I stare up at the ceiling of my bathroom. The bath is warm and usually this would be calming. But right now, not so much. I didn't have work today. It's been a couple days since all that happened. Apparently, Eren popped by at work but luckily I was on break. He also came over, or that's what my dad said. But I was staying the night at Historia and Ymir's place. None of these were on purpose, but I'm greatful. I don't want to see him again. It hurts too much. I hear a knock at the door.

"Who is it?" I ask.

"Sasha, Ymir is with me," her voice says.

"You can come in," I say leaning back against the bathtub.

They walk inside and see me inside the bath. Sasha sighs and she sits down on the floor, facing me.

"How long have you been in here?" she asks me.

I shrug. "I don't really know."

Normally by now, one of them would've made a comment on my tits, but they both understand now's not the time. I notice Ymir lean down as well, squatting.

"You should get out, Rin. Let's go talk in your room," she says.

I look over at her, my eyes lidding and puffy from all the tears i've already cried. "It hurts a lot."

"I know," she says.

Sasha grabs my hand, holding it tightly.

"I'm so sorry, Rin," she says.

I notice her eyes tear up. I sigh and get up. I grab my bath robe and wrap it around me, draining out the water. I look at myself in the mirror, with Ymir and Sasha behind me. They both walk up so they're next to me.

"This is all my fault, I hurt myself," I say. "I knew what type of person he was and I still fell for him."

My fists tighten and I dig my nails into my palm. "I fucking hate this place."

"Then let's get away," Sasha says.

I look over at her. "We can't."

"Who says we can't?" she asks. "Let's just get out of here for a week. We need a break."

I bite my lip in thought. "Where?"

"California." Ymir answers. "You, me, Sasha, and Historia. No one else."

"But my dad..."

"Don't worry about him," Ymir says. "I know someone that can take care of him."

I sigh. "I'm guessing you guys already bought the tickets?"

"Flight's tomorrow morning," Sasha says.

If I stay here, I feel like I'll go crazy. It seems like they took care of everything already. "Okay," I say. "I'll go."

(After landing)

I drop on the hotel bed and sigh. The flight was long but we finally got here. Sasha and I are sharing a room while Historia and Ymir are sharing a room.

"Come on Rin, get ready," Sasha says. "We are gonna go on the beach for a bit."

I look over and see she's already changing into her swim suit. I open my suitcase and grab out the black bikini Historia bought for me. SHe said I should use this vacation to be sexy and meet new people. I can't even imagine doing any of that right now though. After I change, I look at myself in the mirror. I don't look bad. My tattoos on my stomach spiral down towards my bikini bottoms. Sasha goes behind me and lets down my hair from the bun. The black waves fall down to my waist.

"You look good, now lets go have some fun," Sasha says.

We make our way to the beach, seeing Ymir and Historia are already there. Historia automatically wraps me in a hug.

"I'm so sorry about everything that happened to you, Rin. You deserve so much better," Histoira says.

The other two nod in agreement. Ymir lifts his sun glasses so I can see her eyes.

"Whatever happened in that slum, stays in that slum. We are in the sunny state now, so let's have fun. Fuck Eren. Fuck that MIkasa bitch. Fuck men," she says. "It's just us now, so there's no reason to cry any more tears."

Ymir's words automatically lift something off my chest. I honestly feel so much better already. The sun shines in our faces, warming us up, unlike the slushy snow in Chicago. I smile softly.

"You're right," I say. "Fuck Chicago."

This causes all the girls to cheer and we make our way to the water. Sasha carries my small frame causing me to squeal. She laughs as we both plunge into a wave. We emerge after and I laugh, pushing Sasha. For that small moment, I forgot about everything. About Mikasa. About my dad. About my issues. About my life. ABout Eren. The only thing I'm focused on right now is having fun with these three girls I can actually call my friends. I don't need anything else. I don't need him. I don't need you Eren.