(Warning: Signs of abuse)

He scared you sometimes. Many times, actually, if you were to be honest.

Kaneki was fine at the beginning after he'd found Anteiku and the Manager and Touka to help him with his "Ghoul problem". And of course, you love and support toward him never wavered so he was good; he was happy.

But then came the kidnapping and the torture. All the pain he was subjected to was bearable, in a sense, because he knew enduring it meant protecting the people he'd come to love dearly but it was hearing you cry that caused something strange in his brain to snap. Something brutal, something so well hidden throughout his life, he never suspected it was there, until...

"Hello, again, Kaneki-kun~" Yamori said in a bitter-sweet manner, surprised that the torture hadn't broken him yet. But with what he'd found earlier, Kaneki Ken was sure to break. "I have a surprise for you... Just open your eyes."

He was afraid of what he'd see but he had to eventually so he ripped open his eyelids fast and felt his heart stop at the sight. It was you. Broken, bloody and battered... In the arms of his torturer. Your eye caught his and you teared up. He was alive. Something you had slowly began to doubt until that moment.

"Kane- AHH!" Yamori gripped your broken arm and squeezed it tightly, causing a shooting pain to run up your arm. Your vision blurred slightly but came back into focus just in time to see what Kaneki did...
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You didn't really remember what happened after that, but flashes of the incident do surface at random times. Once, you'd seen him eating his torturer's flesh; there was also one time you saw him brutally beating said torturer to shit and another when you felt him gently lifting you into his arms and crying. His hair was white.
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"Kaneki-kun!" You said, closing the door with your foot as your arms were filled with packages and groceries, "I'm home!" Your voice carried a tinge of fear.

You cried out as he slammed you against the wall by accident, he'd been doing that a lot recently. "Did you get the food?" He asked, a savage, hungry look in his eyes. You nodded shakily, a dull pain in your arm where he'd ran into -- the same arm Yamori had broken around 2 years ago.

Your boyfriend let go of you and grabbed as many of the familiar packages as possible before running back into his room; and locking the door. You rubbed your arm sadly, hoping to ease the pain before taking the groceries to the counter. You reminded yourself to thank Ayato for the money for the "human food" you required. You guessed he was kind enough to provide the money seeing as Kaneki was one of the strongest in Aogiri -- you would never had assumed that he had a soft spot for you.

You packed away the food and took a casual glance around the small apartment. It was a run-down thing with old, dusty furniture and poor lighting. You never had the money for renovations, the measly pay you got at working at a coffee shop nearby was not even enough for a month's worth of food. You worried over these things as much as any person would but Kaneki never cared. Heck, Ayato cared more than him.

Your chest ached a little at the thought of your boyfriend, who used to be the sweetest person alive, not caring about you anymore. You allowed yourself to shed a few tears before you forced yourself to stop. Crying was a sign of weakness, something Kaneki hated seeing in you.
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"What'd you mean there were no packages?" He asked softly, a hint of anger in his voice. You shivered when he cracked his knuckles.

"They said they'd ran out. I swear I'm not lying, Kaneki-kun..." You squeaked. Instinctively raising your arms to shield your face.

He was about to shout but something stopped him. You were afraid. Of him. He thought back from that moment to the time he saved you from Yamori. You were always afraid of him. His heart wrenched and it all became clear to him -- you showed weakness because of him, not because you were weak; you were scared.

You stayed frozen in your position, readying yourself for whatever insult he was going to throw at you but instead he gently pried your arms away from your face and pulled you to him. "I'm sorry, (Y/N)-chan... I made you afraid of me... Y-you don't have to be afraid anymore... Please... Don't be afraid."

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Sorry if Kaneki was a little OOC for this one, hahaha