Listen to any sad songs that you love. And if you're a kpop lover, listen to iKON's Apology while reading this :) it was my inspiration to do this one shot. Just imagine your bias in iKON while reading this. Enjoy! <3

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Why am I feeling like this? Feeling hurt while loving you. I guess it's the consequence of loving you, huh? What did I do in the past to make me suffer like this? All I ever do is to love you. Is that hard to love me back?

It was a fine day. We we're deeply in love with each other. You were my love, my future, my everything, my world, my best friend; my all.

I remember waking up next to you; only to find out that you've been watching me sleep for hours. You would always kiss my forehead and will greet me a happy 'Good morning beautiful!' With an extended smile that always brighten my day; that would always complete me and my day.

I remember watching you cook breakfast for the both of us. You would be cooking my favorites; different dishes everyday. Pancakes with chocolate, fruit salad, an egg or even just a simple coffee. I would tell you how delicious it is and you would just smile back at me and continue cooking.

I remember how you spoil me with everything that I wanted; clothes, shoes and other stuffs I liked and you never get mad. Instead, you buy me what I want.

I remember going to church every Sunday with you to pray and worship God, to thank Him everything that we have. When we're too early, you would wrap your arms around me and hold me closer, you would always say that we'd be married someday and have kids. I imagined it; and then you smiled widely; telling me that we would have a perfect family.

I remember the time that we were arguing and ended up shouting with each other. I thought that we would break up because you shouted at me and I was really hurt. But you were sorry and you promised me that you'll not do it again. And because I love you too much, I forgave you.

I remember the time that was raining hard and we have no vehicles to ride on so we ran on the rain. While running, we we're both laughing on our faces, having mud on our clothes. People we're watching us like we're some crazy people because we're soaking wet but we didn't mind. All we see is ourselves. And then we kissed. It is the most perfect time. A kiss in the rain would always be perfect. Then the sky was too angry at us. The thunder roared at us loudly so we just laughed.

I remember that you have a weak immune system and got sick because of that rain. I took care of you and wished that it was me who's sick and not you. I was cooking everything you want, giving you medicine when it's time to drink. And after a few days, you we're back to your old goofy self.

I remember having a tie knotted stomach because you proposed to me; in front of everybody, in front of my family. I was so happy that time. Finally, the moment I've been waiting for; to marry the person whom I love for the rest of my life.

I remember the day of our wedding but you were not there. I was heartbroken.

I remember being told that the reason why you didn't go to our wedding is because you're gone.

I remember waking up next to you; but you were not there anymore. I wake up alone with your photo next to me.

I remember watching you cook our breakfast, but you were not there anymore. I cook my own breakfast while crying— imagining that you were next to me.

I remember how you spoil me in everything that i wanted, but you were not there anymore. I walk alone on the malls— trying my hard not to cry.

I remember going to church with you every Sunday, but you were not there anymore. I go to church alone— all by myself.

I remember our arguments and shouts; but all I hear now is silence because you were not there anymore.

I remember the time that we were running in the rain, but now, I just walk alone, letting my tears disappear in the rain.

I remember wishing that I would be the one who's sick. It happened but I took care of myself alone. Because you were not there.

I remember the time that you proposed. It was the perfect moment of my life. not until our supposed-to-be wedding came.

I remember everything but it was too late.

I remember loving you with all of my heart and soul; but it was too late.

I remember our happy and sad moments together; but I know, it was too late.

Everything is too late.

Everything...

Because you're gone.