A/n: nobody asked for anything or asked questions....so I thought to make this. Yes, Evan wears flower crowns in this story.
Warning: none. Maybe a kiss. (I'm going to stop warning the cuss words. You already fucking know about my potty mouth XD)

Connor's POV.

I hate school.

I mean, I already learned half of the shit. Not by repeating but by being smart and reading any book I could get my hand on (still do).

So, when Zoe was excited and talked about the the talent show, I didn't care.

When Zoe talked about the people. Still didn't give zero shits.

When Zoe talked about Evan Hansen, I was fucking listening all ears.

I am head over heels for this dude.

So, I came for school today. Stereotypical school crush, I know. But fall in love, like deep love that Adele is Rollin in it.

(Idgaf I had too)

Everyone was shocked in my family that I actually woke up and was sober. I usually am, mostly, but they still make fun of my coping skills. They still did even though they known. They don't care.

I slugged through the damned school day intil the period I waited for ( eighth period).

I know Evan never notices me. But I notice him.

So.....I decided to have the balls to do something big for all the three, going on four, years of me noticing him. Will I get in trouble, yes. Will it be worth it, fucking yeah. Am I going to lose all my dignity if I get rejected...... yeah.

No time to be pessimistic.

I took long breaths as we walked to additorum.
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The whole thing was okayish. I mean, it was more and the instruments than singing or comedy acts.

And not one was Evan.

Did Zoe do it on purpose? Just to fuck with my feelings? She said she is always there in a way when it comes to my feelings.

"And lastly and not least, the man of the hour, Evan Hansen."

My eyes looked up to the boy with the flower crown.

The light shines on him, which shows sparkles that he must've added on.

While people booed at his different looks, I smiled at myself.

He began to sing, 'i'm just your problem.'



A tear dropped from my eyes a few times because I could relate to the song.

I feel like I can't add up for anyone. I can't even meet up to the standards because someone started by putting me in a category and made me the bad guy. Which everyone believes since they don't bother to know the real me. The happy, true me. Not the mask or the stereotype. It had started by my father. Fuckin truely hate him with every fiber in my body that is seen and unseen.

I shook my head as I heard the last note he hitted before I got up.

"Hey!" My teacher hissed at me as I began to run near the stage.

I guess every teacher got signaled since a bunch tried to tackle me. Lucky my dad made me try baseball.

I ran up the stairs and Evan turned around to see me.

His face was unreadable. But I grabbed the microphone from him.

"Okay, calm your tits for one second....everyone. I just have one thing to say before you start rumors and I get out of school suspension."
I heavily breathed for a few seconds to see if anyone disagree.

Silence.

I nodded my head.

"Damn straight. Okay, hold on."

I put my hand that was free and pulled out the note I worked on all day.

"Evan. I known you since first grade.  You were different than anyone else in that room. You know it, I know it, damn sure this whole school knows it. You always put your best foot forward. You always had your head up high and smiled in everyway possible. You light up rooms so brightly that people through shade at you because that can't stand how perfect you are as human. I am possibly the gayest man alive. Ha, I liked you since I laid eyes on you. I know- what the fuck does that say?"

I squinted at the faint writing. I decided to just throw it randomly anywhere, keeping eye contact.

"What I mean in the end is, I know I am not perfect. No one is naturally. I know I did shit or still do stupid  shit. And I wanted to leave this Earth knowing the guy I love  loves me back or at least notices me. Hell, I don't know if your gay, but know out of this toxic school, I love you. And I want to just go on a date? No pressure here."

I handed the microphone to Evan that had tears forming in his eyes.

"Uh....h- yeah...yeah, I would."
He nodded fully, and jubilantly.

He dropped the microphone and wrapped his arms around my neck. He was trying his hardest to give me a hug, but I ended up kissing him.

A whole applause broke out like a wild fire.

I smiled as we broke apart. He tasted like cherry lollipops, which is not unusual since you can always see him with one in his mouth. Or any other candy you can think of.

I bowed one time before being dragged off.

I signaled a 'call me' as the security guard hassled with me. I stopped fussing after that and waited for the consequences.
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Two weeks of out school suspension from disruption and against the rules actions.

Didn't bother me in the slightest as it did for my parents. It made them more pissed, so I got grounded. They took my phone and everything except my four walls and my bed. They think that if I'm grounded the gay will go away and I'll rethink before I do.

There fucked. Seriously, because I climb out my window anyway and meet up with Evan. And I stay there for hours, sometimes days.

We called it official ever since the kiss.

So, I win. Either way. Fuck my dad and whoever had put me down in the past and present. I have what I needed. Evan.

A/n: yaaaaass. I fucking finished in an astonishing half and hour in the horrid car ride (again)

Dab on em'

Low-key, ask me anything, Q n A soon.

Love ya bubsy.