Word count : 1732
Warnings : panick attack, swearing (angst, fluff)

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You groaned in pain, struggling to breath as you opened your eyes. Your entire body was hurting and for a second you didn't even know where you were. The last thing you remembered was that you had failed the mission and that you got shot multiple times.

Looking around, you realised you were in Bruce's lab, meaning that Natasha must have brought you there. Speaking about her, you hoped she was alright.

"Oh, you're awake." you heard Bruce's surprised voice as he entered the lab. "How are you feeling?"

"Like I've been run over by a car..." you replied, making him smile in simpathy.

"You'll be ok. You've been seriously injured so we thought we've lost you when Nat brought you home. Your heart stopped beating by the time we tried to help you..." he sighed. "Thankfully, Tony was there to help us."

You frowned, looking at him confused.
"What do you mean? That dickhead helped you help me?" you asked, shocked. "Why? And how?"

Bruce sighed once again, biting his lip nervously and pointing to your chest. You followed his gaze, your eyes widening the moment you saw an arc reactor attached to you.

"WHAT THE FUCK?" you yelled, not believing what was actually happening. "BRUCE, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?"

"I think you know that already, Y/N... I'm sorry, but that was the only chance we could save you." he replied, looking at you apologetically.

You sniffed, shaking your head as your eyes filled with tears. You refused to believe that was true.

"No... No, no, no... This is a nightmare... This can't be real..." you panicked even more, your chest rising and falling repeatedly. "You're joking... Please, tell me you're joking... PLEASE!" you cried, trying to get up, but failing as soon as you felt a horrible wave of pain hitting you.

"Y/N, calm down. You're gonna be ok, I-"

"NO!!! TAKE THIS THING OFF ME! NOW!!" you yelled desperately, trying to take it off.

"Y/N, DON'T!" Bruce panicked.

Tony suddenly entered the lab, seeing how you were struggling to rip the arc reactor off your chest. He pushed Bruce out of the way, pinning your hands down and trying his best to stop you.

"Y/N, YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN!" he said sternly, looking at you worriedly.

You just cried, fighting to push him away. At some point you couldn't fight anymore, so you gave up, sobbing loudly.

Tony laid beside you, wrapping his arms around you body and letting you cry on his chest. He didn't know what was wrong with him. When he saw Nat holding your almost dead body, he felt like the entire world has stopped for him.

He grew even more worried when Bruce couldn't do anything to make your heart beat again, so he knew the only way to save you was to use an arc reactor, just like his.

Never in his entire life had he been that worried before. He was relieved to see you awake, but he also knew how much you were suffering right now.

"Shh..." he whispered, rubbing your back. "I'm here. You're okay, sweetheart. Everything is gonna be ok..."

Bruce watched you sadly, before leaving the lab and leaving you and Tony alone.

"Y/N, please, I need you to calm down." Tony said as he felt your entire body shaking, while you struggled to breath.

You shook your head, trying to push him away once again, but failing for the second time.

"LET ME GOOO!" you yelled, punching his chest and making him hiss in pain.

Bruce came back, holding a syringe, and rushed to the both of you, injecting you before you could move away.

You grunted, glancing at both him and Tony, your vision starting to get blurry. Before you knew it, you felt your upper body giving up as you fell on Tony's hard chest.

Tony sighed, hugging you tightly as you fell asleep on him.

***

Everyone was once again gathered in the living room, obviously worried about your state. Tony joined them soon, seating next to Natasha and burying his face in his hands.

"How is she?" She hurried to ask.

"She's asleep. We had to drug her a little bit, otherwise she would have killed both us and herself." Bruce replied, pointing to him and Tony.

"This is all my fault..." Tony suddenly said, shaking his head. "I've been so harsh and rude to her this morning..."

"No, Tony." Steve joined him. "It's true you were a little bit harsh, but she didn't get hurt because of y-"

"BULLSHIT!" Tony exclaimed, getting on his feet. "She took my words seriously and look where she is now! I should have gone with them. If I had just shut my mouth and joined them, none of this would have happened. So yes, Steve, it actually IS my fault... Again..."

Steve and the others remained silent, not knowing what else to say. Sighing, Tony left the room, cursing under his breath and feeling disappointed with himself.

***

"TONY!" he heard Bruce yell his name. "COME QUICLY!"

Running a stumbling a few times on his way, he hurried inside the lab, his eyes widening at the sight of you.

You were panting and crying loudly, your chest bleeding as you were holding the arc reactor that was now no longer attached to your chest in your hand.

Noticing his presence, you glared at him, your eyes cold, knowing you didn't have so much time left.

Tony's eyes grew wide as he hurried by your side, catching your weak body before it could touch the floor.

"I... fucking... h-hate you, Stark..." you struggled to speak. "T-this is all your f-fault."

With that, the world turned black for you and you closed your eyes, your body going numb.

"NO!" Tony yelled. "NO! Y/N, PLEASE! STAY WITH ME!! PLEASE! I'M SORRY!" he cried, shaking your now lifeless body.

"Tony..." he heard a voice all of a sudden, but ignored it, trying to bring you back to life.

"Y/N WAKE UP!" he yelled desperately.

"Tony!" he heard once again, this time louder. He kept on crying, feeling like his entire world had just crushed beneath his feet.You were dead and it was just his fault.

"TONY!!!"

Tony jolted awake, panting heavily as sweat was dripping down his face. Looking around, he realised he was in the living room, laid on the floor, the others watching him with concern.

"W-what...What happened?" he panted, visibly confused.

"You fainted when Y/N punched you and we then heard you screaming in your sleep." Steve explained.

"W-wait, what? I fainted?" he asked, the others nodding at him.

And then it clicked.You knocked him off and he must have had a nightmare while he was unconscious.

"OMG!" he exclaimed, getting up quickly. "I need to talk to Y/N!! Is she still here?"

Bruce nodded. "She's getting ready to leave."

With that, Tony hurried out of the room and into the kitchen, where he saw both you and Nat, who looked at him confused.

"Nat, can you leave for a second, please? I need to talk to Y/N." he panted, trying to catch his breath.

Natasha seemed unsure for a second, but left as soon as she saw you smile and nod at her. Your smile faded however moment you looked at Tony, your eyes narrowing as you crossed your arms over your chest.

"What?" you snapped. "Are you here to wish me bad luck?"

Before you could add anyway else, you felt arms wrapping around you, your face pressed into someone's chest.

You frowned, realising that Tony was hugging you, so you tried to push him off, but stopped as soon as you heard him crying. You didn't know what to feel anymore... Anger? Confusion? Pity?

"I'm sorry..." he cried. "I didn't mean what I said."

"Whoah..." you pulled apart for a second. "What the heck is wrong with you? What happened?"

He sighed, struggling to tell you about his dream.
"I'm sorry, Y/N...I don't know why I'm always trying to hurt you. I thought I hated you, but the dream seemed so vivid and seeing you dead, especially because you of me..." he stopped, shaking his head in dissaproval.

You listened to him, feeling a little bit strange. The man in front of you was crying his eyes out because he thought you were dead, which only meant one thing : he cared about you.

"God, I'm so sorry!" he apologised. "I'm so stupid... Punch me, hurt me, chop my dick, but please don't ever leave me, cause, as stupid as it may sound, I don't think I'd be able to live without you!" he confessed, bringing you closer.

"Hey, it's fine. I wasn't that nice to you either." you said softly, smiling at him and wiping his tears. "Come here you big baby" you added, opening your arms and hugging him tightly. He hugged you back, sighing in content as he felt himself calming down.

"I see you two finally made up." Natasha smirked, entering the room.

Tony and you pulled away, blushing and holding each others hand.

"I really don't want to interrupt your moment, love birds, but it's getting late. We should go, Y/N." she added.

"There's no fucking way you two are leaving without me." Tony muttered, preparing his suit.

"Nuh-uh! I don't wanna hear it." he hurried to add before you could complain, making you smile.

"Aww, is the genius falling in love with me?" you asked teasingly, nudging his arm and expecting him to snap as usual.

Instead of a sassy remark tho, he pulled you close by the waist, his lips pressing onto yours. You were surprised at first, but then relaxed and kissed him back, your arms wrapping automatically around his neck.

"If you're gonna fuck each other during the mission, you're both dead, do you hear me?" Natasha interrupted your moment, sounding serious.

You two pulled apart, laughing and finally leaving for the mission, who turned out to be more than successful.

As for Tony, he made sure to protect, love and support you all the time, making up to you whenever he had the chance, which only brought you even closer to each other.

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A/N : Lol, what am I even writing??? :')) Anyway, please let me know what you would prefer to read next time. Another angst, fluff or smut? Thank you and have a great rest of the weekend! ❤️