*Picture credits goes to the rightful owner i don't own any pics*

[A/N Note:

I know I told I write little to no angst because honestly angst has never been my style but this story has been in my draft's book for quite a long time so I finally wanna let it out... Sorry if it's shi**y please bear it for me again, I'm just a newbie but I promise I will improve by time ......................]

Warning:

· Depression

· Death

· If sensitive to these topics please don't read ahead

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A LETTER OF A HEART BROKEN DAMSEL IF ONLY HE KNEW THAT HE WAS A MUCH MORE BROKEN LAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tae's Letter to his beloved Koo:::

Mi Amore Kookie

Hope you are happy, hale and healthy , I have always wanted to see you smiling even if I am out of picture from your life your happiness means the world to me my kookie............ My kookie what an irony it feels so foreign now considering our broken relationship !!!!!!!!! it's been a year since I have addressed you like that yet it still gives me tingles when I say MY KOOKIE cause I simply believe you are always mine just like I'm yours for eternity...........

Kookie,I still remember the day our eyes met, that day I felt electric sparks run through my spine. The day our hands rubbed against each other chills swept through my body........

From then and there things escalated at the speed of lightening.

Our first kiss..............

Though it's been years already but still so fresh in my mind like it just happened yesterday, when your soft thin naturally pink lips landed on mine for the first time giving me the most indescribable heavenly feel I ever had though after that we had countless kisses but still our first kiss was always so special for me for us at least that's what I thought so because, it was something that happened in the most unexpected moment when surrounded by the gushing waves hitting our bare legs that not just carried sodium chloride(salt) but also love, oozing over making the night more romantic with its tranquil sound along with the gentle breeze brushing our bangs giving cool yet serene ambience, witnessed by the glimmering lady standing proud at the centre of dark deep bluish black sea above our heads radiating her white glow adding an extra ounce of beauty to the already shimmering night .................

My first ever Euphoria as the place itself felt like Utopia ..............

Always only you had and will have too even after grave, this effect on me every time either our eyes met or hands or lips met that always leaves me in a trance causing butterflies to erupt not only inside my tummy but also all through my body that never fails to paint a red hue on my sun kissed bread cheeks which you would always squish and smooch saying they were your favourite of all my features along with the tiny black dot at the tip that acts as a permanent accessory on my long straight bridged nose another place which you never fail to peck every time we meet, causing so much warmth imbibe making me a ripen red tomato a beautiful blushing mess just for your eyes to see, lips to savour, arms to hold, protect, love and cherish.........

Only you, because you are always mine and I'm always your's not just now but forever though you accept it or not!!!!!

Yet again, that's what I thought so and I never knew, you had other plans behind that beautiful bunny smile so unique and precious that always had me mesmerized under your spell maybe that's how I was so enthralled to see the hard reality behind your sweet bunny mask.......................

Finally when I thought I was engulfed by bliss when I thought my life was complete with you being by my side, Everything just came crumbling down turning my bliss into pain , my once happy sparkling eyes into eyes glistening with tears of hurt and sorrow. Now, all I could feel is only pain...............

Every time!!! You had never fail to amaze me starting from the day you confessed startling me making me bemused cause that was something I least expected from you and it was really out of blue at our Joon hyung's birthday party. Though, I had always liked you for you as a person but I never thought of you more than a friend that day you gave me the first sleepless night and I was really scared to commit in a relationship since my father never admitted my sexuality and I didn't want him to be more angry on me than he already was yet, you were so persistent and finally you made a strong entry into my heart mind and soul that even the death can't part you from me , to the day you broke up, giving me the greatest heart breaking surprise at the least expected time. I say the least expected because it was on our first love anniversary ...... woah!!!!! the gift that you chose to impress your love or should I say love of your life as u always say Mr.Jeon Jungkook I was so thrilled JK

*The sarcasm though*

You always never fail to prove me wrong and I'm always perplexed by that fact. Whenever I feel like I know you completely you just give me a hard knock proving me that I could neither know you nor own you. I still remember the day when you asked me the day, that I thought, would be the turning point of my life that day, when u got down on your knees with a beautiful diamond ring with heart shaped ruby red stone shining at the middle, pointing to which you said, that the ruby red heart shaped stone actually indicates your heart wrapped onto my fingers (just a white lie now)

whose sparkles where actually less when compared to the sparkles emitting from your eyes that's when a fresh tear rolled down my cheek as I nodded my head since I couldn't trust my voice that moment due to all the overwhelming joy forming a lump in my throat unable to swallow yet wanting to screams at the top of my lungs that I felt like the most luckiest blissful person to exist in this entire Universe ..... but, all for what! just for everything to come down burning into ashes ??????

Yet again I was proved wrong or should I say was fooled by you for thinking that the day you gave me a promise ring making me your fiancé as the biggest turning point of my life but no its not cause my life that solely revolved around you took a major twist when you no longer wanted me in your life.

The irony is both our love anniversary and breakup being on the same day. Exactly two years back this day was the day I wanna cherish with all my heart throughout my life but now it's the same day I wanna forget with all my heart mind and soul and for the past one year I have only been trying to do this but only to end in vain...

I wanna forget it so bad, forget the moment I wanna reverse it with all my might I could do anything to make it right like it used to be before, I could even trade my life without a doubt to get back our golden love filled days but, I know one thing for sure that it's irreversible and could never be changed. Now whenever I close my eyes tears uncontrollably roll down washing my face as our memories struck me harder than the tsunami causing flood of pain and grief in my mind lighting up my inner turmoil shredding me more into pieces.

I really couldn't believe the fact that our once beautiful love is just a memory now. A painful memory that only I still and will always cherish and treasure.

Everything was just so easy for you from confession till breaking our marriage but every time why is it so hard for me process and accept. It's really hard to the point that even breathing became so difficult that I really want the darkness to completely surround my soul.........

Do you remember, once I said "In the world of stars you are my moon" I really wonder is it because I addressed you as my moon that you decided to fade away as time flew by giving me utter darkness.

These days there is only this one question that keeps haunting my mind..........

There are like tons of men out there but out of all why in the earth did I choose you???????? Just why????????? 

*sobbing*

Why do I still have to love you so much even after you hurting and leaving me to drown in this endless ocean of dreadful pain............... yet, I couldn't stop myself from loving you.................

Guess in the end, the heart wants what it wants.................

Now, I'm really tired of the same question running in my head over and over again just to end up with red puffy eyes drenched in my own tears.

I have always wanted to confront you kook . Why did you do this to me? What have I ever did to deserve this immense pain? Why all this had to happen? Why kookie Why??????

*tears threatening to break free from his black orbs filled with misery*

You were the one to start everything. You persuaded me, you gave me strength and courage to love you as I was really terrified of my father but all for what just to leave me in the end all by myself in this dirt and dust just to suffer????

Kookie if promises are meant to be broken then why the hell do you have to do that bloody promise in the first place !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 *crying hard*

*sighs I know I am being so cruel and damn I'm crying my heart out too😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 sorry lovelies for making you cry*

You know kook I really wanna yell straight at your face saying I hate you with all that I have but how strange! how pathetic! Even after all the unbearable heart breaks you have caused I still couldn't muster up my courage to hate you, let alone even to just even think about it, because that's how much I still love you, want you and miss you................

My love for you is always an enigma that never fails to light the fire in me and my love for you could cease only when the same flame burns me to ashes... Until then I would never stop myself from loving you even if it's gonna burn me alive I would still chose to love you no matter what.................

But, now I know I can't hold on anymore because it's really unbearable I tried my best, tried everything in my might to overcome, to move on but, each time I fail, fail so miserably that now I think it's time for me to end my miseries to go away from you chérie, just as you asked me on our first anniversary I'm granting you your wish on our second anniversary. I'm really now leaving you. I hope you could find love, peace and happiness..........

Just never forget this Kookie ..........

I was I am and I will too only love you ...... My love blooms only for you because you're my sun without your shine there is no way my love would blossom

I hope you like my gift as it's something you asked though it kills me inside I happily give the breakup you asked for Kookie because, I can never deny your words love. Sorry for accepting it late still I hope you are happy because that's my one and only wish Koo. Hope you would fulfil my last wish at least for our old time sake keep smiling, your bunny teeth cutely peeking out is everything I wish to see at each &every second of my life

Happy second anniversary my fiancé .........................................

Though you wanted us to part but for me you are always my love my fiancé my everything.......

A/N's POV

Those were his last words not only words but also his last will to survive because, for Taehyung even carrying oxygen became very heave that he once in for all decided to let it all go. All his pain, heart break and also his heart beat..... Tae thought when Jungkook reads this letter he would have been vaporized to smoke without a trace behind but, only if he had known it all before .... That his letter his unspoken words his feelings and emotions never reached kook's heart but only jk's body which was already buried 6 feet underground without any care about the world without knowing his man's sufferings and his unconditional love for him..........

Tae could have really changed their fate if only he had known how much his kook suffered without his warmth, deep in the dark all alone soaked in his own tears and blood shuddering in the cold pools of insecurities and anxiety in his own pathetic world of depression ..... Yes depression!!! Which just in a blink of an eye distorted their perfect love ruined their blissful life their once bubble of joy and ecstasy ............

What is more tragic is that neither of them knew how much they loved each other that they couldn't survive without the other's presence around them. It was like they were each other's oxygen without which they couldn't make it up anymore.

All Kook wanted was a happy life for Tae which he thought he could never provide with his insecurities, fear and depression constantly haunting him down but, what he failed to understand was Tae's happiness was nothing but just him.

If only Kook had talked to Tae,                                                                                        they now wouldn't be lying beneath the ground with their eyes permanently closed raging hearts finally at peace in eternal darkness with just their undeniable love for each other living for eternity, in this pit of depression that destroyed their life but never their love which severed to always be tragically magic.......................

A/N note:

Here I'm no way supporting suicidal thoughts or any such thing, just remember lovelies never let your insecurities, fear and depression conquer your mind . Remember to always love yourself, trust yourself and believe in yourself because trust me whoever you are, whatever you do, however you look you, you are always beautiful. So whatever happens stay strong and keep remaining yourself LIFE GOES ON no matter what and if something is not right then that's definitely not the end because at the end everything would turn out beautifully right just as the way you wanted. So never ever lose hope..... Always stay hopeful positive and keep smiling,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

"There is always a bright glowing fire ball ready to shine high at sky after every dark gloomy & stormy night"

My sincere gratitude:

Thank you my dear lovelies for showing me support and also for all the warm heart filling comments, You all were very sweet and I'm so so happy .My heart felt thanksies dears😘😘😘😘😘😘 .................

Love u all like so so so much and please stay safe and sound guys, eat well, drink plenty of water, take care sweethearts💖💖💖💖💖

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Hope I didn't disappoint you guys much with this stupid story😩 ..............

Catch you guys soon in another oneshot and I promise that would be full of love unlike this😋😋✌

Bye Lovelies 
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