~Y/N POV~

Clenching my jaw I just stared at the pregnancy test on the counter top next to the sink.

POSITIVE

Fuck my life.

You know what, it has to be broken or faulty.

Opening the bathroom door I startled both Sera and Minho in the middle of a heated discussion.

"Sera, that one is broken. I need the second one."

Hand stretched out to her she glanced at my hand and frowned.

"Y/n there's nothing wrong with the test. It's completely in date." Sera

"Then it's invalid. I need the second."

"It would only be invalid if no lines showed up Y/n but there are two. You cant stay in this state of denial Y/n, it's not good for you." Sera

She tried reaching out for me but I snatched the second test out her hand and slammed the door shit. Obviously I felt bad because I know she's trying to help me but I need this second test to tell me something different. I cant be pregnant, no way on fucking earth.

Ripping the stick out of it's packaging I peed on the stick again.

This time it better say negative or I will flip my lid. I swear to god.

Once done I threw it on the counter and stared at it for minutes until it was ready but as I watched on, disappointment set in when not one but two lines showed up again. Staring at it I didn't know what to do but freeze all over until I snapped out of it and let my anger out.

Taking both tests in my hands I screamed and threw them on the floor then swept off everything by the sink using one hand in one motion and punched the mirror for it to shatter.

Minho charged into the bathroom, grabbing me from behind and hugging me tight as I started to cry at his touch.

Why me?

Why does this have to happen to me?

"Y/n are you okay? Should I call your mom?" Sera

I nodded into Minho's shoulder, hugging him for dear life.

In this moment I do want my mom. I thought I needed her after what happened to me but right now I need her more than ever.

Sera nods and shares a look with Sera before she takes out her phone and dials my moms number putting it on loud speaker so I can hear the ring tone ring for a few times before she finally picks up.

"Sera what is it? Is Y/n okay?" Mom

Hearing her voice I almost sobbed again but if I did, I wouldn't be able to speak.

"M-Mom?"

"Y/n sweetie, are you okay? What's wrong?" Mom

Her light voice brought me comfort and I missed her so much.

"I'm pregnant."

She didn't say anything on her side of the line and became very silent. I don't know what she would be thinking right now but one thing I do know is that she would understand that this isn't my fault.

"How do you feel about that honey? Are you still okay though?" Mom

"I'm okay, just....mom I don't know what to do."

I glanced at Sera still holding her phone towards me as I speak to my mom and she just presses her lips into a thin line while I continued to hold onto Minho's sweat shirt to offer myself comfort.

"Are Sera and Minho still in the room with you? You're not alone are you?" Mom

"We're here Lisa." Minho

"Good thank you. Y/n just do what ever you chose to do. No one can force you to do anything you don't want to in this situation." Mom

I seen Sera nod firmly.

"What ever you need Y/n you have all of us to help you." Sera

I nod at her but I already have a decision. Nothing in the world would ever make me change my mind.

"I want an abortion."

Minho's grip around me tightened and I welcomed it. Sera just nods at me, offering a small smile with a hint of understanding.

"If that's what you want sweetie then that's okay." Mom

"It is what I want. I don't want to keep this baby. It will be a permanent reminder of what happened and I don't want that. I want to forget and move on."

"Sera could you help her with that?" Mom

I looked at Sera again and see her nod, looking down at the phone in her hands still.

"Yeah I can get that for her. I'll have to get a doctor to prescribe the tablets for me but it shouldn't be hard." Sera

She can get it done like that?

"Remember Sera you have to be careful with who you talk to about this stuff. The last thing we need is those assholes finding out about this." Minho

I shivered at the thought but no, none of them will ever know or will ever see my face in person again. Not happening, I'd rather die.

"Yes I know and I trust this person. If I could prescribe these tablets myself I would but I can't." Sera

"Thank you Sera. Now that Y/n has made her decision could you get that done as soon as possible, isn't it the sooner the better?" Mom

"Yes it is." Sera

Sera glanced at me as I listened. I felt like she was asking me if that's what I want so I nodded at her.

"Then if Y/n would like it done soon then could you please get that?" Mom

"Of course." Sera

It's a shame my mom no longer has her licence to prescribe these herself or we wouldn't be needing to get someone else to go it for me. She could of got the tablets for me and sent it but life isn't that kind to me lately.

"Okay well I have to go but Y/n please call me later okay? We can talk properly then." Mom

"Alright mom. I love you."

"I love you too honey, bye." Mom

After we said bye she hung up and I separated from Minho.

"How quick can you get those tablets for me?"

Sera blinked at me, surprised about my eagerness to get this done but I need this more than anything in the world I needed to get this done.

"If I leave now I can get this by tomorrow morning." Sera

"Could you do that then? Please?"

I begged her, gripping onto her sleeve like my life depended on it. But she nods at me and hugs me which I hug her back and she leaves to go speak to this doctor.

Some may think my decision is not fair and wrong on the baby's part but given how the child has come to be, I cant even think right to know I'm pregnant by one of them. I can't, it's too hard to process and it would be better for my mental health that this happens.

But not only that, how can I bring a child into the world knowing how dangerous their father is and what he's capable of, even if I don't know which one would be the father, they're all as bad as the other.

Monsters.