*(Y/N)'s P.O.V*

It had been a couple of weeks since the group found out about mine and Carl's relationship and since than i felt as if a weight has been taken off of me. Some yelling broke me out of my thoughts "i'll open the d*amn shed than!" i heard a voice yell than some banging. When i ran to the source the barn doors were open and walkers were flowing out "oh my...." i trailed off as i reched for my gun and ran over to help them. I aimed my gun at the head of a random walker and pulled the trigger getting a bulls eye i moved on to the next one, Hershel, Beth, and Maggie were speaking words of protest. I put the gun down and and in my holster panting slightly. I heard another groan coming from the barn and i un-holstered my gun and pointed it at the barn but who came out...i didn't expect.

My jaw dropped and my hands fell t my sidea as well as the gun which landed by my feet "...Sophia?" i asked no one my voice craking pathetically. I heard Carl scream and run my Daryl held her back "rick walked over to Sophia and held her affectionately but away from his flesh "i'm sorry" he said. I collapsed to my knees and planted my hands in grass and pulled on it, inaudible screams made their way out my throat as the tears streamed down like rapids. Rick paused for a moment but aimed his gun at her forehead, closing his eyes he truned away not being able to look her in the eye...he pulled the trigger and my world seemed to fade. The shapes and colour becasme fuzzy and dull, the smells and the feeling became nothing and numb. I...became numb. I heard someone calling my name but i couldn't move all there was, was a ringing in my ear from the gun being close. Somehow my eyes trailed down to meet the dead, cold eyes of a walker or more importantly...Sophia.

My eyes refocused and i zoned back in to the world to see Carol holding Sophia but her head fell and her eyes met mine once again. I felt a sudden crushing feeling in my heart and gripped the fabric there "(Y/N)? Are you okay?" i heard a voice ask but i didn't bother to answer it. With one last look at my dear friend i closed my eyes and fell to the floor, my world still isn't colourfull though.

Sounds, whispers, breathing and footsteps...that was all i heard. My eyes fluttered but seemed to heavy to open, my fingers twitched and i heard gasps and footsteps come closer. Deciding to put some effort in it i opened my eyes and tried to blink away the bluriness. A sudden force wrapped itself around me and i gave a little squeak of surprise "w-what?" i asked "You have me so worried! You've been passed out for 2 days!" the voice said which i recognized to be Carl. Before i could hug back he pulled away and stared at me with his tear filled eyes "i thought you would never wake up" he said "i'm here now ok?" i asked and he nodded wiping away his tears he put a smile on his face and held his hand out to help me off of the bed "i heard others, where are they?" i asked "oh, they're in the other room they wanted to give us some alone time" he explained "to do what?" i asked. I regretted asking when i saw the mishevious look on Carl's face, he started coming closer so is tarted moving back. Every step he took towards me i took one back until my back pressed against the medical bed "C-Carl what are you d-doing?" i stuttered "oh nothing~" he chimed clamping his hands down on the bed beside me so i was trapped in between his arms.

 I started panicking "Carl, i-im serious! y-you're freaking me out" i warned him "you think i would let you go so easily after not waking up fro 2 whole days?" he asked "i'm sorry but-" "don't apologize, you did nothing wrong" he cut me off "b-but-" "stop talking" he cut me off again and enveloped me in a warm embrace. He tucked his head in the crook of my neck and tightened his grip on me, i wrapped my arms around his neck with a concerned look on my face "what's wrong Carl?" i asked "you...don't rememeber?" he asked "what?" i asked back "S-Sophia she-" "wait!" a voice boomed. We broke apart and looked towards the entrance where Hershel stood "it's common for people to put a memeory block up to protect themselves from a traumatic experience. I think it's best if you give her time to rememebr herself" Hershel said "i will notify everyone of her condition and make sure not to talk about it" Hershel said as he walked off "what is he talking about?" i asked "nothing" Carl lied. I wanted to push him but i let it go. I was about to move so i could meet up with the rest of the group when Carl stopped me "you don't think ijust because Hershel interrupted i would let you go?" he asked and i gulped.

Carl held me in the same position, in no way of escape in between his arms "Carl" i whined "yes~" he whispered in my ear which sent shivers down my spine "why are you doing this?" i asked "because i missed you too much" he replied whilst nuzzling his nose into my hair "i was always here just unconscious" i said blushing bright red "that wasn't enough" he whined. Carl moved away from my hair to look me in the eyes with a serious look on his face "what?" i asked "don't you ever worry me like that again" he warned in a menacing tone "i get it, i get it" i said grinning. He hummed in appreciation and hugged me for a second time "Carl?" i asked "hm?" i hesitated "...what exactly are we?" i asked. Carl chuckled "i thought it was obvious" he deadpanned "what?" i asked "we're...y'know, boyfriend and girlfriend" he replied suddenly becoming embarassed. I was no better the thought of actually having a boyfriend was still so foreign to me but i'm still not complaining. I moved Carl's head so he was looking me in the eye and i slowly leaned in still finding it awkward to do these sorts of things with my chidhood friend, Carl followed the action and closed the gap between us.

It started off shy and hesitant but gaining a bit more courage i turned my head to the side slighly to deepen the kiss. Carl wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer and i wrapped my arms around his neck, we were as close as could be, our eyes shut and lips moving in sync. Carl suddenly became super bold and trailed his tongue across my bottom lip asking for entrance, i gasped a little at the strange feeling and Carl took this oportunity to dart his tongue inside of my mouth and go exploring. I furrowed my brows as i fought for dominance but as predicted he won, my brows unfurrowed as i didn't need to concentrate anymore. We were both inexperienced so it kind of fit, a surprised clearing of the throat broke us apart. We looked towards the door and saw an uncomfortable Lori standing there, as if this wasn't embarassing enough Daryl walked passed and made kissy faces. We stood there awkwardly "i won't ask if you tell me" she said mixing up the phrase "well, Carl said he missed me and one thing led to another we ended up..." i trailed off "making out" Carl finished for me with no embarassment. I gasped and slapped him on the arm "ow, what was that for?" he asked "don't say such things with no hesitation" i scolded "it's fine, you 2 are growing up whether i like it or not. It's ok to 'make out' as long as you don't go any further than that" she ordered "yes" we confirmed and she walked off content. I glared at Carl playfully who just grinned and pecked my lips "idiot" i hissed but kissed him back.