Song: I get to love you by Ruelle

I love being on the back of his bike. I love the way the motor sits underneath me...vibrating my soul to life. The wind plays with my hair causing a few tangles in the ends but for some reason I don't mind. The cool breeze of the wind settles over my warm skin from the sun high above us and as I close my eyes I take him in smelling the scent of his light scented shampoo and body wash, snuggling into him as my arms wrap around his waist, so close it feels like we are molded together. I never thought that I would want to be this close to someone but there is something about him that makes me want to gravitate to him.

When he pulls up at the Pharmacy I am surprised this is the place he chose of all places. The very first place we went to have milkshakes. He holds my hand so that I can get off the back of his bike and then he gets off. He even helps taking off the helmet and stops long enough to kiss me in the process. We hold each other's hands as we go in and Tabitha is behind the counter grinning ear to ear.

"Well...well...well what do we have here...you two are back and I see still together." She smacks her gum.

"Good afternoon Tabitha."

"You too sweetheart...what can I get for you?"

Kodiak says, "The usual of course."

"You got it...." She turns away from us and starts fixing us a milkshake. Instead of sitting at the counter today we go over to the far corner. We sit side by side, which gives me goose bumps all along my skin. It shouldn't but it does. Every time I am this close to him it just happens.

Tabitha brings over the milkshakes still smacking her gum. She smiles at the both of us. "Hope you enjoy them...by the way you too look so cute together."

We look at each other and smile. "Thanks Tabitha," we say in unison.

He takes a big sip and then holds his head, "Brain freeze!"

I roll my eyes at him and start laughing. We finish up the milkshakes and then head outside to his bike.

"So what do you want to do?" he asks me.

"I don't know...I'm not ready to go home so..."

"You could come over to my house. I mean it's probably crazy and all but we could go stay in my room or go to the castle." Meaning the fort in the middle of the woods. If we went we would have to take Kia with us which would be alright I guess but it would be nice if we could just be alone.

"Sure it sounds great."

So that is what we do...go to his house. His sister of course are fighting over something in the living room and then run to the kitchen to tell on each other for whatever it is their fighting over. Kia is in his room trying to avoid his sister's, when he sees us walk by his room he jumps up and runs towards me to wrap his arms around my waist.

"You want to play with me?"

I look at Kodiak and back to Kia. "Uhm...sure why not."

Kodiak rolls his eyes at me for not being able to say no to his brother. We both go into his room and sit down to play with the dinosaurs. We play for about an hour and I start to yawn. "Kia I'm getting tired do you mind if I go take a short nap?"

"You can lie in my bed and take a nap."

Kodiak laughs, "Little man...you trying to steal my girl."

"No...Ewe..."

Kodiak stands up and reaches for my hand to help me up. I tap Kia on the shoulder. "Thanks for letting me play with you maybe we can again later before I go home alright."

He nods his head and we walk off to Kodiak's room. You can still hear his sister going at it again. "Dear lord do they do this all the time I mean really."

"Yes...all the freaking time and when Kia gets in the mix it's even worse. Don't you wish you lived here?"

"Uhmmmmm.....not really," I laugh. He turns on the radio however at times you can still hear them screaming at each other. "Can we get out of here...this is just too much for me...sorry."

"Don't be sorry; I know what you mean."

We sneak out the back door only because we plan on going out into the woods and really just want to be alone with no one around us. We make our way all the way to the fort and he pulls me inside. I can tell he has been here earlier because he has extra blankets stored in here. I watch as he gets out a blanket and lays in on the ground and then another one to make it a little more comfortable. He turns to grab my hand and then leads me to the blanket on the floor. There is still enough daylight to bring light into the small fort, enough to see each other.

"Is this quite enough for you?" he asks as he looks around the room.

I sit and listen to the sounds around us and it is so quite, just us breathing and occasionally the wind rustling the tree branches outside. I nod my head.

He leans into me and his hand finds mine and somehow or another we are kissing and before I even realize it we are laying back against the blanket. Our hands explore each other while our lips stay in contact with each other. His body weights me down and I love the pressure on top of me. He stays there for a few minutes and the sits up to take off his shirt. When he does I go to take mine off but he stops me and he takes over taking it the rest of the way off. Then he snaps the back of my bra and lays it on top of my shirt. The next thing to go our jeans and he stands up to take his off and then he helps me out of mine. We lay back down and as his hands roam my body he takes the rest of my clothing off of me. We lay there for a while in silence just admiring the feeling of our bodies next to each other skin on skin. It is getting a little darker outside and the sunlight is hitting just right to see his golden eyes staring back into mine.

He whispers, "I want you more than anything right now." He kisses me again.

I inhale for a few seconds and then exhale. I want him to. I want him more than anything I just don't know how to react, how to respond to him touching me that way. What if I freak out? What if that is something that my body will not allow me to do? I keep thinking of all the negative things that run through my mind and push them away...what if it is the most amazing feeling ever...what if.

I reach up and kiss him and then nod yes. "I want you too...can we go slow though just in case...I just don't want to freak out on you."

"You sure about this?"

"Yes..." His lips trail down my neck and then back up to my lips. He avoids my ears because he knows that I can't tolerate that area being touched. His hands glide to my breast and then other areas of my body. When he is ready he looks at me again.

"You really sure...I just don't want to hurt you?"

When I nod again he accepts that and he goes slow, watching my every move to making sure that I am alright. I can't explain the feeling that comes over me. It's different that is for sure. It's oddly the right amount of pressure that doesn't cause me to panic but I should be panicking. This should not be happening. What was I thinking...wait I wasn't thinking? However this feeling, this feeling is amazing and there are no words for it. I cant think all thoughts suddenly disappear. When he is done he looks back up to me to make sure that I am still breathing and that I am ok.

"Did I hurt you? Are you alright?" he searches for my thoughts as he keeps looking into my eyes.

"I'm alright and no you didn't hurt me. I mean at first but then it was like the pain went away and everything was fine...really...why are you looking at me like that."

"Nothing...you're...you're just so beautiful."

He stops to look towards the door. "It's dark out...we better be getting back." He gets up and starts to put his clothes on. He hands me mine so that I can get dressed. When I get up he looks down at the blanket. I look down and see a small stain of blood. "You said I didn't hurt you."

"You didn't I'm fine...really."

He picks up the blanket and rolls it up. The other blanket he folds and puts back on the shelf. He takes my hand and carries the blanket with the other hand so that when he gets back to the house he can throw it in the washing machine. I'm surprised when we walk back into his house no one says anything and the house has actually calmed down some. I head to the bathroom to clean up a little more. I'm still bleeding so I look under the sink and sure enough there is a pad in there so I use it just in case. I really don't want to bleed through my jeans that would be so embarrassing.

When I come out he grabs my hand and pulls me into his bedroom. "You sure you are alright?"

"Yes...I'm fine...really. It was just a little bit of blood I hear that it happens your first time."

"Ok...I just don't want to hurt you." His lips find mine again. "You ready...if I don't get you home in time they may ground you all summer." He holds onto my hand and I follow him outside to his bike.

When I get home he walks me up to the door and kisses me yet again. I was waiting on him to ask me again if I was alright but he doesn't. Instead he reaches up and holds my face in his hands. He kisses me again. "God I love you."

"I love you too."