-Life is hard. After all, it kills you.-

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Amy:

-Did you ever hear what I told you?

-Did you ever read what I wrote you?

-Did you ever listen to what we play?

-Did you ever let in what the world said?

-Did we get this far just to feel your hate?

-Did we play to become only pawns in a game?

Amy's eyes barely opened up.

-How blind can you be? Don't you see

-You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting.

Amy's head turned towards her living room's table, slowly reaching up to her almost broken phone. Which still rang. Playing her favorite song.

-Bye bye beautiful!

-Bye bye beautiful!

Amy opened the phone slowly up, bringing it close to her ear. Everything was so fuzzy to her, almost like she had been drugged and she was having hard time to remember a thing.

".. Hello?"

"Amy! For Primus' sake I've tried to contact to you the whole morning!: It was Ratchet, who had maybe the relievest sigh of all time. Amy slowly sit up on the sofa she had slept few minutes ago, rubbing her tired eyes. "Are you okay?"

"I'm.. not certain." Amy sighed, closing her eyes for a moment. "Why you called..?" She almost fell asleep, her head already going towards the pillow under her.

"Because it's about Optimus."

Amy's eyes opened up slowly, her back having bad pain as she rubbed one spot.

"What about him? You found him?" Amy stood up and questioned rather quickly, until she stopped to see herself all naked. "--The fuck?"

"Better, Jack's getting the Vector Sigma with Arcee." When Amy saw her undewear on ground.. the memories of last night started to fill her head rather quickly. "If you'd like I can bridge you back to base.. you slept right?"

... No.

"R-Ratchet.." Amy begun, looking quickly around her to see no one near, same as she quickly took her blanket and covered herself up. Running to her bedroom. "L-last night--" Amy's voice trembled with scaring manner, on other side Ratchet could hear it almost immediately. "Here was.. here was..!" Amy couldn't get the name out of her throat as she was dressing herself quickly up to cover her body, shaking of yesterday's events.

"Who, Amy.. who came?"

.

.

.

"... Megatron."

The terrored gasp of Ratchet was more than obvious on other side, as Amy concentrated to cover her body up. In shame. Guilt. Fear. Used manner. By getting on her hoodie, she locked her bedroom's door up and remained to breath heavily.

"Is he still there?" Ratchet asked with angry voice. "Did he lay his claws on you in some way?"

"I-..." Amy shut her eyes tightly close, remembering the torturing night. "I want out.."

"I will come and get you, remain in place." And at that, Ratchet broke his connection. Amy continued to breath uneasily as she remembered Megatron remaining above her, play with her body, harrasming her despite her will to get him to stop. He didn't care about her pleads, but continued. And continued. And continued. Until to the point that Amy had fell unconcious. After that Amy has no memory.. and woke up on next morning.

Knock, knock.

Amy tensed slightly much, her ears hearing knocks on her front door.

Ratch..

Amy stood up, still hesitant of leaving the room or even grabbing the door's handle. But she knew this wasn't going to get them anywhere.. or especially if he had information of Optimus. Amy put her feelings aside for once, grabbing her door's handle firmly as she unlocked it quitely.

Until bam, and her door was open as the girl run through her own house. Afraid of it, scaring even her own cat by doing it, but as she got to her front door.. she saw how broken up it was from inside. The girl froze, knowing that Megatron probably had left in quite hurry. So, it ment that he weren't in the house. Or, then he had tried to lock it up from inside and lock her in.. with him.

"Amy!"

Amy ignored her throughts, unlocking her apartment's front door as she swinged it wide open. She throwed herself out and over to hug Ratchet with all she had, like her life dependened of it. The Medic didn't expect it and froze for second, but his eyes frowned in deep sympathy as he heard Amy crying. Quite hard.

His arms slowly wrapping around the girl.

".. We need to go." Ratchet said, glaring behind towards Amy's apartment. "Tell me everything back at base.. but this is worse place for that now."

Amy nodded, wiping her tears away as Ratchet closed her door, then pushed her down with him and towards his vehicle mode. Ratchet's holoform looked like an old professor with a long hospital clothe, orange shirt beneath it same as white and clean pants on him. So, he looked maybe the trusted Bot there was, and it cooled Amy down to know that he was with her now.

"Rafael, send a bridge." Ratchet ordered, as soon as Amy was inside Ratchet de-activated his holoform, starting his own motor up. Amy brought knees on her chest, remaining to sob as the bridge opened right in front of them. The pain still remained on her neck, shoulders, tights, waist and.. in one place also. It didn't make her sitting any easier.

"Amy!" When Ratchet was inside the base once more, he transformed almost immediately up on his Bot form and put Amy down near his monitors to sit on one chair, seeming to hear something. Rafael, along with Miko, Agent Fowler and June were soon behind her, quickly letting go of her when she tensed. "What happened?" Raf asked, the girl looked away in serious manner as her eyes were tired of all crying.

"Scrap.." Ratchet said, causing Amy to look up. "Bulkhead and Bumblebee require my assistance.. Megatron came." He snarled, seeing as Amy flinched by the name. "Remain near the bridge, and be ready to pick all of us up."

"You got it." Agent Fowler showed a thumb up at him, Ratchet nodded in a grateful manner as he soon ran through the bridge. Fowler shut the bridge down, turning to Amy. "Listen.. care to share a word with us? Or with me?"

Amy felt really uncomfortable, standing up from her chair and making her way down the stairs. She needed to get out of this situation. She needed to get her anxiety to cool down, but her memories just keeped coming and coming.

You're fucking pathetic.

Your Guardian's about to be rescued and you're caring of nothing else than yourself?

Amy ran to the base's bathroom, tears once more sliding down her face. She made sure as soon as her body was in the room that the door was locked. Her body crawled to a ball near the mirror, she desperately just trying to hide herself from the world.

I can't.. I can't face Optimus!

The girl yelled in pain, keeping her hysterical crying up. Even though Amy didn't enjoy any of the last night's happenings, she still felt guilty of letting him do so to her. But she was terrified of the Warmonger right before her.. threatening her life to end there. All Amy tried to think was Optimus.. but in the end Megatron might've had taken the goal. Amy hated herself because of it.. to let him do so. She loved Optimus.. and didn't put on much of a fight.

.. Die you useless piece of shit.

Amy's gaze raised up. By pulling herself up, she quickly grabbed hold of the mirror's side, toring it away as it broke up. The sharp of it was deadly looking, and Amy did swallow hardly. She hadn't done what she usually did in three months.. and her scars had already healen up. So it was going to be painful. But by staring her face from window, she actually realized how broken, ugly, crying and depressed she could be. She had been raped, and was trying to get away with it that easily?

.. There's nothing more to be said.

Amy pressed the sharp tip against her throat's skin, staring the roof above her. The light of it was going to be the last thing she was going to see.. and not her loved one.

Optimus..

Amy looked down with hesitant look, until pressed the fragment much more with force. As it hurt so damn much.. from mentally also, Amy only yelled and throwed the glass piece away, it breaking into thousands of pieces in the bathroom. She panted by the action, looking at the mess she just had done.

Fuck.. I just can't die without seeing you again.

Amy heard Ground-bridge open up.

Her gaze soon turned to the door, same as she rushed up to it. This time she weren't hesitant of opening the door, but determined. In the hallway, Amy remained smally in place, really hearing the whirling sound the Ground-bridge made, her eyes widening up. She didn't exactly walk or jog.. but somewhere in between. She must, and needed badly to see Optimus. With, or without his own mind in place.

When Amy made it to the corner, she froze of the familiar voice.

"Hello, Rafael."

"The big guy remembers us, wo-hoo!"

Amy clintched her hand into a fist, trying to cool herself down for her meeting to Optimus once more. She finally had the courage to peek, only to see a Decepticon insignia on Optimus' arm side, which he now stared deep in though.

Big rig..

A sad smile grew on Amy's lips.

You live.

"Although, it seems there is so much I do not remember." Optimus said in sad tone, that baritone voice of his just made Amy's day. The girl remained to stare at him in disbelief, tears -although her try to look normal, slided down her cheeks as she just stared. That was all he had to do to cause her into such state.

"Optimus, it truly has been our Darkest Hour, but know this, from every indication your spark never ceased being, that of an Autobot." Ratchet reassured, the Prime coming up with a same smile he made to the chilren also.

The Prime took steps forward, staring the Autobot symbol middle of the base as the humans had gathered around there with his team. Amy had second thoughts, turning around and just leaving the base. She couldn't break his spark also.. and this was just too much for her to take. But on her way back.. she bumped into wall which echoed through the room.

".. Amy?"

The girl remained on ground, her back remaining to the staring team now towards her. She was too scared to answer. Amy heard peds approaching, tensing by each of them.. but there was two coming for her. Then happened two transformations, at a time Amy saw figures stand behind her back.

"Amy.. I believe it's time to tell us--" As Ratchet's hand touched her shoulder, it strartled both Optimus and Ratchet as the girl jumped almost up and backed away from them.

"Tell what?" Optimus questioned, looking at Amy. Her condition had seriosly gone worser, same as he could make out under her hoodie her tired eyes.. of crying. "Are you.. okay?" Optimus tried to approach, but Amy was scared even by his approaching.. man's touch in any way.

"Earlier, as I gave her a call.." Ratchet begun, now Amy didn't want to share of what she had experienced. Her eyes traveled towards the bathroom door.. which was open. "She mentioned of Megatron visiting her place."

Optimus' eyes widened up, same as the gasps his team-mates made behind him. Along with the humans and Jack, who tried to approach.

Now.

Amy tried to run towards the bathroom to hide up and just possibly gave up on her life, but had muscular arms wrapped around her. The girl whined and kicked, struggled and almost bite Optimus' arms, which Optimus put a nod at. He kneeled down to get Amy to sit up and stop the squirming, but he felt her tensing by each time he would tighten or loose his arms up.. or as he moved normally.

"No, no-!" Amy yelled, having flashbacks of yesterday's night. But Optimus kept his grib on her, not knowing this would happen when he would come back from being on Megatron's warship. But he knew Megatron had visited by her house, without him being there to look after her. Anything could've happen, and Amy had never acted like that.

"Amy, stop!" June and Ratchet came forward, helping the Prime who was struggling. Amy panted, realizing it would be useless for her to get away now. She shaked, Optimus could tell that much. "We need to know, Amy. Tell us. Without knowing we can't help you." June explained, trying to confort her by rubbing her shoulder.

... What the fuck am I doing?

Amy begun sobbing, her body second by second getting numb and only one holding her up was her Guardian, Optimus. The Prime loosed up onto her also, until he turned her to look up at his face. Her face.. had cried God knows how many days by her black eyebags, her pupils being wide and just her expression.. told that she hadn't slept last night. Optimus leaned slowly down, Amy firstly gasped hysterically, but relaxed as he only rubbed his nose againts hers.

".. O-ptimus-" Amy gasped, watching as the Prime smiled down at her.

"It's me." Optimus placed small kiss upon her cheek, cupping her face.

Amy cried out loud, nextly throwing herself to hug Optimus. But it wasn't same with him than with Ratchet, but Amy knew Optimus would comfort her by his arms wrapping around her also, shh her down and swing little around like for small child.. but Optimus knew how everyone would calm down by it. And Amy most certainly needed it.

June and Ratchet exhanged looks, standing up.

"M-Megatron.." Amy murmured against Optimus' shoulder, the man hugging her gave her careful nod to go on. "He just.." Amy swallowed, breaking up with Optimus as he held her close, not ready to hear what she had for them to say. Amy looked directly into Optimus' blue eyes, swalling once.

"Megatron..  raped me."

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