Haniya's POV:-

People say you move on.  They tell us to be patient and let our hearts heal slowly. They tell us that it will be ok but they don't know us, they aren't with us when we are all alone. They don't feel what we feel deep in our hearts. They tell us to forget and stop waiting, to stop loving, to move ahead and to not to think about those who left because they think their thoughts hurt our souls. Little does they know that memories are the most precious to us.

Memories are the only thing we are left with to calm our hearts, to fill the emptiness.

"You know what Shayaan? There are days when I smile for you, remembring the times we spent together and then there are days I cry myself to sleep because your absence haunts me. But today is one of the worst days, when I feel like no matter how long it's been I think about you and suddenly It gets harder to breath" I spoke with my eyes glued to the shiny stars up in the pitch dark sky.

Sitting near the window of our room, holding his picture close to my heart I talked to him like I've done everyday in the past three years. As the sun settles down and darkness spread on the sky I spend my time with him, with his memories.

I got up and put his picture on the table. Walking upto the cupboard I opened it and my hands unknowingly reached upto Shayaan's coat he wore on our wedding day.

"How handsome you looked that day. That day you completed my life" I whispered as I carassed his coat. Few tears trickled down my lashes as my throat went dry. Clenching his coat in my hands, hugging it to my chest I slid down against the cupboard and sobbed.

When we cry it doesn't mean that we are weak, it shows that we have been strong for too long and we need to let the hurt out in the form of these small saltish droplets.

"Haniya!" Someone took my name and I hurriedly wiped my tears as I stood up and placed his coat inside the cupboard.

"Gosh! Here you are and your hurricane daughter has been searching for you everywhere" Rameen came inside the room, a slight frown and disapproval was evident on her face.

"She is crying and you know that you are the only one who can handle her" she said as she came closer.

"I was about to go, I just...." I sighed shutting my eyes and she hugged me.

"I know you Haniya. Its been years but his each and every belonging is safe here in this room. I know why you spend your time all alone, sitting here" she assured as we pulled back.

"He is there. I feel him Rameen, in every corner, in every breath of mine. He is there in my heart, in my mind, in my soul.  I can never let his memories fade. I promised him I'll never stop loving him, I'll never stop smiling. I can only live if his memories are with me" I replied with a smile and she nodded with a assuring look.

"Now go before she turn the entire house upside down" Rameen laughed popping her eyes out acting horrified.

"Going" I shook my head, laughing.

I entered in her room and she was sitting on her bed with her books spread all over her as she sniffled looking adoreable.

"What happened Emaan? Why are you crying baby?" I frowned as I opened my arms wide, sitting on my knees as to level her small height. She ran towards me and wrapped her delicate hands around my neck.

She is my Emaan-- my faith. I lost my faith, I lost my hope of living but when for the first time I held her in my arms that hope, that belief came back. She made me believe in myself when I just wanted to die.

She is so like Shayaan. Her eyes, her anger issues, the way her eyes crinkle when she smiles, the way she make me laugh, the way she calms my heart. She is exactly like him. I can see Shayaan's image in her brown pearls.

"Mom I want Dad. Everyone has their dad. You talk to him I know. Tell him to come back for me" she pouted wiping her tears and looked at me with hopeful eyes.

Only if he could come back my love.

"Dad loves you! Whenever you think you need him, place your hand on your heart and imagine him being around you. He lives here" I placed her hand on her heart and she knitted her eyebrows in confusion.

"Really Mom?" She gave an amused smile and I nodded in response. She hugged me again, pulling back she pecked my cheek and ran outside the room.

"I see my brother in her. He was as crazy and full of life as Emaan is" Salman stood there near the door, his arms crossed on his torso.

"I know Salman. When Shayaan left he left a part of himself in the form of her for us" I smiled at him and he came towards me.

"You let Steven go. You never filed a case against him and I don't know why. If I was at your place I would have beaten him to death myself" Suddenly his expressions went stif and anger spread in his eyes.

"I forgave him. God will punish him for me as He never do injustice to anyone. I could have filed a case against him but I didn't its not about him, its about me. Its what my beliefs and morals are. The guilt of ruining the life of that one person he claimed to love in his heart is the greatest punishment for him" My breath became heavy as I spoke.

How can a heart hold hatered when it has loved deeply?

"Its the most selfless you have ever been. Shayaan must be proud of you. We all are" He patted my head lovingly and I sucked in a deep breath to calm my thumping heart because I was flodded with hurt again.

"How are you doing Haniya? If you need anything I'm there" He asked all concerned.

"In these three years you have actually taken care of me and Emaan just like a brother. I can never thank you enough" I said with honesty and he chuckled.

"You are my baby sister and you will always be" He ruffled my hair and I made a face.

"Hani!! Your friend has come to meet you. Come downstairs" Amara's voice came from downstairs.

"Coming" I replied and descended downstairs.

As I went downstairs I found James playing with Emaan. He had few chocolates in his hands and she was too small to reach them as she struggled by jumping up but to no avail.

"Jammy give them to me" she whined but in return my idiot best fried laughed devilishly.

"Don't tease my daughter" I smacked his head lightly as I eyed him. He laughed, rubbing the spot and finally gave the chocolates to her.

"Yaay Thank you Jammy!" She danced idiotically and we both laughed.

"You are welcome darling" He kissed her cheek and she smiled wide at him.

She is so attatched to James as not a single day goes by when he don't visit us. He never got married as he thought that he won't be able to love anyone just like he loved Selena.

"How do you stop loving the one who left?" James asked as we sat on the stairs outside.

"How can I miss him when I never forget him James. We don't forget, we can't. Its just that we get used to of feeling a certain way, we learn to live with it. It becomes hurtful but normal at the same time to miss the one person we can't have" I passed him a weary smile and he sighed knowing exactly what I feel.

After talking for a while he left and I went inside my room and sat on the bed, closed the lights and smiled to myself as I shut my eyes, all ready to drift into the valley of sleep far away from harsh realities.

Death is a reality and its gonna snatch away someone you love, it can be anyone dear to you. Its how life is. Life is not a bed of roses and you will find thorns on every path. But you gotta stay strong and keep walking.

But for two hearts which beat for eachother, for two souls which are merged together, for two people who love eachother uncondionally, death never fades the love between them. Love keeps blossiming deep in our hearts like the flowers blossom in spring.

It didn't matter to me from where Shayaan came or why he came in my life. All that mattered to me was how he made me feel. How he stood by my side in every obstacle I had to cross. I laughed more when he was around, I discovered things about me, he made me strong and independent.

Someday someone is going to come in your life. Someone will find you, take a hold of you and who knows he may certainly change your entire life. But the thing is somethings are meant to happen, not meant to be. Somethings are meant to come in your life just not meant to stay.

I love him and will always do till I take my last breath on this Earth. For being trapped into love isn't easy. Its like being trapped in a beautiful, tempting cage with no key. Once you step in you can't leave.

If it doesn't hurt then what's the point? Love hurts! Love till it hurts, love till it kills you, love everyday as long as you are breathing, Love until you lay in your grave.

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