i'd wait a little while
to pour my heart out to you
but that small little noise
a little shift at the sides
something pulling down
on my stomach
and my heart palpitating
i close my eyes
and move my fingers away
the green call button
glitching on the screen
i was done with this
i didn't need this
i didn't need you
i need to learn to be
without you
because after all this time
and after all these years
you were there
and you weren't
but i needed to learn
to breathe on my own
because i was drowning
and what was more painful
than not being able to escape
is you watching me
just watching me drown