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6 weeks later
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Ahsokas POV
I stood in the doorway of the training room and watched silently as Cal attempted to meditate, again. He hasn't been the same since (y/n)'s disappearance, no one has been actually, especially my Master. But he at least looks like he's trying to hold it together, Cal on the other hand looks a little more broken each day. He's just a kid like me after all and we haven't been taught to control our emotions as well as everyone else. And it doesn't help that he grew an attachment to her and thought of her as a mother figure. I can only imagine how he feels.

Not that the rest of us aren't guilt of attachments. I know I'm guilty, of more than one actually..

He slowly opened his eyes and caught me watching him, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to stare." I apologized and glanced down sheepishly. His alluring green eyes had a compelling way of making me nervous.

"I felt you before you even turned into the hallway," He responded softly; prompting me to look back up and connect with his calming gaze, "I don't mind it, your presence is soothing." He gave me a half-smile as he uncrossed his legs and stretched them out in front of him.

I walked into the room nervously with a small box in my hand. I also had to keep my head down to hide the blush that burned on my cheeks, "I know, but I didn't mean to disturb you." I sat by his side and held the box towards him.

"You could never disturb me," He glanced down at the gift and his sad smile grew into a more joyful one, "What is this for?" He took it from my hand and ran his fingers along the silk red ribbon that I tied around it.

"You think I'd forget my best friend's birthday? It's about time you caught up to me." I nudged him on the shoulder playfully.

He's turning fifteen today and I turned fifteen about four weeks ago. I was older than him by one month and I never let him forget it.

He chuckled without taking his eyes off of the closed box, then his smile dropped down as quick as it came, "I just don't feel like I should be celebrating." He tugged on the loose end of the ribbon to untie it completely.

"Try not to look at it as us celebrating then," I placed my hand on his shoulder for comfort and squeezed him gently. I could feel his anxiety waver only faintly, but I'm still glad I'm able to give him some minor relief, "I'm just giving you this gift today and it just so happens to be your birthday." I shrugged nonchalantly while releasing my hold from his shoulder.

He met my eyes once more and his watery gaze caused my chest to ache, I hated seeing him so sad all the time, especially since I know there isn't a thing I can do to make it better, "Thank you Ahsoka, you're really the only person that's been keeping me together." He looked down to the gift and began pulling off the lid, "Well you and the Chancellor." He added.

My eyes widened, what did he just say-

"This is amazing!" He cut off my thoughts with his excited voice. My heart was still racing for multiples reasons as he pulled the Japor snippet out and dangled it in front of his eyes, "Master (y/l/n) has one just like this."

I nodded; holding my hand out for him to give it to me so I could help him put it on, "I know, Master Skywalker made it for her as a birthday gift. He taught me how to make it, it seemed fitting to give you one," He handed it to me with a beautiful smile on his face, I loved it, this was the first time I've seen him genuinely smile in weeks.

I scooted closer to him to wrap my arms around his neck and began to tie it for him. Our faces were mere inches apart and his piercing eyes never left my face. They moved slowly across my features like he was studying me.

I was trying hard to keep my emotions in check. My chest felt like it was going to explode from how fast my heart was beating, "Ahsoka?" He spoke my name softly.

I swallowed nervously as I kept my eyes on his, I was almost done tying the necklace. I did a few knots to ensure that even during elaborate missions, it would never come off, "Yes?"

Before I knew it, he was leaning closer and I froze in place. His eyes flickered to my lips and I took a sharp inhale when I felt his own brush against mine, "Master (y/l/n) once told me that I needed to be honest about my feelings, or that one day I might regret it."

His eyes looked back into mine, but his proximity never changed, "And what do you feel?" I asked nervously. I already had a feeling of what he was going to say, and I felt the same. I've felt the same for a long time. Master Skywalker told me the same thing that Master (y/l/n) told him.

Why do I get the feeling that they planned that out?

He smiled as he brought a hand up and pressed it to my cheek, "I really like you, I don't care about the code or that attachments are forbidden. I know what I feel and I'm not going to live my life denying it like they expect me to."

I smiled back, a joyful unfamiliar feeling filled my stomach. This must be what Master Skywalker told me about, he said he knew (y/n) was his person the moment he felt the fluttering butterflies after giving her her necklace, "I like you too Cal."

His grin grew, "She said you'd say that." He leaned closer and pressed his lips to mine and we both shared our first kiss together.

It was unlike anything I have ever felt before. I'm a fifteen year old girl falling for a boy for the first time and it was exhilarating.

I wanted this moment to last, but the sound of an automatic door pulled us out of our moment and we jumped apart, worried that we got caught. We both looked towards the door fearfully, only to see that it was closed and no one had walked in on us.

I furrowed my brows as I turned to Cal who was giving me the same confused expression, "You heard that too right?" I asked and he nodded immediately.

He then shook his head and stood up, "Maybe we're going crazy." He chuckled and I followed in his movements so I could stand up with him.

I chuckled as well as I stepped forward and grabbed his hand. He accepted my gesture and intertwined his fingers with mine, "Do you want to go get ice cream? I may have stolen some credits from Master Skywalker." He wouldn't mind, he hardly uses them anyway.

He smiled down at me since he towered over me by a whole foot, "I would love to Ahsoka, but maybe next time. I already have a standing commitment with someone that I can't break." He informed me and I furrowed my brows, wondering who he could have plans with since I happen to be his only friend. I know it can't be with any other Jedi either, everyone is so busy with the search.

I nodded in understanding, "Okay, next time it is." I smiled sadly, I wanted to spend more time with him, especially after what just happened, the butterflies were still dancing, "Can I ask what your plans are?" I asked curiously.

"I have a late dinner with the Chancellor." He told me nonchalantly me and heart dropped to my stomach, just as it did the first time he mentioned him.

We may not know exactly what the Chancellor is up to or have proof any ill-doing, but Skyguy doesn't trust him, and I will always trust my Master, "I didn't realize you and the Chancellor were friends." I laughed awkwardly, trying to hide how uncomfortable the idea of them together made me.

He shrugged, still holding a sweet oblivious smile, "We weren't, but ever since.. you know," His smile dropped slightly, "Him and (y/n) were close, so it's kind of like we're filling that empty void where she used to be with each other."

My stomach continued turning uncomfortably, I was told not to mention anything to anyone, but I can't keep this from him. Especially since he's been hanging out around him without any of us knowing, "Cal I don't think the Chancellor should be trusted, something isn't right about him."

He furrowed his brows and almost looked.. angry, "He's been helping me a lot," He pulled his hand from mine, which in turn hurt my feelings a little, "What reason do you have for not trusting him?" He asked as his eyes bore into mine intently.

I couldn't answer, because I really didn't have one, I've been trusting Anakin blindly, "It's just a feeling I get." Which isn't a total lie, I did feel uneasy around him now. I don't like the way he looks at me or the way he stares hatefully at my Master when he's not looking.

He sighed while breaking eye contact with me, "You can have your own opinions Ahsoka, but please don't push them on me. (y/n) trusted him, and now so do I." He began walking away from me and towards the exit of the training room, "I'll see you later." He waved the door open and left quickly, turning to the right which led to the exit of the temple.

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Anakin's POV
"We can try again tomorrow," I dropped my hands down from Master Yoda's grasp and his eyes showed how defeated he felt.

Weeks have gone by and there have been no leads, no sign of her, the Chancellor has remained inconspicuous, and no matter how hard we try, we can't connect with her through the force. We've reached a wall and it seemed almost impossible to break through it. But we weren't giving up, I plan to scour this entire galaxy until I find her.

He nodded with a sigh before standing up and slowly walking away with his cane to leave the council chambers, "Tomorrow then." He didn't say much else before he left the room, leaving me alone in the middle of the floor.

He hasn't been very talkative lately, the poor guy is heart-broken and scared for her. Just as I was, we don't even know if she's alive still, we're going off of sheer hope that she is. But I refuse to believe otherwise, I have to believe that I will see her again, it's the only thing that's keeping me going.

After having a small crying session, I stood up to my feet and used my cloak to wipe under my eyes, before leaving the room and heading towards my own.

As I walked down the hallways, I reached into my pocket and pulled out a small bottle of sleeping pills that was given to me by one of the doctors here. Maybe tonight I might actually get more than a few hours, but the nightmares and the anxiety has been keeping me awake. I hear her almost every night, she's always crying, calling out my name.

A part of me feels like it really is her, that she is somehow able to connect to with me. But whenever I try to reach back, the connection feels non-existent. So I don't know if it's real, or if it's my own mind tormenting me. Just as hers, was tormenting her.

"I like you too Cal."

I paused when I heard my Padawans voice just as I was standing outside of the training room. I turned to peer inside to see Cal and Ahsoka both sitting next to each other. In the same spot (y/n) and I were in that day we met.

How symbolic; I see a lot of her and I in these two.

"She said you'd say that." He smiled as he leaned in to kiss her.

I smiled as well and looked away, it looks like I owe Obi-Wan some credits. I really thought it would be her who kissed him first.

I'm happy that they're getting opportunity that (y/n) and I didn't, thanks to my own stupidity. Her and I both talked to them in hopes of getting them to admit their feelings to each other, we didn't want them to end up the same way her and I did. We wanted them to enjoy their teenage love.

I sometimes wonder what things would have been like if (y/n) and I were able to enjoy ours. I feel like we would've gotten married the second she turned eighteen; and I say the second she turned eighteen, because I'm older than her by two years, I would've had to wait for her.

I pulled myself away from my thoughts and realized they were still having their moment. They really shouldn't be doing this with the door open, amateur move. I pressed the button for the door to close and continued walking to my room.

Once inside, I eyed the bed that always feels so empty now, I miss her more than words can even express. These six weeks have been an absolute hell.

I took off my robes and tunic and headed to the bathroom to take a shower. I looked at myself in the mirror to see my puffy eyes, and black bags underneath them. I sighed at my exhausted and turned to take my shower so I could get to bed. Tomorrow was going to be a long day.

As I stood under the warm water, my mind was racing trying to piece together where she could be; only for it to come up blank as always. This galaxy is a huge place, it's impossible to find her if there's not a single clue to go off of.

I punched the ceramic wall with my metal arm and the tile cracked; causing a few pieces to fall into the tub floor near my feet. I began to cry again, not being able to hold any of it in. A heart-broken whimper escaped my lips as I leaned my forehead against the wall, "Where are you Princess.."

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"Anakin!"

I shot up from my bed in a panic, sweat was dripping from my forehead as I tried to calm my unstable breathing. I turned to look at the clock to see that I had only been asleep for only a few hours.

I heard her again, not just that, but I also saw her, usually all I ever hear is her voice in surrounding darkness.. but this time she was laying in a cell, dirty, crying, and calling out to me.

It felt so real this time, more real than usual.

I closed my eyes and tried connecting with her as I always did when I woke up from a nightmare, "Please, please let me find you." I begged in a whisper while I crossed my legs to get into a meditative posture.

After a few minutes, my eyes shot open quicker than they ever have. I immediately grabbed my robes and threw it on over my bare torso. I ran out of my room in a hurry with one destination in mind.

I banged on his door aggressively, not caring how loud I was being. Finally his door slid open and Master Yoda was looking up at me with an annoyed expression, "Wrong with you what is?" He asked as he rubbed his tired eyes.

"I felt her Master, it was only for a moment, but I finally felt her and I think I know where she is."

How this slipped under our noses, I will never ever know. I assumed we checked everywhere, but it appears we didn't.

His eyes widened with urgency and he no longer looked exhausted, but eager, "Where?"

"Here, she's still on Coruscant."

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Any predictions for the future?
I left a huge hint in here, so please let me know your thoughts ♥️
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