just now,

i left.

i was too afraid to stay.

i was terrified you would think of me in a different way now that you knew
the very secret i had managed to keep
from all of my friends and family
for years.

granted,

i know your secret now too.

i knew you were hiding something behind that carefree attitude and rebellious behavior.

i just didn't think it would be this.

now,

all i'm worried about is you hating me for leaving.

i don't know what i would do if you hated me.

i would be so disappointed in myself just for disappointing you.