WARNING: BLOOD, SUICIDE DEPRESSION, CUTTING INVOLVED!!!

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Screams echoed the hallway of the Nemesis. Bloody curtailing screams. Shockwave needed a human experiment, and you were the one he choose.

"It would be logical if you stop moving." He said coldly. He grabbed you hardly and walked over to a can full of yellow liquid, you squirmed and started hitting his servo. He ignored you and opened the can and was about placed you in it, you screamed before you went in. Saying how you wouldn't be able to breathe. He froze up, and turned away from the can. You sighed in relief. He walked over to the table. And threw you down hard, head aching, and strapped you down. And walked away

You calmed down a bit but never let your guard down. You scanned the area with rapid head movement. Shockwave came back with a saw in hand .He pulled out his saw and moved it slowly towards you. You squirmed

"STOP PLEASE" you cried while your voice was breaking. He never stopped and he reached your stomach area. The saw slowly touching and cutting through your skin. And the screams started again. He suddenly stopped and you heard alarms going off. And gunshots. shockwave turns toward the door and walked out. Breathing heavily, You looked down at your stomach and it was covered in blood. Your shirt was soaked in it too. You tired to sit up but you were strapped down and the pain was unbearable. You screamed again. You heard the gunshot getting closer. You were on the verge of passing out. The door suddenly open to show a red and blue mech with a battle mask across his face, you tried to look but you passed out when he took a step in

~~~~~~~~~~~~~Optimus POV~~~~~~~~~

As I walked into shockwaves lap, there was a human girl laying on the table, her wrist and ankles strapped to it, and her stomach cut open, with bruises and cut everywhere on her body. She looked at me, but then fell unconscious when I took a step in. I walked quickly to her, and took the shackles off gently. I picked her up gently in my servos.

"Ratchet, contact miss June and ready the sickbay and open a groundbridge." I said

Couple seconds later the groundbridge opened and I ran through, the human still in hand, bleeding severely through my servos.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~no ones POV ~~~~~~~~~

The Girl was still unconscious, but was put on a berth, and examined over by miss June and ratchet. Suffered severe abdominal wounds and internal bleeding, who else knows what happened to her when she was on the nemesis.

~~~~~~~~~~~~3rd person~~~~~~~~~~

The loud beeping of the heart monitor was what woke you up. Slowly opening into you eyes, you realize that you were somewhere else. You moved your hand to cover your face from the bright light.

"Ow what the-" you said quietly. Your eyes widened, realizing that your hands weren't wrapped to the table. You started to sit up slowly, and looked down at your stomach. It was all stitched up. How? You thought, while you were getting up you heard noises. You looked around but saw nothing, you looked back down only to see a stitch come out when you rose, you grunted in pain. You looked up again but saw a orange and white bot walking your direction. Your eyes widened,

"No! No please no!" You screamed and started backing away. You closed your eyes and covered your head. The mech looked confused and scanned your frame. And saw that a stitch came out and you were bleeding again. His optics widened and he went over to your shaking frame.

"Shhh, shhh. It's alright I won't hurt you" He said gently. He kneeled down by the berth.

You slowly removed your hands from your head. Looking at the mech, worry in his optics. You took a shaky breathe and said quietly

"Who are you"

"I am Ratchet, I am the medic for the Autobots" he said "I need you to lay down on the berth."

You slowly crawled back, carefully keeping an eye on him. You laid down flat. Ratchet hovered over you, scanning your frame again. But moved his head and walked towards the monitors. He started mumbling about someone named Miss June. Once he was done and walked back over to where you where and kneeled down.

"Your going to be okay... Miss?"he says. His optics bright. You starred into them, getting lost.

"Y/n" you say. Still starring into his optics.

"Well (Y/N) You need to *ahem* rest" he said while clearing his throat.

"Do you umm have something comfortable to umm lay on" you asked quietly. He nodded and stood his full height and walked away down a hallway. And came back a minute later with a hand full of pillows and blankets. He dropped them next to your frame and you quickly grabbed them and made yourself comfortable and fell asleep. while you were asleep Miss June came in and took this time to stitch you back up again.

You woke up in pain, so much pain that you screamed loud and cried. You jerked up and moved your hands to your stomach and clutched it, still screaming in pain. You heard running footsteps. And Ratchet was there and ran over to your form. He placed a digits softly on your chest and pushed you down so you were laying down. You stopped screaming, but tears kept flowing. He moved his digit to you face and gently wiped your tears away.

"Shhh it's okay I got you." He said with a small smile. He looked at your stomach and the stitches came undone again. It was late at night and he knew Miss June was asleep. He had to do it himself. He hesitated but did it anyways, one of his digits turned into a small needle.

"Put the string around the needle" he said giving you the string. You obeyed. He started to sow your skin together. After a couple minutes he did it. And was proud.

"Ratchet," you whispered

"Yes?" He asked

"Come here"

He came to you. His face 5 ft away. You moved your hand so they were above your head. And tried reaching for Ratchets face plates. He small blue ting appeared on his face plates.

"Come closer" you said and motioned your hands. He did so and his cheeks were in your hands. You used your hands to lift you up. And kissed ratchet on the dermas. He was taken aback, and saw surprise and shock in his optics

"I-I'm so sorry, I-I shouldn't have done that" you said starting to cry again

"There's no reason to cry. I *ahem* did not mind" He said and rubbed his servo to the back of his helm with a blue ting across his face.

~~~~~~~Couple months later~~~~~~~~~~

You recovers after what happened on the Nemesis, with small scars over your body, and the biggest one on your stomach. You were upset about this, and started to get depressed. you felt like a burden to the team, and felt like you were dragging them down. you started cutting into your body, on purpose, on your shoulders, thighs and stomach. During the time at base, you realized the only ones who actually cared were Optimus and Ratchet. But you started doubting it now.  You sat on the couch starring at the ceiling, thinking about how if you were dead it would be better.

"(Y/N)?" You heads Ratchet say

You hummed so he could hear you acknowledge.

"It's time for your scan" he said. Ever since you got here, you got a scan each month, to check your body. You hesitated but stood up from the couch and walked over to the railing. His hand stretched outward and his servo flat, indicating that he wanted you to get on. You did so carefully, and took you to a berth. He scanned your body, And it beeped when it was at your shoulders and stomach.  You started to worry, he might find out.

"(Y/N) pull up your sleeves please." He asked

You hesitated

"N-no"

"Why" He said, his voice suddenly changed to gently to stern.

"I j-just can't" you simply said

"(Y/N) please"

You did so and looked away, Ratchet saw the cuts all over your shoulders. You heard a small gasp from Ratchet and heard him fall to his knees, you started to cry.

"(Y/N) what did you do to your body?!" He asked

You pulled your sleeve down fast and turned to face him with tears rushing down your face

"I'm a burden Ratchet, Can't you see. I only drag the team down. I'm only here because I'm an experiment. I'm dragging the team down. I can't do it anymore Ratchet. What's the point in living if your life is brining everyone else's down!" You cried, voice breaking. You turned away pulling your knees to your chest and cried.

Ratchet spark started to break, he never knew that she felt like that. But yet when he thought about it in his processor, it was obvious. He looked at your shaking frame, he moved his servo to pick you up by the back of the shirt. And placed you on his other servo. And pulled you to his chassis, basically hugging you. And you hugged back arms open wide. Still crying. He didn't care if he started to rust there, he cared for you. He pulled you up to optic level.

"You are not a burden to the team. And there is a point in living. Because if you weren't I would be spark broken." He said quietly. And kissed the top of your head, you smiled a little.  He put you on his shoulder. you slid off his servo, and walked over to the side of his helm and hugged it, he turned his face plates to you.

"I'm sorry" you said looking at your feet

"It's okay sweetspark"

You smiled a little again and kissed the side of his face plate,

"I love you" you whispered into his audio receptors. You saw his optics widen, and a small smile form across his face

"I love you too (Y/N)"

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A/n I'm sorry if this was really depressing I just hand an idea for it and kinda got carried away. I'll do better I promise （πーπ）

My phone got taken away and i don't know when ill get it back, right now, i'm using my computer but ill still post stories

~A