I don't know what to do.

I felt saddness.

I was sobbing.

Now I feel empty.

I don't have any emotions.

Scratch that.

I feel regret.

Regret that I didn't take the time to know him better.

Regret that I didn't try to stop him sooner.

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Now the only clues to his past life are chapters.

The most I can to is scan them trying to figure out more about him.

The only thing I know right now is that he's smart. On a Lams fic, he created an entire paragraph of ideas based off of a coke.

I remember staring in awe at his intelligence.

Now I'm staring in awe again for a completely different reason.

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I didn't do my chores today.

I'm waiting for my mom to yell at me.

Then I'll have an excuse to cry.

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I feel like I'm about to faint.

Hopefully I will.

Then I won't have to be awake for this.

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I blanked out.

Now I'm on the floor surrounded by pieces of ripped paper stained with tears.

I don't remember anything for the past few minutes.

I just want this to be a dream and wake up.

I want another chance to talk to him.

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It's funny how quickly saddness turns to happiness when one thing changes