Sunayn's POV

It's been a long time since I have come here but it feels like I did not learn anything yet. Yes. That is what it feels like coz everyday we are given different kind of training and different tasks and it has become our routine to get to know new things and learn something different from before.
I miss my family and friends. Very much.
With all the chaos and training in the morning I couldn't really get time to concentrate on other things rather than my work but in the dark during nights I really miss them. The comfort of my bed and the words of my mom always keeps me reminding of my life before I came here. I think it's an easy life compared to here. I don't have to bother to prove anything to anyone about my abilities or my talents but here it's a daily activity to make ourselves known among everyone and it becomes very much stressed if we cannot perform well.
I keep remembering my dad's words about self assurance and confidence and make as much as I could to make it better every other day. I want confidence in myself before I prove it to anyone. So I am concerned about self boosting before impressing others.
There are other mates too who are a pro in one art and poor in other. The same happens to me as well. So I am trying to work on the things I am doubtful at.
I met different people from different states and different languages here. I actually don't understand few things they talk but thanks to them who converse in English when I am around to make me comfortable. My roommates Siddhesh and Gaurav also got good fame here. At the beginning Siddhesh got lot of punishments for his laid back attitude but later on he worked hard to get back to normal and he started talking about little useful stuff now rather than his hookups or girls😜
Sometimes I open my bag and read those letters which often take my mind off. I still don't know who this person is but somehow I started missing those letters and the person.
Did I admit it? Why have I become like this? The person whom I didn't even meet occupied my brain and settled there like no one else🤷‍♂️
Sometimes we get to go outside the training sector for general outing. We can buy stuff which we need or can just roam around until the given time. At that time I call mom and ask about the things going on. She tells me how much everyone misses me and even cries over phone. I had to disconnect the call to control my emotions. Those nights I couldn't sleep at all.
As usual that day I finished training and was going to my room to take little bit of rest when I was told that someone is calling me. I got confused. Why would someone call me to meet?
Nonetheless I went to the person and it was our chief lieutenant. I saluted him in an instance to which he saluted back. He said that I have a message and handed me a letter.
Letter??
Oh God!!
No.. no... This can't be happening now?
I had goosebumps suddenly.
I was not able to form words. I just looked at him and with shivering hands I took the letter and saluted and left from there.
When I came outside his cabin I was perplexed. I don't know what to think or how to feel. I am just not understanding how to react. These letters have already occupied my brain and receiving a letter and that too here in the training academy is just out of my mind. I stood there for sometime and again went back to room.
My roommates asked me where I was to which I just shrugged saying I had some time alone. They didn't ask me anything further coz I know they are also exhausted with the training since morning.
I want to open the letter and read what's inside but somehow I can't do it when my roommates are here so I just waited until they are gone for dinner.
" Hey Sunayn. It's time for dinner. Come lets go " Gaurav said and Siddhesh was also going there along with him. It's time for some acting.
" You guys go I will join you later. I want to relax for sometime " I said yawning and turned to other side like I am sleeping.
" Okay as you wish. We are leaving " they both left from there leaving the door wide open. I got up and closed the door making sure that they both went off from there.
I sat on the bed for sometime and with shivering hands removed the letter from my pant pocket. I exhaled deeply and opened the paper or more precisely the letter.

Hey Sunayn,

Hope I am not disturbing you at this time. I know you are very busy with your schedule and don't want to get interrupted during your training period. But what can I do? I am very much eager to talk to you and know about your well being.
By the way how are you doing? Hope you are not bothering yourself too much with the training and all. I thought of not writing to you but I can't stay without talking to you. You don't have any idea how dull my life seems to be without you here. I hope you were here but I know I can't come in front of you. So be it. Atleast I could look you around.
Oh God! I don't want to bring this whole conversation here.
If you are thinking how I am then I am doing not that great without you but I started coping with everything these days.
In the beginning it was tough to even get up but now I could do everything. I don't know how you are feeling by reading this letter but i am really happy that I am able to write to u.
And one more thing don't panic that u received a letter coz it's just that I couldn't stay without writing u so I had to try my best to do this.
I am really sorry if it caused a problem to u but I can't stop myself from doing so.
Just eat well, practice well and most importantly believe in urself that u can do this no matter what.
I strongly believe that u will do it and my trust in u is way too much than u think of urself. Just know that u are precious to me. Alot.
Um.. I don't know why but I am getting emotional now so I will stop here.
Just take care of urself.
I miss u so much Sunayn...

Bye.

I cannot believe what I read just now. I mean this is not the first time I received a letter but it is not the same feeling receiving the letter here as well. I don't understand who this person is? Why is she so crazy about me? She's talking as if she had talked to me earlier as well. It's really taking my mind off. I don't know how to take this all at once. I am still confused as to how she did it? How can she manage to send me letter here?
I was still in my thoughts when I remembered that I need to go out to have my dinner. I think I have got lot of time in night to think about this letter.
With that I kept the letter in my bag which was under my bed and went to canteen to eat something.
" You look upset " suddenly Gaurav said when I was eating.
I did not know what to say I just shrugged off saying 'stress'. He looked a bit convinced but I can see the questioning gaze clearly.
After eating I came back to room and laid down in bed thinking about the letter and some unknown feelings were eating me away. I was absentmindedly hearing the banter between my roommates who were arguing about something about which I don't even have an idea about.
Next day we were informed that we will be shifted to different academy. In that academy we will have to give various tests related to all the stunts we learnt here and then according to that we will be posted to different areas. I was on cloud nine after hearing that but I was also little tensed about the test coz I want to give my best and that alone is enough to increase my stress to double.
Not only me everyone seemed little tensed but tried to cheer each other with soothing words.
Though everyone aced all the arts it was difficult to say we are perfect. It seemed as if we still need something to learn more.
During night everyone slept with a heavy heart thinking about the test while I was deeply immersed in my thoughts thinking about someone else.
The letter!
How did she do it?
I am clearly not understanding what to expect coz I have never seen someone so crazy in my life ever. She literally sent me a letter here.
I slowly took my bag from below the bed and removed the letter and started reading it again.
No matter how many times I read it, it still feels very new to me. I kept chanting it number of times and to be honest I don't know when the sun rose.
I immediately slid it in my bag and started off my day as per the schedule.
Training was intense today coz we were supposed to give our best and everyone started to act normal forgetting about the test.
In the midst of everything happening I was again thinking about the same letter and my mind was clogged with mixed emotions.
When there was a whistle everyone stood up immediately and stood in a line accordingly.
Our trainer and chief came and congratulated us.
" Good evening to everyone. It was really a great time meeting you all and training you for military. It was an honour seeing so many youngsters showing patriotism towards our country. I had personally trained everyone and could say that everyone of you are great human beings and I assure you that you will give your best in your test. As per the schedule the test will be conducted the next week so everyone be confident and strong enough to overcome which is coming your way. All the very best and I hope we will meet again in future maybe but not as trainer and trainee but maybe as lieutenants. Jai Hind " he ended with a salute and we all said ' Jai Hind ' in unison and saluted to him.
It was really encouraging talk by our chief and that really boosted our energy. His words made us all smile and at the end of the day everyone were happy that he atleast appreciated us inspite of shouting and ordering all the times😁
Everyone went to sleep with little relaxation that night.
I was also at peace after the speech and was waiting eagerly for the next week.
Jai Hind!

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