TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR THIS CHAPTER
mental illness ⛔
self harm/suicidal ideolgy ⛔
IF YOU CANNOT HANDLE SUCH TOPICS, SKIP THIS CHAPTER

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I never rlly understood the argument that I can't use fiction to cope? Like I understand theres lines to draw between reality and fiction but

  Is there really harm to daydreaming your life away? Like it's not hurting you or I. I have nothing to live for outside of my fictional world.

    With a lot of people it gives them a purpsoe to thrive forward and it may be small but honestly some nights I've literally stopped bc then TDH would have nobody to carry on their names outside of Wattpad--or will ever be as devoted to write their story then me. They would basically vanish

    Theres lines to be drawn, I do believe that. Like if you think you need to murder to please fucking slenderman and think you hear Voldemort in your head, you're mentally unstable.

   But..just let me list how these dorks helped me

-LT was created in spite of girls at my school to make myself feel better about my weight and even though I'm at a normal weight BMI wise, whenever I wanna purge again I always draw LT

-(wastedintellect i personally thank u for this)
I always remind myself that Rin has been through literal h e l l but hes standing and smiling and shaking his ass and giving that smug lil look ok if he can do it I can

-When I get anxious I list how many side characters I have and count the letters in their name and work on world building

-I may or may not have a book filled 2 the brim with one-shots of TobyTicciRogers ocs bc I get sad sometimes and I rlly love his children a bit too much (cough sELVA AND ANTHONY SELVA AND ANTHONY SELVA AND ANTHONY SELVA AND ANTHONY gOd i hAve sO mUch 4 tHem)

-A lot of pieces of media (thats also rEALLY POPULAR MAY I ADD) that remind me of my mom I turned into something that cheered me up via AUs

-arrthurkirkland exists and now shit that honestly terrorfied me (ie puppeTS) now remind me of lanky tall son thank u frien

-Disney songs/musicals are honestly strangely great for me with dislocation? Like that and my water method helps me so much

-LT was literally created out of me and when I made him it was out of a lot of traits that I had/have
-When I was younger I was tol and chub but I eggerated it a lot

-His facial build is based off mine (this helped with my self esstem honestly a little too much)

-he is humble (something im working on myself) and calm

-I used him to let out my feelings about my own mother's death through his mommies

-fuck guys I did it again I did something just to talk about him someone confiscate my phone aGAIN

anyway yall get the point

Don't sit here and tell me this stuff doesn't help with coping/mental health. It can and Ive seen it in myself personally and friends