One week later

(y/n)'s POV
Anakin and I both opened our eyes, only to be greeted with each other, "Feel any better?" I asked with sincerity. Lately he's been trying to meditate to get a better grip on his emotions over losing his mom. He's been doing it everyday and everyday I join him, I never wanted him to feel alone.

Not only that, but I was trying to get a grip on my own emotions as well. I was having a hard time dealing with what I did.

He gave me a small smile as he leaned his back against the wall of his bedroom, "At first I feel like I'm breaking, but every time I open my eyes and look at you, everything just falls right back into place."

I chuckled as I reached forward and placed a hand on his, "You really have a way with words Skywalker." I smiled as he gave me a cocky smirk, "But seriously, how are you doing?" I asked more sincerely.

His smirk fell slightly and he looked down at our joint hands, his fingers played with my own, "I'm still having a hard time believing she's really gone, I just don't want to believe it's real." He sighed as he gripped my hand and pulled me to him, "Lay on me." I turned around so the back of my head could rest on his chest while he had his legs sprawled out on either side of me. He kept his arms around me as his chin rested on top of my head, "How are you doing though; you haven't talked much about-"

"I'm fine." I cut him off as I let out a heavy sigh.

He brought a hand up and ran his fingers through my hair, "You can talk to me Princess, you don't have to hide your feelings from me." He spoke to me softly.

I groaned as I slid down so my head was resting on his thigh, I looked up at meet his eyes, "I feel like a horrible person, a monster even." I admitted with a sad frown. I hated feeling this way, I hated what I did.

He shook his head as he brought his hand to my cheek, "You are anything but that. Everyone makes mistak-"

"It's not like I left an oven on," I sighed in frustration when I cut him off, "My mistake was slaughtering an entire village of people Anakin," I closed my eyes, he's speaking like what I did isn't a huge deal, "I'll be fine- I just," I sighed again, "I need time."

"Look at me," He pinched my cheek but I didn't listen, "Please,"  He begged and I groaned as I opened them to meet his eyes once more, "What you did doesn't define who you are as a person. You've done a lot  good in your time as a Jedi, even more than me," He smiled as he continued playing with my hair, "Don't let this one thing bring you down, you're a good person. And as fucked up as this might sound, it was just sand people, they're savages and murderers. It's not like you slaughtered a room full of younglings." He shrugged.
(I'm sorry I saw an opportunity and took it lol)

I chuckled as I shook my head, "That does sound fucked up, they're still people Anakin."

He shrugged again, "Yeah, but they're not the best kind of people. I'm just saying it could've been worse and they did kill my mom, so they had it coming." My eyes widened at his words, but I understood why he felt this way. He gripped my cheeks with one hand gently, causing my lips to purse together, "Just remember that you have a beautiful soul, so don't ever think otherwise okay?" I nodded in response and his smile returned, "Good, now come up here and kiss me Princess."

I smiled back and lifted myself, his hand never leaving my cheeks, and he pulled me to him so our lips could press together in a soft kiss.

~*~•~*~

"Are you alright my dear? You look like you have something on your mind." The Chancellor asked me from across his desk.

I shook my head, "No I'm fine, just a bit tired is all." I plastered a fake smile on my face. Although Anakin's words helped a little, I still felt a pange of guilt. I'll be okay after awhile, like I said before, I just need time, "So, not that I'm not honored for an invitation, but why did you call me here?" I asked as I sat down in the chair across from him.

He smiled at me, "I just wanted to see how you were doing, I haven't seen you in quite some time."

I leaned back in the chair and played with my tunic, "I'm fine," I let out an unconvincing sigh, "Just stressed from recent events, this war really takes a lot of you." I somewhat lied, the war really does take a lot out of you, but that isn't what's been stressing me out lately.

He nodded, "Yes I heard you're back out in the field, congratulations on that by the way way, I know how much you've been itching to get back out there."

I gave him a smile, "Yes I am, thank you."

He nodded then his eyes trailed down to my neck, "That's a beautiful ring you have there." He spoke in a knowing tone and I shot my eyes down to my necklace to see it peaking through my shirt, fuck. I glanced up to him with worry in my eyes.

I prepared to lie, "It's just a gift from Master Yoda." I smiled but I could see him narrow his eyes slightly.

"No need to lie to me my dear, I know an engagement ring when I see one." He chuckled as he waved his hand, "Don't worry, I am not a Jedi, I don't care about such things nor will I tell anyone."I let a small sight of relief, "But I would like to know who the lucky one is?" He asked as he tilted his head in curiosity.

I shook my head, "If you don't mind, I prefer to keep that part a secret." I half-smiled as I looked away from him. Him finding out was enough and just in case, I'd rather keep Anakin's name out of it.

I heard him let out a little sigh, "I understand, you don't know me well enough to trust me. But I do hope there comes a day where you do." I looked back up to him and gave him a nod in response.

"Yeah maybe."

He grinned as he went to pull out a communicator, "Hungry?" He asked with a raised brow.

I chuckled as I folded my arms across my chest and straightened my posture, "You should already know the answer to that."

He chuckled back with a knowing smile, "You're right, you're always hungry. The Jedi must not feed you well." He shook his head with a sigh.

I shrugged as I folded my arms on top of his desk, "It's not that, the food there just sucks." I made a face of disgust as I thought about the mush they serve. Except on certain days they'll have something decent, but most of time, it's ass.

"Well it's a good thing I have a list of your favorites," He placed a few menus in front of me, "Pick whatever you want." I reached a hand forwards and separated them to get a good view of them all.

I looked from the menus back up to him with beaming smile, "You sure know how to spoil me Chancellor."

~*~•~*~

"Are you sure it's something you are up for?" Obi-Wan asked Anakin in a worried tone.

My fiancé sighed with a nod, "Yes, I need to get out there and not sit here in a cloud of sadness. I need a distraction." He really did, laying in bed all day and crying into my arms, really isn't good for him. A distraction would definitely help him.

"Like this mission, you will not." Master Yoda looked to Anakin then to me, "Or you."

I narrowed my eyes, getting a bit of a nervous feeling, "Why; what is it?"

Obi-Wan pressed a button on the hologram to reveal an image of Rush Clovis. Oh dear, "According to your extremely detailed report Anakin, it seems Clovis took a liking to you (y/n)." He turned to face me, "What alias did you give him?"

"He knows me as Destiny Starkiller." I informed them and they nodded, I'm a little worried about where this is going though.

"Well, we need more information about this so-called Empire. I need you to go undercover as a-" He paused as he looked at Anakin with a nervous expression, "Lover."

Anakin's expression fell into one of anger, "Fuck no." Well.. he'll definitely be distracted with thinking of ways to murder Clovis. So I guess it's a win.

His former Master sighed, "I told you he'd react this way," He looked down to Master Yoda before shifting his gaze back up to us, "I'm not saying you have to go as far as to sleep with him, we'd never ask you of such a thing. But just get close to him, make him trust you enough to leave you around unsupervised. Then steal all the information you can. Eavesdrop on his meetings, if you are able to, and download any valuable data from his holotable to this." He handed me a flash drive.

I nodded taking the drive, "Not that I don't agree with this plan, but there's one small problem, he thinks I'm married."

Master Yoda was the first to speak, "Congratulations, divorced you are." He said it with a smile on his face and I knew it was just to get a reaction out of Anakin. Which he did, my fiancé narrowed his eyes at him.

"I hate everything about this." He pouted as he crossed his arms over his chest, but he knew he had zero say in the matter, "What is even my role, he can't see me or he'll get suspicious."

"Good thing you won't be seen," Obi-Wan reached down behind the table and tossed a helmet in his arms; Anakin quickly unfolded his arms and caught it, "You'll be her trusted bodyguard, you'll make sure everything goes according to plan and nothing goes wrong on her part. Since of course she won't have her weapons on her, you're in charge of her safety." He informed him as Anakin inspected the Madalorian life helmet.

He sighed as he lowered the helmet down and turned his gaze to Obi-Wan, "So pretty much I have to stand there and watch my fiancé get lip smacked by a separatist?" His face shifted into one of disgust and irritation.

"Yes." Master Yoda nodded nonchalantly with a smile and I was this close to pulling on his ear.

I grabbed ahold of Anakin's arm to pull him closer to me, "I know this sucks," I brought my hand up to his cheek as his eyes bore into mine, "I don't want to do it anymore than you want to see it, but we can't let our relationship get in the way of our duties." It wouldn't be right and it wouldn't be fair to our Masters, especially since they allow us to even have this relationship.

He nodded in understanding, "I know Princess," He brought his gloved hand up to caress the hand I held on his cheek, "But I swear, if he tries putting his hands on any of my five favorite locations, I'm cutting off his hands." He looked from me to our Masters, "I'm not joking, I'll do it." He told them with a stone cold expression. I smiled, he's crazy, but I happen to find his protective nature to be a bit of a turn on.

"Five?" Obi-Wan asked with a confused tone.

Anakin nodded with a devious grin, "Yeah five, the twins count as two and then there's her-"

"Stop." I shifted the hand that was on his cheek and placed it over his mouth, "My father is in the room."

I heard Yoda sigh, "Want to hear this, I do not."

Anakin smirked when I removed my hand, "Consider it karma for your earlier remarks old man."

I couldn't help but let out a chuckle which Obi-Wan joined me in, "Alright so when do we leave for the mission?" I asked when I finished my laughter.

"In two days," He informed us, "There's going to be a festival in the streets of Scipio, our source tells us that he will be attending and it is there where you will bump into him on 'accident'." He air quoted accident before dropping his hands down.

I nodded, sounds easy enough, "Sounds like a plan."

"Good, so for now just rest and be ready when it's time to leave." He instructed as he pressed a button on the holotable to make the image of Clovis disappear.

"Sounds good," Anakin nodded as he tossed the helmet to him which he caught, "I don't need this right now," He grabbed my hand and looked down to Yoda, "I'm gonna go have sex with your daughter now." He smirked as Yoda shot him an irritated glare. But before anyone could say anything, he pulled me out of the room.

"Wear a condom!" Obi-Wan shouted, causing us to chuckle as we hurried down the hallways together and into his room, earning us a few confused glares.

As soon as we were inside, I turned around a smacked him in the arm, "Why would you say that to him?" I shook my head with amusement.

He shrugged, "You saw how much he was enjoying my irritation about this assignment, he had it coming." He smirked down at me as he gripped my hips and pulled me to him, "Besides, I wasn't totally lying." He winked.

I laughed as I pushed him away and walked over to the nightstand where I grabbed the unopened box given to him by Obi-Wan, "We should probably be using these." I held them up in his eye shot.

He grabbed the box and eyed it for a moment before throwing it behind him, "Nah."

(a/n Hope you enjoyed this chapter ♥️)