[ feb. 20, 2021; 3:01am ]

i wish i could tell you out loud, to your face, what you mean to me. but i can't, so this will have to do.

i've written and rewritten this so many times to try and get it right, but i don't know if i ever will. it's just hard, you know? trying to get it right. there's just so much to say but putting it in a way that makes sense is almost impossible.

i don't even remember how we met. some day in 7th grade. i think we had chinese together, but it's all a blur now. who knew i'd be meeting the best person i ever knew way back when?

you are my bestest friend in the entire world. you are my sister and i love you so much. i know sometimes i don't say it, but i do love you and i hope that i have expressed that with my actions over the years when words have failed me. you have been at my side when i'm at my worst and also when i'm at my best and i couldn't ask for a better person to be in my life. you are ride or die. you put up with my bullshit when you shouldn't have to and you're totally honest even when the truth isn't necessarily something i want to hear.

i promise to be a good friend to you. i know you've been going through it recently and i know that you know i'm only a call or text away. you're the greatest thing in my life so i can only hope to reciprocate even half of the love you've given me over the years.

with all the love in my soul,
a.