five more days and our comeback song will be released. days have passed since jungkook also made that 'announcement' — claiming me as his'. honestly, not everyone knows about it, just our circle of friends.

ever since then, jungkook would check up on me and call. we haven't hanged out yet due to their schedules. it was just last month since they made their comeback, and it was a hit. of course, what do we expect from BTS?

we would talk on the phone for hours, sometimes he would blurt out cheesy pick up lines like one time how he asked me if i have a map since he kept on getting lost in my eyes.

or that time where he asked chaeyoung to hide my keys, of course i had no idea so i got annoyed because she won't tell me where she hid it. but then this jeon called and told me that I dont need keys to drive him crazy.

i swear it was so fucking random.

in fact, yesterday i was shocked to see 11 roses delivered to our dorm with a note saying:

If you stood in front of a mirror
and held up these 11 roses, you would
definitely see 12 of the most beautiful
things in the world. Saw your teaser for
the comeback and you look gorgeous as always, Manoban.

- Kook

i haven't reciprocated kook's feelings as of now. i mean, i'm not even sure if he's serious or what. you know that feeling when you really want to risk it yet you're held back by your fear.

it's just that i really am scared to whatever's gonna happen once i confess. obviously, it will be my first time being in a relationship. plus the fact that once you let them completely enter your life, you'll be so afraid to lose them.

honestly, i didn't care about this before. yes, i was definitely aware of the fact that i was being shipped to BTS' maknae. there were fans who pointed out how kook suddenly became 'thaikook' ever since we debuted; and how his favorite color suddenly changed into my favorite color, yellow, from black and red.

i would see clips of him reacting to our group's performance, sometimes only specified to me. videos where his members would tease or warn him whenever we're around.

i remember there were clips where namjoon oppa would always look at kook whenever my song's part about to come. the most famous ones were the SMA and Gaon Chart Awards, both in the year 2017, where fans labeled him as a 'lisa-biased'.

surprisingly, during our GDA 2018 performance, blinks mentioned how he wasn't jamming onto our song compared to before. months later, oppa told me that he warned kook to 'look' normal during our performances and keep it in his pants so as to avoid these shippings.

we were aware of it too, fans even called it BlackBangtan moments; and yes, nothing's wrong in it. but to have others bashing you, saying mean things and threatening just because we were shipped to their 'oppas', wasn't right — nor was it helping.

namjoon oppa even told armys to not ship them with girl groups if they respect them, since he was aware of how it was affecting our public image. but some never stopped,  though others learned how to just respect it.

"yeorobun!" jisoo unnie called. we weren't really doing that much today since sajangnim told us to rest in order to prepare on our comeback stage.

"mwo?" chaeyoung asked. she was baking cookies to give to her 'mochi' as a belated congratulatory gift. jen unnie and yoongi oppa on the other hand were still talking — and bickering. in fact, before unnie left for paris, oppa took her out on  i dont know, a date? she said it wasnt a date but what else will i call it.

"you want to go to the arcades?" i was about to say yes when suddenly a messaged popped.

Kookie
Manoban, clear your schedule. I'll take you out on a date after our music core.
I miss you.

"ya! why didn't you ask me?" a half-awake jennie suddenly appeared, she still looks jet-lagged. for someone who just arrived yesterday from paris, this is expected.

"well, we thought you'll just spend the whole day in your bed." jisoo responded. jen went over to the table and was about to take a bite on one of the cookies when chaeyoung slapped her hand.

"ani! im packing those for mochi. i'll bake you one later, unnie." jen rolled her eyes and whispered something like how love makes us do stupid things.

she was on the way to her room when jisoo unnie asked her if she was coming to the arcades.

"ah, no. just wanted you to ask me hehe. i haven't completed my sleep cycle, but have fun!" then the door closed. in the end, it was just chaeng and jisoo unnie who went. i told them, however, that i'm going out with kook. they gave me weird looks and teased.

i then received a message from him to go down since he was already there. once the elevator door opened, i was welcomed by his presence. he was wearing white shirt and sweats. who knew he can pull this off and still look hot in a fucking plain shirt?

"hey." he approached then hugged me, tight. i sniffed his scent ; this will be the end of me, i swear it's so addicting.

"i missed you, lali." new nickname? seriously, i can't keep up with these names he uses on me. he let go and looked at me — from head to toe.

"wae?" i raised my eyebrow. he then coughed and threw me his hoodie. i gave him a confused look before i examine my outfit. jennie unnie told me to wear a crop top and shorts, but i guess he finds it awful.

"wear that." he coldy stated while pointing onto his hoodie; then he pulled my hand towards the van and we took off.

"dont you like what i'm wearing?" i asked while we were on our way. i still don't know where we're going, but he made sure that i'll have fun.

"ani." he said in a calming manner. i remained silent and looked over to the window. he then held my chin and made me face him.

"you really have no clue how beautiful you are, don't you?" lines on my forehead appeared causing him to smirk.

"no matter what you wear, you're stunning as always. i just don't like others staring what's mine." his gaze then looked down and paused for a moment before he lick his lower lip and let go off my chin.

the ride was kind of long, but as soon as i saw bright lights, i knew where we were.

"here's to our first amusement park date, manoban." he said before getting out of the van and opening the door.

before i went out, he put on the bucket hat he was holding onto my head.

"wear that, i want us to be matchy." before he flashed his bunny smile. i giggled. "okay, jungoo." i teased to which he flicked his finger on my forehead.

i swear this man has two sides of him — the jeon jungkook we always get to see on stage, and the softie and playful jungoo, which luckily, i get to see everyday.

"gaja?" i nodded then took the hand he offered and exited the van.

i was about to let go of it when he tightened his grasped.

"ya! once i give you my hand, never let go of it, arasso?" he scolded.

i wonder, what did my hands do before they held you?

i thought to myself.