A/n: I'm not sorry at all lol

Stealing kisses from your misses doesn't make you freak out?

I known Connor from dating Zoe. Me and Zoe has been dating  for a while now, and he still honestly gives me a weird feeling I never had before. I just can't put a finger on it.

One night, Connor crept down stairs and met me on the couch. My heart pounded harshfully. My palms felt sweaty as I tried to calm myself down.

"Ev, can I do something?"

Our knees accidentally touched, which made me jump alittle. I could not understand what is happening to me at all.

"Sure."

It all happened quickly and escalated fastly.

He grabbed my face and passionately and roughly kissed me and I kissed back.

It lasted about a few minutes before Connor pushed himself off of me as soon as he heard soft footprints on the stairs and ran.

My heart pounded as hard as it ever could think and I jaggedly breathed, trying to collect my thoughts.

"You okay Evan?"

I nodded as I look at Zoe at the base of the stairs.

"Let's go"

The whole night I couldn't get the grip nor what feeling I had in my bones.
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Got you fussing, got you worried. Scared to let your guard down. Girls, girls. Tell the neighbors I'm not sorry if I'm breaking walls down. Building your boys second story, ripping all your floors down.

I really like Evan. More than Zoe ever will. And she knows it. Everytime I see him, every eye contact we meet, he gives me a different look than he ever did to Zoe. And it pisses her off badly. She knows she is losing him slowly.

She knows how badly I want him. 

Since our kiss, I can't help but have a faint blush on my face.

I had got enough confidence to do it out of one person who said I wouldn't ever get him nor will he ever love me. Zoe.

Also, since then, she tries to seduce him through clothing or saying something flirtatious, but he reacts with a nervous laugh or says a complement but nothing more.

It is just tricky to steal him since my father is such a homophobic. But I think it is risked it. Sorry not sorry dad.
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Saw your face, heard your name, gotta get with you. Boys like boys just like girls do, nothing new. Isn't this why we came? Gotta get with you, boys like boys just like girls do, nothing new. Boys likes boys just like girls do, nothing new.

I have to say this. I think I really like Connor. Isn't that normal? It has to happen naturally. Everyone has to once in there life consider there same gender. Once or twice.....maybe all the time after you experience it.

I think I just come visit Zoe to get glimpses of Connor mostly by side looks or just see him in school.

Every time I hear his name, Everytime I see his face, I just feel a tug at my heart that I want him more than anything in the world. Something has to happen. Somehow.
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Always gonna steal your thunder, watch me like a dark cloud. On the move, collecting numbers, I'mma take your boy out. We will be everything we need.

I don't like Evan. More like love.

Everyday I get closer to getting him. We both make our moves as Zoe steps out.

I met many people, I crunched numbers, but him. Evan Hansen, will always have a place that makes me stop and stare. That makes my heart flutter easily. He makes me feel like I could jump in front of a train for him. I need him.

It could be the most coldest night, I could be starving to the bone, anything. And I will be okay if I had him in my arms.
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Don't tell me, tell me what I feel. I'm real, and I feel like girls. I'm real and i don't feel like girls. Saw your face, heard your name, gotta get with you. Boys like boys like girls do, nothing new, isn't this why we came? Gotta get with you. Boys like boys like girls do, nothing new. Boys like boys like girls do, nothing new.

I had got in a huge fight with Zoe. Her words try to over top mine as I explained my sexuality and crush on Connor. She tried to put me through a guilt trip and began to cry and such.

She kept on saying it is wrong. That I should rethink before doing. But I pushed over it. And fought with her how I love him. More than anyone in the world that I could ever had in my life. Ever since I saw him, there was a feeling in my chest in my heart that tugged.

That's how I got punched by Zoe.

She pushed me outside her bedroom and slammed her door. I fell to the ground and was speechless. I blinked a few times before walking downstairs; collecting my coat and putting my shoes on.

There I had walked outside in the rain, alone in peace. Even though my mind was racing and my heart weighing.
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I been crossing all the lines, all the lines, kissed your boy and made you cry, girls. Saw your face, heard your name, gotta get with you. Boys like boys like girls do, nothing new. Isn't this why we came? Tell me you feel it too?! Tell me, boys like boys like girls do, nothing new. Boys like boys like girls do, nothing new.

I heard the whole fight through the thin dry wall from my room. My heart paced as I thought the whole time if he did or didn't like me. I never knew he felt it too. The wanting of just each other's presence. Not even having to say a word because our love is all we need. 

I felt a ping of guilt because Zoe cried, but I know it was fake crying because she knew I won.

I tried and tried and tried. Just to get so close to him. And here is my chance.

I grabbed my shoes and didn't even cared to tie them, and ran downstairs.  I knew I had a few seconds before my father or mother checks out what was the loud screaming was about,  so i ran.

I slammed the door open, not caring to close it either before running in the heavy rain, screaming at the top of my lungs.

"Evan!"

I screamed over and over again.

I saw a figure stop in front of me, as far as I could tell since my vision was somewhat smudged.

"Connor?" Evan breathed.

I smiled and nodded.

Evan had a purple circle around his eye, which made me bring my hand to his face. I gently rubbed around his bruise.

Tears prickled out of my eyes. Crossing all the seas, we are finally here.

We both smiled.

I bended down and kissed him, finally not out of quickness or out of sneakiness. Finally with all my heart and time.

And he kissed me back.

"Connor! Come home now!"

I pulled away from him as I saw a figure coming towards us; possibly my father.  I knew Zoe had possibly told that I had a crush on Evan and he has a crush on me.

"Come on Con, follow me," Evan said as he grabbed my hand.

I looked back at the figure before looking at the boy who was as soaking wet as me.

"Let's go."

Evan and I began to ran, as happiness spasms in my chest, knowing I have the one I love the most.

I. Fucking. Love. This. Story.

Seriously, this is my favorite maybe.

I had no idea where I was going with this, hope you enjoy it.

Love ya bubsy