"Yoongi.."

His name softly left my lips. But I felt a sharp pain in my heart. He was looking at me. Deeply. But I knew, his mind was clouded with thousands of thoughts.

He stepped few steps away. Tears forming in his eyes. He shut his eyes closed and put his hands on his ears. It broke me seeing him suffering like that.

I wanted to run to him, hug him saying sorry and everything will be alright. But nothing will be alright. And he'll never forgive me. He never did.

Why? Because he hates me. It's obvious though. I do blame myself. I'm the reason he lost someone whom he dearly adored. I'm the reason he's suffering.

I saw him, suffering. I couldn't do anything. He'll just push me away if I went to him. But I stepped forward.

He put his hands up gesturing me to stop. He needed to be alone. So did I. I stared at him for awhile and left him there, alone.

I went to the rooftop only to be greeted by the beautiful moonlight. But it felt so ugly at that moment. Everything felt ugly. Yoongi's hurt face was all I could think about.

I sat there and cried. Cried and screamed my heart out. Time passed like that. Minutes left, turning into hours. My tears dried on my cheek.

I looked up at the moon. The environment was too calm. I suddenly started sobbing bitterly. The tears which are coming from my eyes right now, aren't the tears of guilt and regret this time.

Those are the tears of an unknown dark feeling  buried deep inside the heart.

I felt lifeless. My tears couldn't stop. I gave up. I didn't try to stop them anymore. What's the point of wiping tears when they'll get out just after?

Suddenly I heard a beep sound from my phone. I didn't feel like checking, but I did, hoping that something might cheer me up a bit.

But I was wrong. It was an unknown number. Is it the same person I blocked previously? I questioned myself. Becoming somewhat curious I pressed on the message.

<<unknown>>
Oof you don't deserve anything.
Die, that's the only best thing you can do.
Hate you.

I stared at their text. For the first time, after reading their text, I didn't laugh. For the first time I didn't called this person stupid for threatening me. For the first time I didn't blocked or deleted them.

For the first time, I did feel them right.

They are right. I don't deserve to live after what I've done to others. I have hurt so many people. I even hurt someone who's so dear to me. I desrve death.

I lightly walked toward the edge of the rooftop. I looked down at the busy city. I was never afraid of heights. This time too, I didn't feel scared at all. A smile, which held no emotion, formed on my lips.

1..

2..

So this is how I die huh? Didn't even say goodbye to my friends and families. Shoot I didn't even visit my parents grave. I had a lot of things to do. Agh Chaerin stop wasting your time and jump!

3..

"What the fuck are you doing!?" someone harshly pulled me and bumped my head on their chest hardly.

I didn't bother to look at the person. "Let me go.." I pleaded. But they never let me go. I looked up to find a concerned Taehyung looking at me.

"Why are you doing this to me Chaerin ah? Stop making things hurtful." He was so close. Our lips were few inches apart.

I stared at his dark eyes. They resemble the ocean in which I'm slowly drowning in. He looked so beautiful. His eyes were so perfect. His nose and that little mole on his nose, they're all perfect. His crimson pink lips, they look so soft. His skin was glowing.

I forgot to breath for a moment. He's just too perfect. Am I drunk? Maybe.

"Please I've to go.." I said still lost in his eyes.

He leaned closer pressing his forehead on mine. He was too close. I didn't feel uncomfortable. I didn't feel nervous. I felt..safe. I stare at his dark ocean eyes which stared back at mine.

"Where?" he said deeply. His raspy voice sent chills down my spine. I looked away.

"They are right. I don't deserve anything! I don't deserve any love! I deserve to die! I hurt people! None needs me!–"

He cut me off, "Shh. Stop speaking nonsense."

I tilted my head a little and waited for him to continue.

"Listen to what I say. You deserve the whole universe. You deserve all the love in this world. You don't fucking deserve any hate! You don't hurt people, you cure people. And everyone needs you, I need you."

"But Tae–"

He cut me off again.

But pressing his soft lips on mine this time. His lips are so soft. He didn't kiss me. He just pressed his lips for a long time. It felt like a long peck.

"You talk too much." he said and pressed his lips on mine once again. I was too shock at that moment. He pulled away giving me the warmest smile.

"What–"

"Can I kiss you again?" he asked and I felt my heart skipped some beats. I was too shock to utter a single word.

"I'll take this silence as a yes." he said and leaned again. He kissed me this time. His crimson pink lips dancing against mine. I closed my eyes melting into his sweet kiss.

He deepened the kiss. His lips wanting mine. This time I couldn't hold myself back. I kissed him back. I forgot what I was doing some moments ago. About Yoongi, about the stupid suicide and every shits. All I could feel now is Taehyung's lips moving against mine.

We knew this moment will end soon. But both of wanted this moment to last forever. Under the moon, Taehyung's and my lips dancing in the rhythm of the moonlight, was one of the best moment in both of our life.

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