A/n: what's up? I have nothing much to say....yeah...

Warning: cursing, talks bullying, periods, maybe hints of death jokes,  Evan's trans, uhhhh that is all. You have been warned.

Evan's POV:

Today feels like a bad day. No, it is  a bad day. I hate every month at for a few days. It makes me seem weak and I get more sensitive than I already am.

I still am a guy...just with a period. It is not anybody's fault, I mean, no one can change how you were when you were born. at all.

So, I have to live through the few days like this intil it is over for me.

My day is  starting off okay. I mean, I am little upset, like I wished that I didn't have to go through all this. I wish that I was a normal person. But I guess you aren't supposed to be normal if you were meant to be out there and love yourself in your own way.

So, I got up out of bed, already feeling shitty as ever and got ready for school.

I put on sweatpants and a loose shirt before sliding on my shoes.

Ping.

I sighed as I grabbed the phone.
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Acornsboy: hey, I'm outside.

Speaksforthedeadmemes: for me? *Bats eyes*

Speaksforthetrees: no Jared, me

Jazzbandhands: we both are Ev

Speaksforthetrees: ight, meet you in three

Speaksforthedeadmemes: :(

Jazzbandhands: get over it dude
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I laughed at my phone before rolling my eyes.
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I walked down the concrete stairs after I slammed the door in fustration yet to come.

The new, clean black car was in my driveway and in the driver's seat was Zoe and Connor next to her.

I smiled and waved slightly before slugging to the back seat.

Connor looked back at me and Zoe; back and forth.

"Something is off.....something is really off...." He said before mumbling and  questioning himself.

"Yeah, you seen to go more blind and gayer by the day", Zoe said sarcastically, "oh, did I say that out loud?"

I laughed before wincing at my forming cramps.

" Ev, you okay?"  Connor said as he cautiously watched Zoe pull out of the driveway.

"N-yeah, it is just gonna be rough for a few days. U-uh, you know, those 'plunged into darkness' days? Y-yeah..." I sighed.

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School started all okay. Nobody noticed the little winces or my small curse words under my breath at some points because my cramps are getting worse and worse.

Period five, gym, was the absolute worse though. 

I had to deal with the kids that usually make fun of my without Connor to help me or anything.

And guess what?

This lucky guy had to be on a group with them.

Could my day get any worse?

(A/n: fucking hate this part. I can rant for like forever about this. Swear, as a straight female, I still fucking think nobody deserves this shit. It is part of the story.i actually stood up for a few people in the past that were gay and such. People are just humans, geez why pick on it? Your beautiful anyway you are)

"Hey, fag,  ready to fucking do this? Or aren't you thinking straight? Probably never did anyway, so what's the point anyway girly?" One of the guys said as he dribbled the ball.

My mood swings kicked in and I growled under my breath before he began to taunt at me as his groups laughs.

I smacked the ball out of his hand (like ricegum did to Gabbie sorry not sorry) and threw it across the gym.

"I'm not in the fucking mood. " I hissed. 

I began to walk away and skipped gym fully.
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Rumors pass fast let me tell you.

Through out the day I been picked on by different people.

Shoved by the shoulder.
It didn't matter because I shoved them back or make a snobby comment.
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Everytime Connor or any of my  friends try to see what's wrong, I would walk past and try to get through the day.

Cramps were killing me so badly like  tiny knifes stabbing me.
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The day ended finally and I decided to walk home from all the bullshit.

I was flaming.

All I wanted to do is take something and sleep. I don't even care for the homework at all.
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*Huge time skip brought to me, the depressed kid :)*

I finally was home. I slammed the door and screamed.

No one was around anyway, mom is working or at her own school, studying.

I threw my backpack with out a care where it landed and pulled my shoes off, which made me hop on one foot to balance.  I locked the door. Then, I headed to my room.

My stomach was in so much pain. I just wanted to roll over and die.

I flopped onto my bed and tears rolled down my eyes.
I couldn't care less to go under the covers or so, I was in sooo much pain.

Rolling into a ball, I pulled my phone out of my pocket  with earbuds. I fumbled with the earbuds so they weren't all jumbled.

I put on asmr (a/n: fucking love Karuna Satori) and held my stomach.  As I stared at the white wall.
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My name was being called but it was like it was smothered by pudding or so. Just so faint.

Someone tapped on my shoulder.

I rolled over to face Connor kneeling to meet my face.

His mouthed moved but I couldn't hear very well. I rolled my eyes before taking my earbuds out.

I rubbed my eyes before wincing as I sat up.

"How did you get in my house?"

He smirked before replying, "I pick locked your door."

I gave him a look.

"Great. Now I have a robber in training in my house."

He laughed at my sarcasm.

"Yeah, i already stole your heart, it is a really bad habit of stealing things but you do it too."

I laughed at him as I still held my stomach.

"What did you use anyway?"

"Oh I used- hey, this isnt why I came here! I didnt come here to chat about me and my robbing self."

I tilted my head to the side a bit.

"I didn't do homework in math or science yet and probably not going to.  And I don't think I'm ready for-"

Connor waved his hands around.

"Woah, woah, woah, okay I'm not here for homework, who the fuck does it? Not me. Why would I want answers to it if you already know I barely do. Also, I'm not here for that yet. I'm here to care of you."

I gave him a 'what the fuck are you talking about' look.

He rolled his eyes and cupped my face.

"I know what your going through, I have a sister. She gets in a way too. And I knew that when you ignored me all day and made winces, I kinda didn't need any more hints. I brought things, like chocolate and such. I had to go to the store; that's why it took me so long to get here."

I gave him a hug. He seemed to be the only person who cared today at all to do anything.

I began to start to tear up and my voice got a bit high as if I would break down again.

"I-i had the most shitty day. I j-just wanna die, it is so horrible. No one cares. It is like tiny knives stabbing you harshfully."

He pulled back and wiped my tears away that were forming and already were slidding down my face.

"Lay down, I'll be back. Stop crying Ev, it will be okay." Connor quickly ran out the room.

I got under the covers and tried not screaming from the horrid pain.

I hated this. I hate blood. I hate the cramps. I hate it all.

Connor came back with a plastic bag somewhat filled.

I rolled over to face the wall again.
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He had brought chocolate, heating pads, and a gift of a book of tree facts.

"You didn't have to spoil me, you could have just brought yourself."

He rolled his eyes.

"You need a spoil once and a while."
I shrugged before I asked him one more question.

"Why Snickers?"

It was a stupid question, but why? He knew my favorite candy is Reese.

" Because you need to eat a Snickers when your not you"

I tried to hold back a laugh but failed. I laughed intil the pain in my stomach hurts.

"That's the stupidest and cutest shit that I heard."

I gave him a kiss on his forehead before lieing down again.

I put my earbuds in again before Connor wrapped his arms around me. The warmth of his arms gave me a comfort as heating pads lied on my abdomen. I nibbled on the chocolate. I faintly fell asleep knowing tomorrow will be a better day.

Heyo it is me, the author. Uh it took me a while to write, but didn't matter because I was stuck in the snow for like three hours. Fucking aye.  It is not fun and I am still in the car. Whoop whoop.

Love ya bubsy