A special chapter! A look into Chromia's mind set and feelings. This chapter is a very sad one, and I'm hoping I nailed it enough to reach out to my readers! I'm still learning and evolving in the trying to get the readers heart strings tugged. Tell me what you think! 

"You were my best friend."

"I need you."

"I-I loved you Mia."

"Danniluk..."

"What kind of mother are you?"

"Mother..."

"Your no better then a con!"

"Mia?"

"Please don't leave me... I need you..."

"Mia!"

Chromia gasped, grasping her chassis as she opened her optics.

"Frag it all would you pay attention femme!?" A mech stood before her, grey and red. 

"Ironhide."

"What? Mia' you gotta pay more attention." Ironhide scolded. 

"Less talking, more fighting." Wheeljack shouted as he jumped another con, kicking its head clean off and then taking an explosive and shoving it down a insecticons mouth. "I'm just getting warmed up."

The insecticon gave a shrill cry before it imploded upon its self. 

"Nicely done." Ironhide smirked. "But I can do better." He raised his cannon, firing shot after shot and taking kill after kill with ease.

"Yeah, your a real pro alright. A show off too." Wheeljack snickered.

"This old bot has some moves still and don't you forget it." Ironhide retorted before glancing at Chromia. "Mia, you'll get hurt if you don't start paying attention. Where's your processor at?"

Chromia shook her head. "It's nothing..."

"Then lets go before we become chow for these insects."

The three made their way across a barren land, they'd been there to pick up Ironhide who was under heavy fire power. Well, until they came to even the odds. Now they had the cons on the run! Chromia activated her blaster, firing shot after shot before switching to a plasma cannon like her mate and took down con after con. Her gaze shot to an advancing enemy and fired.

It was chaos where they were and the enemy waves were not faltering at all and days had passed. Chromia held her chassis when she felt something twinge, wincing in pain before hearing Ironhide shout at her to move. She looked up in time to see an insecticon tackle her, ripping at her body. Chromia screamed in shock and pain, fighting the insect off of her until it bit her and she felt herself go limp.

"Get off of her!" Ironhide roared, kicking the creature off of her and firing his cannon at the con till it was naught but dust. "Mia? You alright?"

She saw warnings appearing all over. Systems draining, energon lowering, collateral damage to her side and arm, poison had been coating that creatures fangs. "Nng! I've been poisoned." She hissed.

"Stay with me." Ironhide spoke, "Wheeljack! We need a medic!"

"There's one back on the ship, I picked her up a while back."

Ironhide picked her up and began running, he'd sooner leave the planet then risk his mates life. "Cover me!"

"You got it!" Wheeljack replied as he brought out more bombs. "I think today's going to be a blast, what about you?" He taunted the insects as he fired explosive after explosives.

Ironhide ran, dodging fire and enemies as he made his way to the ship, looking down at Chromia who had been getting worse. "Primus what was IN that poison?" He hissed.

"C-Cybonic plague."

"No..."

"Chormia..."

"Scrap!" Ironhide hissed before placing Mia down and standing in front of her. "What do you want con?"

"Give us the femme."

"Over my dead rusting body!"

"That can be arranged."

"Mia, I loved you..."

"Mika?" Chromia called, she was starting to grow weaker.

"I need you..."

"Mika... I'm so sorry..."

"Your my best friend."

"Your mine too." Chromia whispered. "Please forgive me..."

"I love you Danniluk."

"I love you, I do. You have no idea... Mika... Miko..."

"Mia?"

Chromia closed her eyes as Ironhides voice began to get feint.

"Mia?" 

She opened them again to see Mika staring down at her. 

"Mika?"

"You fell asleep on us!" Mika laughed, Miko stood next to her. 

"We're missing creature double feature!" Miko pouted. "Bulks waiting for us to finish to movie mom."

"M..ov..ie?"

"You don't remember? Optimus went out on scouting, Ratchets being grumpy again and Arcee and Bee went on a mission. We got bored and you said you'd watch with me." 

"Alright." Chromia furrowed her brows, following Mika.

"Chromia!"

Chromia blinked, she was back in Ironhides arms. "Ironhide.."

"Just stay with me alright sweetspark? We're looking for the cure, you gotta hold on for me okay?"

"I-Ironide... remember the sparklings?"

"Of course I remember them."

"They... they weren't dead."

"What?"

"I bore them." She whispered. "And tried to kill them."

"Mia your hallucinating."

"I-I got drunk... there was someone there at the... the party... Soundwave... they were his. I hated them. Ironhide I'm so s-sorry..."

"What are you- Mia tell me your lying to me."

"I hated them, primus I hated them." Chromia cried, her spark was frantic now. "I regret it so much hide, I-I'm so sorry..."

"Hey, hey! Open your eyes!"

"Their... on earth."

"What?"

"The sparklings, my children... their on earth... trapped in human form. Protect them Hide."

"Don't talk like that!"

"Promise me."

"Mia please."

"Promise..."

"I promise, pit femme I promise!"

"I love you Hide."

"Mia? Wake up! Mia!"

...

...

Chromia's optics opened, where? Where was she? She felt herself beginning to fade some more before she thought of Mika and Miko, everything about them... how they first met. The day she met her, Chromia knew she would be special. When she first was assigned her guardian, she had been a tad worried; fearful of harming such a fragile human youngling. But the sad look on her face, the fear of rejection when Chromia had not answered right away. Chromia couldn't find it within herself to turn away the guardian ship, and so she accepted. Time after that moved quickly, almost like a blink of her optics. Mika began to grow special to her. Their rides, their talks, their training and their time together were the most precious moments she'd had in a long time... since she had been separated from Ironhide.

Oh... Ironhide. She had missed him so, and hearing Mika call her the name only Ironhide ever called her, made her spark clench painfully with every moment it fell from the child's lips. She couldn't bring herself to snap at the girl, no. Chromia was beginning to love her. She loved her shyness, her adoration for knowledge and inventions, her love for drawing, her secret mischievous side that only comes out with Miko around, her crush she tried to hide that she had on Ratchet and how she looked up to Chromia the most. Chromia's optics began to leak, she missed her.

She missed Mika.

Primus it hurt...

When she and Mika were out that day, the day that Starscream and Soundwave approached her, was one of the best yet worst days of her existence. To find her love was still alive and out there, waiting to be reunited with her, was the best thing and her spark soared! To be face to face with the one mech who could ruin everything, the one she hated more than anything in her life, was almost an automatic kill joy. She was happy Mika escaped to the mines behind them, scared because Lazerbeak had followed despite her firing at it, and ever so terrified when Soundwave slipped away after them while she engaged Starscream.

That cowardly seeker!

As soon as Chromia beat that coward within an inch of his life, she ran to find Mika. What a sight to be found, her charge surrounded by that purple glow and rocks floating within the air, and then Soundwaves tentacle wrapped around her...

With one word Chromia's day crashed.

When Mika called her mother...

It all made sense then! Why she felt so attached to her and even Miko despite the later of the two being glued to Bulkheads side. Chromia had panicked and ran, she couldn't face this! She was a coward... Where was the strong Femme that Ironhide loved so much? She was running away from her past. She was taking the cowards way out.

She ignored all the calls and orders for her to return, ignored Mika's calling and messaging.

How could she face them now? How? How would they react to what she had done?

Chormia clenched her eyes shut and held her chasis as an icy prickly feel rushed through her, crippling her to her knees in pain. Spark clenching constantly in her sorrows. She felt her optics leaking harder.

She was a monster... She was no mother.

She tried killing her sparklings, her children, all because of their relations to Soundwave. How could she- how could she have done such a wretched thing to two innocent lives that could not protect themselves? She'd regretted it after she thought she killed them, oh how she regretted it... She thought it was too late, and with time she moved on, or that's what she wanted to appear like. To everyone else, she had been sparked by Ironhide and the babies were lost.

To her, they were Soundwaves children that she and he conceived after drinking to much highgrade. They used to be close... until he joined the decepticons.

While Chromia stayed away from the Autobot base and Mika, she had discovered the Cons ship sitting hidden within a canyon and investigated, hiding away on the ship. As she hid away she heard the cons speaking to one another about a prisoner, a wrecker named Wheeljack. Chromia was quick to infiltrate the base to find Wheeljack who was escaping. The two joined together before regrouping at the Autobot base.

Returning was hard, as was telling Mika and Miko everything.

Only, she twisted it.

She made it seem like she hated them, that she didn't want them.

Oh how she lied. She wanted them, she needed them! She regretted EVERYTHING! She begged herself to turn around, to change her mind. Return to Mika and explain all her dark sins and regrets... she would understand... right?

...right?

And then Mika had to follow her. She had to follow as Chromia was going to leave with Wheeljack to find Ironhide.

She had to beg, she had to cry, to point out she was her charge and needed protecting... Primus she had to point out that she was her best friend before collapsing into tears.

Chromia could barely hold it in, barley contain her on festering sorrows. 'Oh Mika forgive me please forgive me...' She begged in her mind.

"I-I loved you Mia."

She had to say, she had to say it... Chromia's spark was breaking, but she couldn't... she could not stay!

"Well I don't." She had told her, lies... more lies.

"Don't you want us?"

Of course I do...

"What Kind of mother are you? Your no better than a con!" Miko had told her.

True, it was all true... Only a ruthless con would truly to kill a sparkling. She was a monstrosity, she didn't deserve her girls... she didn't deserve this happiness with them. Chromia clenched her denta, she deserved this pain for what she did. Mika and Miko didn't deserve a horrible person like she was...

"I need you."

I need you too Mika... Miko.

"I loved you Danniluk."

Primus I loved you too, both of you...

"I don't love you." She told them.

"I don't deserve you." She should have told them.

-but she didn't. She stepped through the bridge and left them.

"Subject failing." A deep voice brought her to reality as a purple con with one optic stared down at her. "Spark working at 15% and failing."

"Mia..."

"10%"

"Can I come?" Mika looked up at Optimus with a hopeful gaze.

"It is just patrol." Chromia supplied.

"Very well."

Chromia smiled as Mika cheered and hugged Optimus's Pedes. "Yes! Your the best! Come on 'Mia!"

"9%"

Chromia arched her back as pain raced through her body.

"Gotcha!" Mika heard Bulkhead say as pillows went soaring.

Mika yelped, hiding behind the corner as Bulkhead and Chromia pelted each other with pillows.

The next thing Mika knew, her twin came barreling down the hall she was in and smacked into her, causing the two to go flying out into the open.

It was an all out war as feathers went flying, the bots were laughing.

Chromia couldn't remember the last time she's felt this young as she played with the children with Bulkhead.

She felt like a youngling again.

Mika got a hit on Chromia before she found herself buried in pillows a long with Miko.

"8%"

A silent scream fell from her lips.

 "MIA!" Mika glomped her bot, tears streaming down.

"Hey its okay." Chromia reassured.

"Where w-were you? I was so s-scared that they... t-that they..."

"I made a split second decision to follow Optimus and Arcee at the last second. No one noticed me slip by."

"I WAS WORRIED!" Mika huffed now angry.

"I know. I didn't intend to worry you."

"7%"

Her optics leaked.

"Not bad. Not bad at all, Ironhide would love you." Chromia smiled sadly.

"Yea?" Mika smiled sadly at her guardian.

"Yea..." Chromia looked upwards, to the stars.

Mika noticed her doing that quite often.

"You miss him?"

"More then ever."

''Were you guys married?"

"Married?"

Mika blinked. "Uhm... oh what did Ratchet say that was... oh! Ah Sparkmates?"

"Yeah... He's out there somewhere... I just know it. Searching every star and planet..."

"And blowing things up."

Chromia gave a sad smile. "Yes... and blowing things up."

"6%"

When would this end? Chromia begged in her mind. The pain was severe, she wanted it to end... pain.. pain...

"I'm going to rust by the time your done." Chromia grumbled grouchily.

"Don't be so crabby! You sound like Ratchet."

Mika yelped when a Wrench was flung at her.

Frantically she looked around before spotting Chromia laughing so hard she fell on her aft. "Mia! That hurt!"

"Oh please. I didn't throw it that hard, did I injure your processor?" Chromia teased.

"BRAIN! I have a BRAIN Mia. I'm not a computer."

"And I'm not a model, I'm a warrior!"

"FINE!" Mika scowled as she flipped open another page in her sketch book and began drawing a really dorky picture of Chromia. "There. Done."

"Let me see."

...

"Isn't it beautiful?" Miko smiled cheekily at her bot, eye's fluttering under her glasses as she tried to hold in her laugh when Mia's face went from annoyed curiosity to shock and then to anger.

"Okay that's it!" Chromia shouted.

Mika shrieked with laughter as she dodged more wrenches. "Bulkhead help! It's a femme Ratchet!"

"5%"

Chromia wanted it to end, what was happening to her?

"I don't know how you lived." Chormia finished. "I don't know how your human now... I don't know how you two survived."

She'd regretted it since the day she thought she killed them. In her mad state she had 'destroyed' sparklings.

It was the most disgraceful thing anyone on cybertron could do.

Punishable by death.

Even Decepticons kept that rule.

It was an ancient rule that none dared to break.

Yet, she had.

"W-why?"

Chromia looked down to Miko, who hands were curled in anger.

"You were our mother... why?" Mika hiccuped. "Why?!"

"4%"

"I'm sorry." Chromia cried, She wanted Mika and Miko to know! "I'm so sorry!"

"Go?" Miko echoed. "Your leaving?"

"I'm coming." Chromia said as she followed Wheeljack.

"W-wait!"

"Wait!"

"3%"

"Please, please forgive me..."

"Subject has become incoherent." The one eyed con observed motionlessly.

"So your just going to leave me again?!" Mika cried, "I-I'm your charge! Your supposed to be here protecting me! Your my... You were my best friend!"

"Your my best friend too.."

  "I-I don't have many friends... I trusted you... I-I loved you Mia..." Mika held her hand out, desperation clawing through her. 

 "I love you too.."

Mika looked up, letting out a sob. "B-but why? Don't you... Don't you want me? Us? I know you cared... I know... Mia?"

"I do... I do want you... I do care..."

"2% Systems failing."

"Mia..." Mika tried one more time. "Please... I need you."

"I need you too..."

  "-I loved you... Danniluk..." 

"1%"

Chromia's body began convulsing and her voicebox grew raw with her screams. She wanted Ironhid, she wanted Mika and Miko! She wanted to go back and erase what she had done... She wanted them to know how sorry she was! She wanted another chance. Chromia let her tears fall as the pain both emotionally and physically became to much. She couldn't take it anymore. 

Her vision turned white and she felt hands, small and soft, resting upon her cheek. "Mia?"

"Mika...Miko..."

"I love you Mia..."

"Subject terminated."