Day 10 Part 2 - "Don't leave me"

"Y/N!"

Jungkook came out of his bedroom and practically sprinted towards me before squishing me to death.

"Oh my gosh, I missed you so much," he exclaimed, holding me tighter while I tried to breathe.

"Yeah- I- missed you, too- Please let me breathe," I choked out. His hold was too tight, my neck was so close to snapping.

He finally let go, giggling and allowing me to gasp for air and rub my neck. I couldn't help but smile at how happy he seemed to be after seeing me.

We stood there, staring at each other with silly grins on our faces, just wallowing in each other's presence as if that was our favorite thing to do. I wanted to stay there, not caring about anything else... Except, I had to show him the bracelets and end our misfortune, so I let out a sigh and walked to my bedroom.

"You're going to sleep?" He trailed from behind before stopping by the door inside the room.

"No... I, uh, have something to show you," I mumbled, something inside me tugging me not to do it as I kept walking. Fear was growing in the pit of my stomach, filling me up completely once I reached my drawers.

My hand was trembling as it slowly reached the knob but immediately retracting.

Why can't I do it?

My heart was pounding, its sound filling my ears. No matter how many times I urged myself to yank the drawer and end it once and for all, I was fighting myself, not wanting to move my limbs.

"Is something wrong?" Jungkook whispered, taking careful steps towards me.

I took a deep breath before sighing, "Yes. Everything is wrong."

He stopped just beside me, and even though I was facing down, I could feel his eyes on me.

"I just," I spluttered, feeling my throat tighten out of nowhere, my eyes blurring. "I just don't know what I should do..."

"Hey," he hushed me softly, cupping my face to make me look at him through teary eyes. "Talk to me. What's wrong?"

I sniffled once before stepping backwards and sitting down on the bed with Jungkook following, sitting on my left with his gaze never leaving me.

"I don't want to hide anything anymore, Jungkook," I whimpered, clenching my thighs. "I don't want to live in your body but I don't want to end... whatever this is... I..."

His warm hand was placed on mine, intertwining our fingers before he brought it up  to place a kiss on my knuckles. His eyes held so much unspoken feelings as they intently gazed into mine.

"I don't want to hide anything anymore, either. I wanted to talk to you tonight when you got back home. I somehow got afraid when I saw you but seeing you act like this like something's bothering you, I don't want to pass another day, hiding my feelings."

I grew confused. "Your what?"

"Don't deny it. Don't doubt it. I still love you, Y/N."

My breath got stuck in my throat, my eyes widening at his unexpected confession.

"You can reject me, tell me you don't have any feelings for me anymore," he whispered, glancing at our hands, his voice breaking. "I know how much you want Miryeong and I to stay in relationship... I guess it's because you don't feel anything for me anymore."

"What?"

"But I'm sorry, Y/N, I want you to break up with her... I don't want to keep hurting Miryeong and deceiving her as if I could reciprocate her feelings." He gave me a painful smile, his eyes softening. "I still have you filling my heart to the brim, so how can I act like I love anyone else but you?"

So you... used her to forget me?

I couldn't say anything. My mouth was sealed shut as I sat there, listening to his unexpected confession that shocked my mind.

He looked down at his necklace before bringing it up to his eyes. "Maybe this necklace I bought for you gave me a chance to spend even a little bit of time with you and ease my pain... I'm so happy that I found this small item. The earrings, too. They brought you to me."

A single tear rolled down his cheek as he still showed me the warmest but most painful smile I had seen.

"I can't imagine my life without you... I always look forward to seeing you whenever I come back home, waiting almost impatiently as I keep glancing at the door, hoping you open it and walk inside... Lately, I've been anxious every time I woke up, hoping that we didn't switch back so that I could spend even a little more time by your side..."

I was overwhelmed with emotions, feeling more than complete, hearing him pour his heart out, not afraid to be rejected, only wanting to let me know his feelings.

"So, you can reject me or hate me for putting you in this problematic situation but promise me that you won't leave me again," he whimpered, starting to cry uncontrollably and furiously wipe his eyes. "You don't have to love me... just don't leave me... I don't think I can handle the pain again. I love you too much, it hurts to be apart from you."

Unable to see him in pain, I wasted no second to pull him in for a long awaited kiss to show him what I felt. He gasped for a moment, his eyes widening before he melted into it, returning my love with the same intensity, if not more.

Our lips moved rapidly, feverishly and passionately in sync, pouring emotions and feelings, dissolving all our pains and tears. Kissing never felt this wonderful. It was shutting my mind and enlivening my heart, spreading jolts of euphoric feeling all over my body.

I pulled back for a moment, gasping for air to whisper, "I love you, too, you idiot. Stop hurting yourself with your own words when you haven't even heard my feelings."

His eyes slowly opened to desperately search mine, hoping that I wasn't lying.

"I'm not lying, Jungkook... Why do you think I tried so hard to maintain your relationship even when I-"

I was shut up by his lips crashing into mine again as he pushed me back onto the bed with his hands holding my face before hovering over me. He didn't even give me time to breathe, kissing me with too much intensity that knocked the wind out of my lungs, numbing my mind.

"Wait," I gasped before pulling back and slowly opening my eyes.

I froze when Jungkook's own face came into view below me as I straddled him.

"J-J-"

His expression mirrored mine when he fully opened his eyes. His hands came up to touch my face, gently caressing my cheek as his eyes softened before a smile grew on his adorable face that I'd grown too accustomed to.

"We have unconditional love for each other?" He chuckled softly, his lovely eyes forming crescent shapes before glistening with tears again.

"We always have," I whispered, leaning into his gentle touch, closing my eyes to relish in his warmth. "We were just too afraid to admit it and that caused hurts and doubts."

He hummed before wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me closer, our noses almost touching as his eyes gazed into mine, holding so much love and affection.

"I'll tell you 'I love you' all the time to have you never doubt me again," he whispered against my lips before claiming them again. The kiss was slow and affectionate as if we had all the time to show each other our love and stay there holding each other, finally on terms with our feelings. "No more tears. No more pain."

I nodded, whispering, "No more pain," repeating after him before brushing his hair as we smiled at each other and leaning down to kiss him again.

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A/N: And let your imaginations finish this day ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) bc I'm a child of god who doesn't write se-mut 😉

I was going to include a funny scene but thought it would dampen this whole situation so I refrained.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I got teary eyed myself trying to convey the feelings of the characters...

Someone pass me a tissue oof

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