I spent the following day thinking about Tov propose. I decided to stay alone and Emunah and Ashley worried about me, they asked if I felt okay and they brought me food.

I was so nervous that I didn't eat. John wanted to check me but I sent him away in a rude way because I couldn't tell anybody what Tov asked me until I'd made up my mind. That was hard, but he didn't want me to have any kind of distractions or people telling me what to do. Alone I could listen to my own voice from inside. The truth was that I was scared. I didn't know if I were going to make it or it was a foolish plan.

I had been thinking so much that after a while I fell asleep. During my dream I was walking along a beautiful beach with Ashley. Sun was setting, but the sand was still warm . All around was peace and the cloudless sky had the same color of the trees during fall. The sea was wide, open and I couldn't see the end of it. The fact it was so vast made me lose my peace. my stillness and my smile. Ashley came next to me and held my face.

"What worries you?" she said with a voice that could have melted an iceberg.

"I can't see the end of the sea" I replied

"I will show you all that you need" she whispered in my hear. She laid down and she invited me next to her with the movement of her hand. I sit next to her and without a word she kissed me. We got undressed and we made love like I could never thought it was possible. I could have felt her body with all myself not limited to the five senses. After that great experience we laid with our backs to the sand, watching the night grow darker and darker.

"I have to go now" she said lifting her naked body.

"Please don't go" I replied scared.

"You won't be alone Ambara" she said back

"I will be there with you for all your lifetimes"

"Why do you call me that way?" I asked.

She didn't reply and she moved towards the endless womb moving back and forward. She started singing.

"Watch me as I fall into the water calling, watch as I sink into the sea and always remember me..."

After that, she submerged herself and I woke up. What kind of strange dream was that? I asked myself.

All around got dark, the sun was setting and my decision had to be made. Tov was waiting for me.

Thinking about the dream, I remembered the words of the song and after a while, I connected the dream with my situation. A smile rose on my face. I needed to follow Ashley example and face my fear of the vastness of my mission: this was the only way I could make it.

I extract my pen from the pocket and I stare at it.

"Thanks" I said to myself as I made my way to the hut on the trees.

I saw once again the hut where I met many times Tov and I knew it would have been our last meeting . When I entered inside, I saw him still wearing the mask with an open book in his hands. The pages were blank like the ones I saw before. On the table there were the berries he had smashed the day before and the feathers I collected.

When he heard my hello, he closed the book that was green on the outside. I sat in front of him and I placed my hands on my knees. After taking a long breath, I said:

I have taken my decision. "I will go in search of the lost sparks"

"That's amazingly wise, my boy " he replied

"I' m so happy to know this!"

"Yeah I know. I had a dream which showed me the direction of my life must have been taken not by what is easier for me, but what scares me to the point I want to run back" I replied.

"I know your feelings but sometimes there are two choices to be made. There is always something easy and something right that usually is the hard path." He said with an encouraging smile.

"How am I going to make it through? I don't know where to start" I said.

"Nobody knows how to start at first. Here's all you need"

He pointed at the feathers and the jelly liquid. With this you can start writing." he said.

All of a sudden I understood that he was testing my will to see if I was going to make it and I brought back exactly what I needed to start the next task of life, greater than my existence.

"Step by step you are going to make it, one step at the time. I know that you came here faithless, but now you are ready for change" he said, putting something on the table that divided us.

I watched carefully and I saw the coin that Ashley took from me at the beginning of our trip.

"Twin faced, this object represent that you don't believe and you have no trust in God and his ways to guide you through life. Now after all you have been through, you are able to understand the story I am about to tell you.

Rebecca and Isaac had two twins: Esau and Jacob. The first one was a prideful hunter who wanted to follow the laws of men and pleasures on the earthly realm. On the other hand, the second one followed God's laws and was very wise. In ancient times the father, the strength and wisdom of the house, gave the benediction to the elder brother. The problem was that the first one had the good quality of being an hunter, but it didn't use it to repair the world and find the 288 lost sparks, which represent the beams of light everyone needs to rectify in him or herself .

Jacob, for his maturity and wisdom, should have been the one to receive the blessing for his behavior and his deeds.

Isaac loved Esau, while Rebecca loved Jacob most. The faithless mother of the twins, instead of believing in a miracle that could have changed the situation, decided to act and trick the old Isaac who was blind, dressing Jacob as Esau. The head of the house discovered he had been tricked but proceeded anyway with the blessing that passed to Jacob.

The whole story is about faith, or the strength of chaos that connect life to revelation. If Rebecca hadn't act, she would witness a miracle that had have set things right, but she avoided it putting herself between God and his plan. Her idea worked even if Isaac found out about the trick, but she lost the possibility to see God's work.

It's important to see this like a story and God as the way of the universe. How many times did you miss a miracle Scott? How many times your fate had been decided by you and you didn't catch the possibility of a new reality? Now it's time to experience this new lifestyle where you let faith rule your life and see things as they really are"

I was astonished and confused. I didn't know what to say. The things he told me were so true I couldn't answer back.

"What do you mean by that? How do the things work?" I asked.

"Right now this concept can be explained through science. We are cursed by our own eyes that make us think things are divided and separate. That is the greatest illusion that our mind offers to us. We should not believe everything we think. We are all the same in reality, fragments of a bigger unity. We just forgot that. We are impermanent manifestation of vibrations inside physical bodies and life in a chaotic reaction of elements in tiny spaces called cells.

When God creates the world, if we pay attention to the words used, it says that he speaks and everything comes true. What is the voice if not a vibration? Air moving and the friction with other atoms create a music, create a sound: the voice of God. Actually everything is vibrating.

There is a theory called the theory of the strings that talks about it. If we could see things as they really are, they are vibration at high or low speed. What we can see is moving slowly, so slow it has a shape in our own eyes. That's an illusion. We just can see between two values of ranges but the space is filled up with things and just if we don't see some of them it doesn't mean they don't exist. Take for example a bee. When she flies around, we see her body but her wings are invisible because she moves them so fast that our eyes can't perceive the vibration.

If we base our reality only on what we see, we lose the possibility of a new reality.

To sum up everything is vibrating and there is no difference between me, you, this tree or this table, except the length of the waves we emit. This way, the illusion of division is unmasked and we can see the oneness that permeates the space all around and above.

Did you ever wonder why mankind is obsessed and he has been obsessed with music and dance? They try to reach the music of the Universe, his vibration and return home. Every sacred text like the Bible, Upanisad, Vedas and the Quran tell stories, but the most important part is reading it aloud, because the sounds emit frequencies that may get you in an alternate state of mind where you can see better how the things are. You can reach these states even through prayers or mantras that are simply the repetition of a sound. We are all searching this connection that had been lost.

Now you can reunify all the knowledge spread to the four corners of the earth and make it one again like it was in the beginning"

"I am scared and alone...what if I fail?

I want to do it but I think I am not ready"

"Fear is a lie told by the fearful body hoping to be wrong. You will never be ready! The reality will try to stop you! " he answered violently.

"This life won't wait for you to be ready! It will came and reclaim everything you have leaving, you hopeless and alone, but this is nothing ...just the beginning...this is the way God chooses his soldiers. He wants you to never give up and give all you have even if you are scared to death. He wants your juice, so he crushes you until you surrender and serve him. Remember, serve to command.

Once you've done this, he will give you power over imagination and you won't be a regular human anymore, he will choose you as a leader and trusted friend.

You must act, your time is short "

My head was spinning so fast I needed to attach myself to the floor and the information I received were having their effect on my mind that was recalibrating the reality around me.

"I know I may do it but it is complicated and it will get harder and harder."

"Of course, but if you know where you are going, things will seem easier and remember, God tests us on what we most believe in and tries the shake the courage to begin, to face our fears and dreams. Look what happened to me, I am a visionary and this was the cost I paid" he said.

When he finished speaking, he took his mask off. What I saw left me speechless. His eyes were moving fast in any direction to catch the light, but with no result. White cloud shaped spots made the light impossible to reach the pupil and to receive the images all around. I couldn't believe it.

"For how long have you been like this?" I asked.

"Since the beginning, before coming here, I have never seen this place. That's why I tell you it would be hard and I couldn't go, but you have a chance, you can make the difference and finish what I should have started. Remember the fire you saw on the mountain. The reality of this place is almost over and the world we know may cease to exist.

I was once like you, I had no hope and I thought it was impossible, but the moment I lost my sight, I took it as a sign and I devoted all myself in this. Mara had been my support for all this time, she has never left my side"

"So, I will do the same" said a feminine voice coming from just out the hut.

"It seems we have company" added Tov.

I felt a soft warm hand landing on my shoulder.

"No worries Scott, you will never be alone. I will be always with you during all your lifetimes" said the woman.

I turned my head and the rays of the sun were hiding her identity, but I recognized her warm smile. I smiled back like never before.

THE END