PHILIP'S POV

I was glad to see Chris at school today. I love sharing art class with her. It's weird not having her in more of my classes though, and we hung out all summer so it's weird to be back in a group again, but I was so glad to see her running up to me when she saw me in art. He smile really is amazing. I'm not sure why she doesn't think she's beautiful, and she still won't believe me when I tell her she could be a model, but she really could, I just wish she'd believe me.

We talked about random stuff during art, and I saw this mean girl, Jenny glare at her a few times, she's probably just jealous that she isn't as pretty as Chris. Chris really is oblivious, I love her to pieces, but sometimes she has no clue about the things I do to show her I'm in love with her. We said our goodbyes when the bell rang, and she promised to meet me at my locker on the way to lunch.

The rest of my morning was pretty boring without her there. I had a class with Jordan, and I told him about Chris being as oblivious as ever. He understands since he's got the same problem with Angie, but at least Angie likes him, I mean, that's obvious. They even act like a couple. Chris just doesn't like me the same way I like her. I'm stuck in the friend zone, and I think I'll be there forever.

After my morning classes I sped to my locker, and waited for Chris to meet up with me. I was interrupted by my waiting by Poppy. Don't get me wrong, Poppy is one of my best friends, but I think she has a crush one me, and I just don't feel the same way, I told her I liked Chris a while ago, but she started laughing, and telling me that she was better, that I'd understand soon. I don't really get what she's trying to accomplish but I don't like her like that and I'm not going to.

"Hey guys!" I heard Chris say from behind us. She sounded a little down? I'm sure it's nothing.

We all headed to lunch only for me to find our Chris wasn't eating again. I playfully shoved a pop tart practically down her throat, in response to have her glare at me and swallow the rest while Ray laughed his ass off. I tried to keep myself from staring at Chris as she joked around with everyone. She was just so perfect, and I'm just... not. As lunch wrapped up we all decided to meet up at Ray's house later tonight. Great! I wouldn't be stuck at home while my dad drank up a storm, and my mom yelled at him, while I took care of my three year old sister, maybe they'd send her to daycare tonight. I wish she could grow up in a nice house hold. Not even Chris knows what goes on at home for me. I don't want to bother her with more stress. She seems to stress enough on her own anyway.

I walked back to my locker and got ready to finish the rest of my boring day. It was a pretty normal school day, nothing too interesting and I decided to walk home from school since I hated the school bus. I saw Chris leaving too but decided against seeing her in case she would want to walk home with me. I couldn't let her see that side of my life. I need her still thinking I live a perfect life at home, she can't see my bad side. I'm not good enough for her and I can't drag her into my sucky problems.

A/N: I honestly thought this chapter was longer......

I feel like a bad person
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Eliza Schuyler Hamilton 💙💙