yeah, but i dont think youve ever seen the very person who birthed you and love you laying dead on your livingroom floor
i dont think you ever really saw the person who told you you mattered and loved you and taught you things
you dont hear about how happy she was to have you
you.
she was happy to bring you here and to hold you and you were a prized possession to her
and i dont think ill ever get over the fact that i was willing to take myself out the same way she did.
im sorry, mom
im sorry and i hope god exists because if he does that means youre in heaven and youre with your dad but again you have to see your family fall down to hell and your youngest attempt to die so many times
and im sorry, mom
because i know you dont want me to leave like that
i know you dont
but i miss you too much and i want to be with you and escape what i have