki informed me, but I didn't like it.

"Yeah, maybe except Kaname amiright?" I joked, or at least tried too. But I was still rather salty about the fact that I didn't even know where my husband was. I had to remind myself that just because we were married and were expecting a child, it didn't mean shit. It didn't mean that he had to fucking be around all the time. It didn't mean that he had to act like he cared about me. It was so obvious about how he felt, but it made my chest feel tight when I thought about it.

"Kaname, he's just a different kind of person. But he did text me and tell me that he just arrived back, fixing to get out of the car." She told me, and I rolled my eyes.

"Like I fucking give a shit. Hey, wanna watch something funny?" I asked, and she shrugged. I got up and walked to the balcony where I looked down and found Kaname down on the ground, he seemed so much smaller from up there.

"Zero, what are you doing?" Yuki asked, eyeing me.

"Hey! Kaname!" I yelled, instantly grabbed his attention because, for one, he was a vampire, and for two, I was really fucking loud. But now what was I going to say? I couldn't think of something snarky, and I didn't exactly want to yell profanities from the castle while I'm supposedly next in line for the throne. "I love you!" I blurted out, instantly realizing my mistake. I could see him tense up for a moment, and then continue walking into the castle with his head down.

"Zero?" Yuki said, or asked, my eyes were still wide, and my body was rigid so when I turned around, I was like a statue. Tears pricked my eyes, I knew I had fucked up then. He seemed so, I don't know, disgusted? Upset? "Oh my god, come here." She said as she took me into her arms which was rather awkward considering how short she really was to me.

"I didn't mean to say that." I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks now as I allowed us to sit on the bed again. What was I turning into? One of those over emotional teenage girls? My emotions were so messed up. The sad part about it was, I knew I meant it. I had to have meant it. I would never lie about loving someone, but I never really realized it until that very moment. Sure, I had said I was in love with him once before, but of course I never physically said it, it was just a thought in my head.

The door to my room opened, and there he stood in all his glory, his face stoic as usual. I couldn't look at him.

"Yuki, do you mind stepping out for a moment? I'd like to talk to Zero for a moment." He said calmly, god I was so afraid. She looked at me for confirmation, and I just nodded. Yuki got up and began to walk to the door where the exchanged quiet words, while they were doing so, I got up and went into the bathroom to try and put myself together. He came to the doorway. "I meant to tell you I was leaving." He started out with. He had his hands in his pockets, and he leaned against doorframe.

"Yeah, I'm sure you did." I replied curtly, trying to make the puffiness go away but to no avail.

"Really, I did. I just got so caught up in everything that I never got the time to come tell you-"

"But you can tell Yuki? I mean, why is it that she comes to see me, which is more that what you've done, and I ask her if she knows where you've been the last couple of days because I obviously didn't, and she easily answers that you were away visiting some people, and is surprised that you didn't tell me? How is this fair? I am carrying your child for fucks sake! I think I deserve a little bit more effort than that." I snapped, my words coming out harsh.

"Well, you know, it's not all me. You stay up here in your room pretty much all the fucking time. You don't leave, you don't even attempt to come see me either when you know I'm working my ass off doing what you're supposed to be doing!" He all but yelled back. I clinched my jaw so hard, it would have broken if I had been human. He crossed the line.

"I don't leave this fucking room because I know that the minute I do, someone is going to say something and then I'm either going to burst into tears, or bite their god damn head off! I'm so emotionally unstable with all of this going on in my body, and no thanks to you of course, so I can never even get the energy to take a shower on a regular basis. I'm by myself with this! You can forget that I said I loved you a minute ago, because that was obviously a big mistake. Not like you were happy about it anyway, you seemed like you were ready to throw my off that balcony." I grumbled the last part, but when I looked over at him again, his eyes were wide, and I knew he was not happy.

"You didn't mean it?" He whispered, his voice cracking during it. I wish I could've said no, I was still fuming with anger, but I couldn't tell him that. I ran my hands over my face and left them there, leaning my back against the bathroom counter.

"Of course I fucking meant it, I've been trying to convince myself I didn't for weeks now." I said from under my hands. "I'm one emotional breakdown from being a recycling company." I admitted, and he chuckled slightly at that. He came over to me, taking my hands off my face. I didn't want to look him in the eyes, so I settled on looking down.

"Look, I'm sorry for what I said. I had no right to say any of that, and I'm so thankful for you being so patient." He told me softly.

"Patient? That's what you call patient? Me yelling at you and basically nearly ruining everything in a few sentences?" I asked, laughing sadly at the end.

"Well, considering it's taken you this long to put me in my place, I think you've done a damn good job. I know I couldn't do it, I'd go crazy." He admitted, taking my hands into his and holding them.

"You know, I really do hate you." I told him, making him look at me with an eyebrow raised. "I told you I would never fall in love with you, now look at where I'm at. Pregnant and in love."

"And I'm so fucking glad that you said that, I came up here to hug you and thank you for making me the happiest man on the planet. Our little girl is going to be so lucky." He told me, and I raised my eyebrows this time.

"Girl? Why does everyone want a girl? I want a boy." I told him and he chuckled lightly, a sound I will never get over.

"Okay, our little boy." He added, and I smiled. "Oh, and Zero?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you too."

Okay so I fell in love with this story all over again and I hope you forgive for being such an A S S

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