I head home to the apartment, Ruby's working late tonight so I probably won't see her. I really hope that Tink isn't home either I'm in no mood to see her. I walk up the stairs my legs dragging like I'm over tired. I stop at the top and that's when I see him. He's sitting on the floor next to the door, a flask of something sitting next to him. His knees are pulled up to his chest and he's got his head down. I clear my throat. When he looks up my heart breaks, his face is cut up and bruised. He stares at me with pain in his eyes.

"Why?" I ask.

"He threatened to hurt you," he says low enough that I almost don't hear him.

"I can take care of myself Killian," I say.

I walk to the door and start putting my keys in. He stands grunting in pain as he does. My hands are shaking and I can't seem to get the key in the hole. Frustrated and embarrassed I try harder. It finally goes in, but it sticks. I curse under my breath. A heavy hand is on my shoulder. I swing around wanting to hit him, but don't because I know he's in pain, so I just push lightly at his chest.

"Don't!"

"Emma I..."

"Stop fighting because of me!" I raise my voice. "Just stop, okay? I don't want to be responsible for Gold kicking you out of school. What part of I can handle my own damn self do you not get? I don't need a guy or anyone to fight for me!"

"I know that you can Emma, we all know that you can. I'm sorry for what I said the other night, your dad he was just trying to protect what is his, I get that. He wants to protect what is his as much as I do," he says.

"I'm not yours to protect," the words are out before I can stop them.

I lift my hand off his chest and cover my mouth with a hard slap. I try to push them away, but today is just not the day for it because the tears don't want to listen. Hurt crosses his face and I feel terrible.

"Why do you push people away? I see you do it with Ruby and I saw you do it with your dad that night, why?"

"Because everyone leaves in the end," I say.

"That's not true," he says.

"You don't know anything," I say pushing him lightly.

I know I've hurt him because he winces. I want to apologize, but I'm so heated in the moment that I can't.

"I know that if you were mine I wouldn't," he says.

"Oh, and the other night was not you leaving? HUH?" I yell tempted to hit him again.

He takes a step back.

"Bloody hell, I'm sorry Emma! Is that what you want to hear? I didn't mean anything I said that night, I was in a mood and angry and I take back everything. I wasn't expecting to like you Emma, but you pushed my buttons in a way no girl has ever pushed them before. You are someone that I'm fighting to be a hero for," he says. "I tried so hard to fight it to keep you out of the mess of a life that I have, but every time we argue I start finding more ways to argue and annoy you just so that you'll talk to me," he says. "Emma I..."

I don't let him continue his thought, I slam my lips into his and he groans in pain.

"Oh my god I'm sorry," I say forgetting.

"It's fine," he growls wrapping his arms around my lower back and pulling me into him.

"Let's take this inside," I say.

Again I attempt to put the key in the door and this time it opens. I throw everything on the ground not caring where any of it ends up. Killian closes the door and before I can even turn around he's kissing me. My stomach twitches in a way it's never done before. I moan loud enough for the neighbors to hear. He kisses along the side of my neck and nips at my ear.

I spin to face him and his hair hangs low in his face, he almost looks like a mad man with his crazed eyes and messy hair, but it makes me want him more. I grab the fabric of his shirt and pull him towards me leading him to the bedroom. I stumble nearly tripping while walking backwards, and he chuckles. Killian decides to swoops me up into his arms, but nearly drops me from all of his wounds. I giggle as he attempts to kick open my door and fails. I laugh again. Reaching down I grab the knob and twist, then he kicks it again and it opens with a bang. He sets me down after shutting the door. I spin around and he comes right at me tearing at my clothing, and I do the same. He pushes me towards the bed and I sit allowing him to pull my shirt up over my head. I start to unbutton the few buttons that he has closed all while he pushes me back on the bed crawling over me. His head dips low as he inspects my body.

"You sure about this?" he asks.

"Positive," I say practically panting.

I push his head down and he laughs as he kisses gently kisses my collar bone, using his finger tips to make circles low on my stomach right at the waist of my waistline. I reach and start to unbuckle his dark jeans, the sound of the metal on his belt clinks together. He wiggles out of his jeans and skin to skin with him feels more than good. His fingers dance along the outline of my underwear. I honestly wasn't expecting this tonight so of course I've picked out my best granny panties to wear for the occasion.

His fingers glide up my leg as he teases me along the outline of my underwear. Wetness seeps into my underwear, and the effect he's having on my body multiplies. He moans when he feels what is waiting for him below the pantyline. My back arches up from his touch, for someone with such big calloused fingers, his touch is soft.

"Bloody hell Emma you are..."

I cut him off with my lips, and he continues to gently stroke me with his fingers. I let go of the tingling in my stomach and moan as I do. Killian smiles into my mouth and bites at my lip tugging hard.

"My turn," I say.

I reach for him and he hisses when I grab a hold. His body jerks forward has I take him all in my hand. He pulls his head back, but with my free hand I pull him back to my lips. I slide his tight underwear down and he kicks it off when it reaches his ankles.

"Nightstand," I say between kisses.

He knows what I mean and hops off for a quick second to pull one out. He slides it over his length and then hoovers over me on all fours.

"You sure you want this luv?" he asks.

I nod, "Yes," I say.

He's looking for any indication that I'm just being impulsive and foolish, but I don't give him a reason to think I'm going to regret this in the morning. Carefully holding himself steady he slides himself in and I think I nearly lose it right there. It never felt like this with Neal, it was always rushed and I never almost came undone before we even got started.

Gently he leans down and starts kissing my neck again. I arched up and he hisses as our bodies collide, causing him to go deeper. I hear him curse in a good way and I continue to arch my back causing me to let go multiple times. I push him so that he rolls onto his back and now it's my turn. My hair falls into my face and every time it does he carefully places it back behind my ear.

"Emma," he moans.

I can feel him tense up and the minute he let's go, I come done at the seams. I roll off and grab a roll of paper towels I keep on my desk and hand it to him, then sit back down on the edge of the bed. Killian reaches up and once again pushes the hair from my face.

"Come here luv," he says.

He stretches his arms out and I lay my head on his chest. His heart thuds against my ear soothing me. He runs a hand through my sweaty hair and plants a kiss on my head. I turn myself and rest my chin on his chest so I can look at him. I place a hand against his scruffy cheek and rub against it with my thumb. He closes his eyes and smiles.

"Date me Emma Swan," he says opening his eyes.

"Are you asking, or is that a demand?" I question. "And what does dating you entail?" I ask.

"I have exclusive rights to you, as do you, for me."

"Oh yeah, and what else?"

"Whatever we just did here, we do that... a lot," he says with a smirk.

"A lot, huh?" I ask.

"Is that a yes Ms. Swan?" he asks.

"I don't know what's in it for me?"

"The pleasure of my company," he says.

"Oh is that so? And that's just supposed to persuade me to say yes?"

"I mean look at me Swan, how could you say no," he chuckles.

I can't help but giggle. When I first met Killian I never thought would ever hear those words out of his mouth, but hearing them makes me giddy with happiness like I've never felt before.

"Okay," I whisper.

"What's that Swan I can't hear you?"

"YES Killian, I will date you," I say.

He laughs. "Perfect, now can we try that again?" he asks.

"I have no idea what thing you speak of," I teased.

He takes hold of me hovering over again with a hungry look in his eyes. I know exactly what thing he speaks of and I'm shocked that I'm saying yes. It's in that moment with Killian my wall cracks a little bit more.

I wake up to Killian quietly sleeping next to me, his mouth slightly open. After two rounds of amazing sex we took a shower and then snuck back into my room, while Ruby snored loudly on the couch. We stayed up talking until the sun rose and the faintest light poured through the curtains

Killian stirs slightly and he's smiling before even opening his eyes.

"Hey," I say.

"Morning luv," he says.

He props himself up on his elbows leaning in for a kiss. My phone interrupts the moment. Groaning I reach for it hoping it's not Neal or Regina, it's been a while since I woke up happy.

Mom: Dinner tonight at our place, bring that boy of yours if you can I'd like to meet him. Xox

"What is it luv?" He asks.

"It's my mom," I say, I'm kind of in shock my father would agree to this meeting. "She wants us to come for dinner tonight," I say.

"Us as in me and you?" He asks.

"Yeah..." I trail off.

"Do you not want me to go?"

"I do, I just don't know how I feel about you and my father in the same room, and did he actually agree to this?"

"I don't have to go luv, you could make up an excuse like I had to work or something..."

"I want you to go with me, I'm just nervous," I say.

"Why not drag Ruby with us, she can be our buffer," he suggests.

"That's not a bad idea, let me see if that works for her," I say.

"I have some things to take care of, should I meet you back here around four?"

"That sounds good. You sure you want to do this?" I ask again.

He plants a small kiss on my lips then pulls away.

"Sure luv, I don't mind at all," he says.

Killian and I get dressed and head out into the main room. Of course sitting at the table eating a heaping bowl of ice cream is Ruby. She looks up and smirks, but something is off.

"Well, well, well," she taunts, "What do we have here?"

"Two people who shagged right in there" he points to my room, "While you slept soundly on the couch," he smirks.

"TMI Jones, TMI," she says.

I walk him to the door, unsure of how to say goodbye. He leans down and whispers in my ear, "See you later luv," he says.

I shut the door behind him turn around and lean up against it. Ruby stops shoveling the ice cream in and stares at me.

"What?" I ask.

"You're blushing so hard," she laughs.

"You suck," I laugh.

I go over to the drawer and take out another spoon to join her.

"What's with the ice cream?" I ask.

"Can't a girl drown her sorrow in a heaping bowl of ice cream?" She asks.

"What's wrong Ruby?" I ask.

"You know how I once confided in you that I don't really find boys attractive?" She aks.

I nod.

"I met a girl, but I'm not so sure if she's into me or not," she says.

"Why do you think that? And she'd be crazy not to like you," I say.

"You just have to say that because you're my best friend," she says.

"I'm serious lady, any girl or guy would be lucky to have you. Ask her out it can't hurt," I say. "And if she says no, I'll be waiting with another big bowl of ice cream to eat our problems away," I tell her.

She laughs, "She's in my psych class, I guess I could talk to her then," she says.

"Can't hurt," I say.

"He's changed you, and you don't even know it," she says with a smile..

"Good or bad?" I ask.

"In a good way. In all the years I've known you, I've never seen your smile reach your eyes before," she says.

"I feel happy, but am I doing the right thing? I feel like he's got all of these pent up secrets that are gonna eventually come to the surface and I'm gonna regret getting close to him. I've already opened up to him, I've let him in and there's no turning back," I say. "If he's the guy Tink says he is then he's gonna break me for good," I say.

"Look, I don't have much experience in the guy department since the only guy who broke my heart was in high school, but opening yourself up isn't necessarily a bad thing. Killian might have skeletons in his closet, but the way that boy looks at you and how he's so set on protecting your heart I think eventually anything in the past will eventually be brought to the surface. I don't think he will slip back into who he was when he was in Peters crew, but if he does revert in the slightest the love you have for him is enough to pull him back," she says.

"What if it's not, or what if he does something so awful that even the way I feel for him won't be enough for me to want to pull him back. This boy has the potential to be my greatest love, or the boy who tears me down."

"My advice is don't look to the future, live in the moment with him and enjoy him. Keep him close, but don't let your wall fully come down. I think you two have something special and you shouldn't let fear guide you. You deserve to be happy Emma" she says.

I wrap my arms around her, "Where would I be without you?" I ask her.

"You'd be lost my dear," she says.

I take a spoonful of ice cream and lick the spoon clean.

"What are your plans tonight?"

"Nothing actually," she says.

"How would you like to play referee between my dad and Killian during a Nolan family dinner?" I ask.

"A showdown between Chief Swan and Mr. Jones, I wouldn't miss it for the world," she says.

"Good, be ready by four" I say licking the last of the ice cream off my spoon.