A/n: ha. Feelin betta! Also, self-promo, check my art book and SHITS AND GIGGLES..both might be trash but what do you expect?
Evan's trans in the story

Evan's POV

I was cleaning the closet out of my bedroom for the fact that I was going to be bored this summer.

I mean, not that my boyfriend or friends are leaving to go anywhere, but I just feel like I always bother them when I ask them to come over or so.

I saw a huge cardboard box in the corner of my eye as I was hanging up a coat that fell to the floor by me accidentally hitting it.

I pulled it out of my closet and sat on the floor with my legs crossed.

I opened the cardboard box and saw something I haven't seen in years. It was my old recording camera and equipment with CDs in an orderly style.

I smiled before getting up, having an idea to kill this bore some Friday.

I reached for my phone and sent a message to the group chat.

Treebaby: hey, found old CDs and wanna know if anyone wanted to watch some of my videos?

Zoerollie1: yeah :) sounds fun to me

Whatareyou?fuckinggay?: Sure. Me and Zoe will be there in Ten.

Cronchgotmelike: haha. Come over and watch you and your ackward life back then and cringe? Hell yeah.

I smiled at my phone before getting up and picking up only the CD's.
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A knock on my door interrupted me setting up the moments that I probably will regret.

I sighed before yelling, "it is open!"

Then, footsteps were in the background till I heard them getting louder.

"Hey chump! The gangs all here!"

Jared said as he slumps on the couch.

I got up and smiled at my friend's excited face impression.

"Okay..well. These videos were created by me but edited by Jared. So, if it is crappy, blame him...here we go."

My stomach flipped as I pressed play.

Then my face appeared on screen. Well, Evelyn's face.

*Evan in the video pov*

"Hi!" I exclaimed.

I was sweating pretty badly.

I was scared, as if someone was going to judge me.

"Okay, well I'm in my room and I'm being ackward as ever...oh Jared, I got this camera from Christmas for fun. Not fun like, porno fun, but like mess around and wanna like..regret later in the years vibe"

My hands sweated badly.

"Evelyn?"

I looked down. I didn't like that name much, and it was so hard to confess. I noticed I frowned so I quickly smiled.

"Yeah mom!" I screamed back at her.

She told me to come down and that I shouldn't do that while she stood on the stair base. I immediately said sorry and grabbed the camera.

I walked down stairs and tried to get good shots. I failed horribly and gave up instantly.

Our conversation went like this:
Me: yeah mom?

Mom: it is yes! Not yeah

Me:*eye roll* yes person that made me out of sperm and a special egg and had me come out of the womb and named and took care of me?

Mom: *her time to eye roll before laughing*

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The tape has been paused.

I looked at Jared, the one who paused it.

"That was hella trash. Okay, me and Evan had made videos but I had more experience with editing and shit. So mines better, and I'm going to show it."

Before anyone can protest, he took the disk out and put his personal one in.

Then, the video began to load.
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*Video pov, Evan's also, it was dated later when Evan was..evan. I don't know how to describe things*

I was sitting on the lunch bench, glancing...no staring at Connor Murphy.

My crush since sixth grade.

Today, might have been the hottest day outside, almost a hundred degrees.

Today, Connor Murphy was wearing a short sleeve shirt and ripped jeans.

"Hey, are you going to stop eye fucking him without consent, th-" I interrupted him.

"Jared shut up, I was thinking."

"Yeah, thinking about touching his skin."

My face fully burned and I covered it.

"No I'm not Jared. I'm thinking about science."

He threw his head back.

"Yeah. The science your thinking is the chemistry between you two."

I shoved his arm.

Jared is one of my dearest friends I could ever have. Many people think we are dating, but it is the opposite. It is like we are family. He is the mother figure, always looking out for me and just wants me happy. But in a more asshole way.

I bit my thumb as I pulled my phone out and trying to act like I am doing something so Jared can get off my back.

"Are you checking your empty Tinder box?" Jared said as he looked over my shoulder.

His laugh echoed in my ear before I elbowed him.
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*Time skip*

It was an empty hall way where me and Jared walked in.

Connor Murphy was in front of us and I couldn't help but stare again. It was a very bad habit of mine.

"Be free lover boy!" Jared screeched as he used his free arm, the other holding his camera, and shoving me. At the same time, Connor had turned around to face me in a confused face before I fell on top of him, mouth on mouth.

Imediately after the realization, I pushed off of him and lied on the floor.

I didn't look at him, I was too flustered and my heart beated out of my skin.

That was my somewhat first kiss.

Thanks Jared.

"I'm sorry! J-Jared did it and I didn't only tripped and you probably hate me, for being who I am and maybe liking you, I'm so sorry!"

I immediately stood up and began to ran down the hall, dragging Jared.

Fuck.

Jared laughed so hard he had to sit down for a few minutes. Luckily, Connor didn't try to find us.

*Video turns black before starting up again* time skip if you didnt know*

"What the fuck are you doing Evan?" Jared asked me.

I was scraping the icing off of the Oreo with my spork and then handing the cookie part to my new boyfriend, Connor. He would eat it in no complaints.

"I'm eating!"

Jared gave me a look.

"You are torchuring your boyfriend. Your giving him a dry ass cookie with nothing."

I shrugged.

"I don't want to waste the cookie! I just like the frosting thingy."

Jared rolled his eyes.

"Evan, you get babied alot. Your not Avirl Lavigne, your not the motherfucking princess."

Connor laughed.

"Leave him alone, I'm fine eating the cookie part. What the fucks the difference? None of it's going to waste." Connor said.

I knew Jared since I was little, he absolutely hated when i do that. He is the type of person to eat the whole thing together...something about the cronch..?

"It's fine, I will eat it myself then."

I grabbed an Oreo and pulled it apart. I used my teeth to pull the frosting off before throwing both of the pieces of cookie at him.

I giggled at his face expression.

He huffed before throwing one broken peice of the Oreo and screamed, "love the cronch!"

*Video fades to a new one*

This one I recorded my self just chattering.

At one point, I forgot fully about it, and decided to play music.

So, since I listened to different varieties of music, I decided to palay Eminem. (Love Eminem, no joke- Jazz)

I felt more comfortable as I began to rap along with him since I was alone.

I was used to speaking fast, so it came as a breeze to me.

*Legit time skip and now present time*

"Wow, well, I'm crying on the inside." I whispered as I cuddled near Connor.

All of my friends decided to have a sleepover.

He chuckled.

"It is fine, gives you character. "

I nodded sleepily before trying to keep up, but failed miserably as I couldn't talk anymore and I began to fell asleep.

The last thing I heard before sleeping was, "i love you Evan Hansen."

Memories can bring people together sometimes.

A/n: I'm alive, also just in an episode of depression. Promise I am okay. I need to think. Check my other things, I try to update

Love ya bubsy