Lucy was sleeping over at my house tonight and I could not be happier. She was going to last night after the dance as well but that felt like the longest and most emotional Friday night I had ever had in my 14 years of living and I just wasn't in the mood for a sleepover so I told her Saturday would be better. Sometimes I really did feel like my life was a fairy tale. Anytime there was any slightly tense moment between me, Richie or Bill, it didn't last very long. When Richie came over today to apologize, I could tell he really meant it. No matter what age they are, some guys just don't always mean what they say. They just say things to their friends or the girlfriends to end things quickly and not really having feelings and meaning behind it. But with Richie, I could tell he really meant it. I will admit though, it broke my heart a but to hear him say he never thought and still doesn't think he is good enough for me. I know no one is perfect but to me Richie he is. We are both only 14 years old but he treats me better than most men treat their wives. He is so loving and good to me that I sometimes can not wrap my mind around it. He truly would do anything for me and will protect me and love me with all his might. But what makes this situation hard is that Bill would too. It is just a situation, even when or if Bill finds another girl he is attracted to, the feelings he has for me will never go away and the slight romantic feelings I had for him will never go away either. But what is even more mind boggling is that Richie knows this and doesn't care. He cares about his friend and is in love with me and would do anything to keep me safe and happy. It is really me who doesn't deserve him.

Lucy finally came over and my parents had ordered our favorite pizza for us, stuffed crust with extra cheese. Before we started getting ready for our John Hughes movie marathon, tonight would be The Breakfast Club and Pretty Pink, Lucy asked me more about Richie. I told her on the phone earlier in the day he came over to apologize. "He really is so damn sweet to you Shauna, you are both so lucky to have each other."  I smiled sweetly at her when she said that. "Thanks Lucy. That is so sweet of you to say. I just feel badly though." Lucy looked at me with confusion. "Why do you feel badly? You are dating a sweet and loving guy who do anything for you and you love him with all your might and soul. What is there to feel badly about?" I sighed before I answered. "When Richie came over to apologize today, he said at some point that he still feels like he isn't couldn't for me and never will be. I mean I know we have only been dating for about two months, but I don't want him feeling that way. I just hope I am not doing anything to make him feel this way." Lucy hugged me and smiled at me sweetly. "Shauna, you are in no way making Richie feel like he isn't good enough for you. He just loves you that much that he probably wishes he could do more for you because he knows you deserve the best and the world and he wants you to always be happy. He wants to make sure that he is the one making you the happiest you can be." Lucy always managed to say the right thing and then make me cry because of it. "You are so damn wise Lucy, you are always making me shitty cry when you say stuff like that!" She giggle and flipped her hair. "Hey, you have said it before that I am super wise!" This time we were both laughing. I loved our moments like this, they always made me happy and put me at ease. "You know Lucy, I have come to a conclusion." "And what that might be Shauna" Lucy said with a sweet smile.  "Richie Tozier has stolen my heart, and I don't want it back." Lucy just smiled and nodded. I knew she knew I really meant that and I did. I really loved that trash mouth and I know we are only 14 years old but I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Richie, marry him and have kids together. Soon I was going to tell him and even though he loves me greatly, I just hope he feels the same way I do. 

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