"Was I raised without love,
Or was I born unlovable?"

17/12/20
Rewritten :: 22/07/24

It's been a while, I hope you all were waiting.

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Please ignore the mistakes.
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Third person POV

The wheels rolling on the concrete road and the trees passing behind with every metre. Taehyung stared out of the window smiling, happy for the start of his new life with his lover.

His digits curled around Jungkook's, who was sitting beside him in the back seat, the younger male refusing to look at him, cheeks blushed in cherry red and heart leaping out of his limbs.

Taehyung couldn't help but smile wider at his thoughts. The wedding and a small get together after, almost took the whole day as he blinked his eyes at the setting sun, painting the sky in a beautiful shade of orange.

The male hardly controlled himself to not get over excited, he just couldn't wait to reach Jungkook's house and make it his home with his husband. The male spared a glance at his partner beside him, a small pout adoring his lips when found the other busy in his phone.

As he scooted closer to his husband, hugging his arm and resting his head over it. The younger closed his eyes feeling the warmth of his lover surrounding him, feeling the hold tightening with a soft peck over the crown of his head.

The next moments passed in silence, disturbing Taehyung when he heard the car's brakes screeching on the road. The boxy grin over his face matches the excitement in his heart as they both get down from the vehicle.

A gasp escaping his pretty lips, Jungkook's house. The seven story building never failed to make Taehyung gasp in amazement. The blonde male had visited the house many times, even spent numerous nights here with his lover.

But the beauty and the elegance of the house always made him bewildered. Taehyung let go of Jungkook's hand as he walked ahead. Their hyungs behind in their cars.

The younger had memorised all the ways of the mansion, the above three floors belonging to Jungkook and the other to their hyungs. The fourth floor to Min Yoongi, third to Seokjin Namjoon and the remaining three to Hoseok.

And Taehyung still shivered at the memories when he had trailed to the fourth floor in curiosity, only to be stopped and glared at by Min Yoongi. The elder didn't utter a word to him but the way he had glared at Taehyung's soul with his cat-like eyes.

He found Min Yoongi intimidating, he was scary. And Taehyung refused to accept his gut feeling when looking into his orbs, that he hated him for sure.

And there was his polar opposite, Jung Hoseok. Taehyung silently chuckled at the man. He was his favourite hyung. When asked why he lives alone, the man just replied with a laugh telling Taehyung how there were lots of computers and keypads to accompany him. -Hyung's obsessed with video games.

And then come the blonde Male's absolute favourites, Seokjin and Namjoon. Happily married and busy in their own world. A Lovely and beautiful couple, the younger looked back, taking in the sight of Jimin walking at some distance. His smile fell.

Jimin was mysterious but his friend. He was almost the same age as Taehyung but the younger male frowned at his stiff posture and raised eyebrows. Feeling his stomach churned at his persona, the Jimin who looked chubby and sweet to his eyes, looked sincere and bitter today.

The emotions in his eyes- so raw.

Taehyung felt the speed of his steps slow down as he took a deeper look at the expressions of all of them, something was wrong.

His feet coming to an absolute halt as he turned his head and matched his orbs with his husband, the wide doe bambi eyes which used to be filled with innocence and pure love for him, were narrowed today.

The stars shining in them didn't make their way to Taehyung's heart today but the darkness of those made his stomach churn, his heart beat faster, not with excitement anymore.

His eyes brimmed with water again but not with happiness anymore, he was wrong. Jungkook's eyes, they always spoke louder than his words but today, the blankness and the coldness present in them made the younger male shivered.

He turned around on his heels, his figure facing all of them, why Seokjin looked so worried, why Namjoon and Hoseok weren't meeting his sight. Why was Jimin furious? Yoongi- Taehyung found himself blinking at those cat-like eyes, the look, the glare. He found them familiar- reminding him of his father.

Taehyung flinched a step back as he felt his palm turn sweaty, mustering up enough strength to steal a glance at his husband's face, the look of pure hatred breaking his heart into a million pieces. The blonde refused to accept the gut feeling turning in his stomach. He blinked his tears away.

As he raised his palm toward the raven haired male, his palm hanging in the air, Taehyung didn't look away, the thought of missing any emotion of Jungkook's features terrifying him.

"J-Jungkookie.." He whispered, the name rolling out of his mouth, his voice breaking in fear of his thoughts being true. But a lone tear kissed his cheek when Jungkook made no effort to hold his bare hand, instead grabbing his wrist.

Taehyung looked without blinking at his husband's side face as he let his figure dragged, his skin burning where Jungkook had held him, he watched the raven press the digits of the pass code as he was pushed inside.

The younger glanced at his lover's face one last time, the numerous questions bubbling in his system, but his emotions louder as his voice refused to come out of his throat.

And Taehyung watched Jungkook's lips move to form the familiar syllables he had heard his whole life, his heart breaking painfully inside his limbs. Taehyung felt his legs shaking when the wooden door was closed at his face, his husband's figure disappearing behind as his body fell on the ground, in silence of his loud heart break.

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The blonde bit on his lips in shyness, looking down at the roses in his hands, so pretty and red like his cheeks. The male traced the soft petal with the tip of his finger.

Walking down by the side of the street, the night lit up by the moon. The stars twinkled in the sky as he giggled to himself and spun around on his heels, a few stares thrown his way.

Immediately turning red at attention, the male ducked his head down, when he saw his lover standing at a distance, the raven looking at his phone screen.

The blonde made a run toward him, stopping a few steps before. The elder now focused on him, the bunny smile on his face in its glory and the annoying phone back in his pocket.

"How are you?" He heard Jungkook ask as Taehyung beamed, only a few people asked him that- actually none. Nodding his head, the younger smiled.

Both the male stare at the Han river in front of them in silence. Taehyung's heart leapt in his throat, looking down at the roses in between his digits, he doubted.

It's been nine months since he met Jungkook, the man always making butterflies fly in his tummy. The younger man stole a glance at the man beside him. His eyes were so full while looking at the water, his lips turned into a peaceful smile. The button nose, the younger wanted to boop it only once.

Jungkook was everything a partner could ask for, and Taehyung? The younger pulled down his sleeves to hide the fresh red bruises on his wrist, taking his lower lip behind his teeth, Taehyung struggled to find the answer.

Jungkook was a successful CEO and Taehyung, his father's bruised doll. He was useless and pathetic, bringing unluck to everybody around him. Where the younger wanted Jungkook to be more than one of his only friends, he didn't want Jungkook to let go of him because of his own stupidity.

Taehyung knew Jungkook was kind and because he didn't want him to pity himself, the male never told him or anybody about the things his own father performed with him.

But the younger male was startled when Jungkook nudged his shoulder softly, looking up at his face with eyes blown wide. Taehyung stuttered.

"Are these for me?" He heard the elder ask, pointing at the flowers in his hands, Taehyung panicked at the question.

"N-no, I-I mean, Y-yes. But no-" Jungkook laughed loudly at the stutter, throwing his head back in happiness as the younger felt his cheeks paint red, chuckling after the elder.

"You don't have to stutter, Taehyung. I don't bite." The male joked, hugging the younger closer to his heart as he smiled, taking the red flowers and looking at them in affection.

"My mom used to love roses, thank you." The softness of his eyes and the calmness in his words made Taehyung's eyes teary, blinking the water droplets away.

He was scared of the possibility of ruining whatever they had by his confession but he was terrified of losing Jungkook because he was a coward. The man in front of him looked worried at the tears.

"Why are you crying, Tae? Did I say something wrong? I am sorry-

"No." Taehyung said, as he looked up at Jungkook with his teary orbs and trembling lips, "-I am sorry. B-but I can't keep this anymore. I like you, Jungkookie. More than a friend. I know i'm not enough for you but I will try my bes-

"I- I am sorry, Taehyung. But I-" The said man looked horrored at the elder at the change of his tone and expressions as he heard his heart breaking in his chest, he felt numerous tears kiss his cheek and roll down his chin, choosing to stare at their shoes.

"I don't like you, Taehyung." The younger bit on his tongue to stop his loud wail as his shoulders shook pathetically, Wow Tae, you ruined your only and only friendship too. You should have kept your stupid mouth shut! Useless, stupid-

"I love you." The younger gasped at the confession, looking up at the elder so fast that he heard a bone snap. His mouth opened.

The raven scratched his head as he looked away from the brown orbs, cherry red sitting on top of his cheeks, he bit on his lip only to draw blood.

"W-what?"

"I am sorry, fuck! H-how do I say this.. it's been more than a month, Tae. I feel a lot more for you than just a mere friend. I-i.. I am fucking roaming with a ring, in search of perfect timing b-but I always mess up and-" Jungkook stuttered in a breath, finally meeting eyes with Taehyung who stood frozen at his place.

The blonde watched Jungkook's eyes turn teary too at the lack of his response as he looked down at the concrete road, "Sorry." He heard Jungkook apologise, the cold water droplet from the sky snapping him from his frozen state.

As he broke down into loud sobs, tears mixed with pouring rain as he hugged the elder tightly, curling around in his embrace. The raven drew invisible circles at his back, refusing to move from the rain and find a shelter.

As he broke the hug and looked at the younger, red orbs and pink lips, the wet face and blonde strands sticking to his forehead, he slipped the diamond ring into his finger, Taehyung looking at the jewellery piece.

"I love you, Tae." The younger looked up, a wide boxy grin with many tears decorating his face as he tiptoed and placed a quick peck on Jungkook's lips.

"Thank you. T-thank you for l-loving me."

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"Pl-please open the door, pl-please.." The younger pleaded, body sprawled on the floor by the wooden door. His throat burning from how hard he had screamed his questions and pleading, his palm hurting, bright red from how hard he had banged the frame.

Taehyung felt nth number of tears slip down his eyes on that day, as he rested his head against the door and whispered his begging, only to be left unheard.

He once again felt his throat tightened and eyes burning, the loud wail rising up to the tip of his tongue as he dug his nails into his palm to not cry.

But they were stronger, he heard another loud cry resonated throughout the room, felt another sob rip out of his throat. Another hiccup to shook his shoulder;

And at that moment Taehyung learned, his father was never wrong. He was never raised without love. Taehyung was just born unlovable.
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I am sorry as it took me sometime while I tried coping up with the loss of my mother. Life really is unpredictable.

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Also, suggest me some of the saddest love songs, I prefer hindi but English will work too. Pretty please :)

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^just Jungkookie setting unrealistic standards. ㅠㅠ