Loved
Jimin's POV-
Chan, Hobi and myself are all stood by the end of the bed completely perplexed by the sight in front of us.
"Tae?" I say in a slightly raised tone so I can break him out of whatever spell the two are under.
Upon hearing my voice he stands up abruptly and turns to me, wide eyed.
"Can we talk in the hall for a minute? The four of us?" I ask.
He opens his mouth to speak when Hobi does instead.
"Why don't the three of you go and I will keep Jungkook company." He says with a sweet smile.
My eyes flash over to Jungkookie who is looking at Hobi with a soft expression. He doesn't seem to dislike or be uncomfortable with the offer.
"Okay. We won't be long," I place a soft kiss on Hobi's cheek before I turn towards Jungkookie.
"Jungkookie you can borrow my boyfriend to keep you entertained but keep it PG. I know you can be a flirty Bunny when you want to be." I say with a wink. "We'll be right back."
"You don't have to worry" He chuckles. "I would never hurt my Tae like that." He grins adoringly at Tae who returns a mildly awkward smile.
"We'll be just outside the door." Tae says before he walks out the door, Chan and myself following close behind.
It's quiet for a couple beats after the door closes as Chan and I stand beside each other staring at an anxious looking Tae.
"What was that?" Chan speaks up first to break the silence.
"He-," Tae nibbles his lip, shifting his weight from hip to hip. "He thinks I'm the one who pulled him from the tub. He's remembering what happened but instead of Yoongi being there he thinks it was me."
Chan and I both stare at him for a long moment.
"Wait..." I stammer, blinking excessively. "Okay... how- he-" I try to articulate what I want to ask or say but my mind is drawing a blank.
He thinks Tae was there?
"He really did forget Yoongi," Chan says slowly.
"For now at least. To make matters worse, he seems to be directing his feelings he has for Yoongi towards me as well. He thinks he loves me..." he meets eyes with me, eyes intense. Pleasing almost. "I don't know what to do. You saw how he's looking at me. That is the way he looked at Yoongi! He doesn't love me."
My heart clenches at his distress.
I feel bad for him because this is probably confusing for him, for his feelings, but he must realize, Jungkookie cares about him. He cares a lot.
"He was in love with once. Maybe those same feelings are coming back that he did have for you just with different memories."
"He... loved me?"
"What do you mean? Of course he did! After you moved he was so sad. No, more like devastated. For months. I always thought you and I were closer with each other than you and he were so I was surprised when I was getting over you moving and he wasn't. Then one day I realized that it wasn't because he lost his best friend. He lost the person he loved.
"Don't you remember how much he called you those first like, eight months you were gone? Before school, after school, during school. He called to as often as he could and you two would spend hours on the phone.
"Even up until we came and picked you up in Daegu you two talked practically everyday. After you'd hang up his whole mood would change he'd be happier for a little while, but once it wore off he would be right back to moping.
"He missed you. He may have never told you before you moved and he may have not even have come to the realization until after you left, but he loved you. I would even venture to say that he regretted not trying harder to be with you."
Tae's lip wobble, his eyes glowing with tears.
"Well... T-That might have been the case before, and that's a very large might, but he doesn't love me anymore. He loves Yoongi and Yoongi loves him."
"Yoongi isn't going to let himself feel anything but resentment for Jungkook as long as Irene is around," Chan comments bitterly. "She's completely gotten in his head. He hates what Jungkook did. That he was going to leave him like all the others. And in such a horrific way too. He especially hates that Jungkook broke his promise to stay with him.
"Unless we can figure out how to help Yoongi get his head out of his ass and remember Irene as the Devil she is, this current situation may be for the best... At least this way Jungkook can feel loved by someone he cares for instead of being treated terribly by the man he did fall in love with."
It's silent as we think over what Chan has said.
It's, unconventional, sure. Not ideal by any means, but the logic is pretty sound.
Yoongi isn't the same person Jungkookie was taken from.
He's become an unhappy, bitter asshole who won't listen to any of us when we tell him that he is blaming all of his negative feelings on the wrong person.
If Jungkookie did remember Yoongi and he saw him now, God forbid spoke with him, in the current brainwashed state Yoongi is in it would break his heart.
It would upset him immensely and thinking back to what Yuna said earlier, that sort of distress could cause further damage to his brain.
As I begin to start convincing myself more and more that this is actually a huge blessing that he isn't remembering Yoongi Tae speaks up.
"We've fooled around before," he says after taking a shaky breath, glancing at me with a guilty expression. "Only a couple of times... but we have crossed that line. I think that could be a factor in this as well. We talked about dating at one point but didn't.
"We do have a physical attraction towards each other, but the friendship with the three of us has meant more than that and we didn't want that to change.
"So, we kept it physical in those limited moments, never romantic. I'm sure those memories of us together are only aiding in his confusion-" He takes a sharp breath in as he realizes something, before looking up to meet eyes with me. "He asked me just before school started if anything had changed. I-I told him it hadn't. It wasn't fully true.
"I really would date Kookie, but I just don't want to risk ducking anything with our friendship, between he and I as well as the three of us, up. It would kill be if we tried and it ended poorly and things got all awkward and- just different. I didn't want to risk it.
His panicked expression turns to a confused one as he sees my smile soften.
I think he was expecting me to be more upset. Maybe I should be. My two best friends have been keeping this massive secret from me that they slept together "a few times" but I can't help but feel all mushy and soft inside at the thought of them being happy together.
I can reflect on my annoyance at their secrecy later. Right now, it isn't important.
"I've shipped you two idiots for years. I was honestly kind of disappointed when he found Yoongi so early in the year. Not that I don't love- well, loved Yoongi with Jungkookie, but I had hoped that we would get to college, you two would see each other in person again and realize your feelings. Which, it kind of sounds like is what happened with him.
"So, I'm totally fine if you want to ditch Seulgi and date Jungkookie. Especially if you can make him happy because he obviously wants you, Tae. He looked over the moon just now when he was with you."
"He doesn't want me, Chim! He loves Yoongi. He looked so happy because he remembers what he thinks was the two of us being happy. Happy and in love," Tae voices, running a hand through this hair before ruffling it in frustration. "He's not mine and I'm not his..."
It's silent for a moment before Chan speaks.
"I am trying to get Yoongi to see that he used to be happy. That not only me but that we all only want what's best for him. That we want to help him be happy again. But, if history repeats itself, that is going to take time. I can't say how much, but it isn't going to happen over night."
He too ruffles his hair in exasperation. "Jungkook is my friend too and he deserves happiness as well. If or when he remembers Yoongi and he tries to speak to him while he is still with Irene, Yoongi is going to repeat to Jungkook what she has planted in his mind and it will crush him.
"I've heard what he says about Jungkook and it's awful," his mouth twists into an almost disgusted scowl. "Jungkook shouldn't have to hear it because once it's said Yoongi won't be able to take it back. So, Tae, I think you should."
"Should what? Pretend to be in love with him?" He asks looking at Chan with furrowed brows and angry eyes.
"Do you not have any feelings for him at all?" I ask skeptically.
He's lying to himself if he says he doesn't still love him.
He looks at me with furrowed brows before his features soften and he lets out a heavy sigh, "I did I tried my best to bury the feelings a long time ago. And especially after he met Yoongi. I don't feel that anymore. I think that is a horrible idea. He belongs with Yoongi."
Now I'm getting annoyed. This is what's best for Jungkook. It's basically just the same thing as being his best friend just with more kissing.
"Well, until that's an option maybe we can give Jungkookie what he wants and right now that is you. He deserves to be happy doesn't he? That will keep him happy while we work on getting Yoongi back to being himself.
"We can work on both sides to bring back the Yoongi that loves Jungkookie and the Jungkookie that loves Yoongi." I say as Tae and I look at each other.
"I don't know..." Tae says hesitantly while he looks back over at Chan.
"This is ridiculous. You love him and he loves you. Why is this such a big deal? I say let's let Kookie actually be happy with someone that loves him and isn't Irene's angry little puppet."
Tae stares at me wide eyed and I cross my arms over my chest as I hold the eye contact.
He knows I'm right. He needs to stop being a baby about this.
He and Kookie would both be happier this way.
Plus he doesn't even like Seulgi and she doesn't really seem to care that much about him. It's a win all around.
Suddenly the faint sound of Hobi laughing is heard from inside the room. I know that laugh. Hobi just got complimented and doesn't know how to react so he is giggling like a school girl.
I roll my eyes before letting out a sigh. "You two can stay and talk if you want but I'm going to head back in there and get Hobi. I don't see this side of him often but I know that a flirty Jungkook is dangerous to leave your boyfriend with."
I smile at Chan, confident that he can talk some sense into Tae, before I walk towards the door, pushing it open and stepping back inside.
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