Sunayn's POV:

Life is unpredictable and, in my case, it was no different. But the thing was my life never left me a chance other than to accept the challenges which always made me strong and stable each and every time I faced them. When I decided to become a soldier, I felt so overwhelmed to be able to protect my country but with the dream came many challenges and difficulties. I had to join in a college and complete a proper degree as well as concentrate on my physical body to be fit and to get selected for army. I worked hours together not with just thinking to become a soldier but to see the happiness I will get after being able to die for my country. My country. This word alone gives me so much hope and energy that I cannot stop myself from working hard and keep going.

When I was single I was happy and I don't say that being in a relationship is going to disturb me or will it disturb me any further but these particular letters which I receive from an unknown person makes me restless and a feeling in my heart which leaves me perplexed and the curiosity to know that person grew even more if possible.

Did I just say I was single? God! Am I getting mad day by day? I don't even know what are these feelings and I even made myself believe that I am not single anymore.

From past few days I didn't receive any letters and I was getting crazy. I don't know but the will to read the letter and know something about the person so that I can at least make a picture of the person was strong. I was presently standing in a huge crowd where many people came to give physical test and here I a thinking about not receiving letter. Seriously I am going mad these days.

After what felt like decades, I was able to breath in peace coz now they have short listed the names who they have selected and I am more than happy to be here. I was eagerly waiting for my name to be called and finally when I heard Sunayn Kundra I took a long sigh of relief and smiled with contentment. Finally, I did something to achieve what I needed and I feel so blessed right now.

" Mom, where are you? Mom? " I shouted as soon as I entered and searched for her. As soon as I saw her coming towards me, I rushed towards her and lifted her off ground and twirled around only to receive smacks from the spoon she was carrying in her hand.

" You should understand that I am not a young girl whom you can just carry. I was so scared " she said while placing her hand on her heart and I smiled at her who was looking at me with narrowed eyes.

" You cleared it. Didn't you? Sunny you are selected right? " she asked with tears brimming her eyes and I just hugged her while nodding. This time she hugged me tightly and said how proud she was and I can see she was crying already as her tears were staining my stinking shirt.

" Why wouldn't I when I have a mom like you " I said and wiped her tears and she hugged me again.

" You don't know what gift you have given me today. I am so happy and I can't believe that you grew up this fast. Its like yesterday you were a kid playing with cars and now you did this... " she was saying continuously and I couldn't stop myself from staring at her and remembering my childhood where she would keep telling me stories and make me study and sometimes would make me sleep.

" Mom I am hungry. Can I get something to eat? " I asked finally and she stopped whatever she was saying and nodded walking towards kitchen and I followed her.

" You are first going to wash yourself neatly and then show up here to eat. Don't sit with that clothes and that smell on my dining table " she said making a disgusting face and I laughed at her. She glared at me while folding her hands and I ran to my room as I was already feeling very hungry.

" Mom this is too good. I would like to have some more " I said while munching my food when I heard none other than my naughty sister entering with a sad face.

" Mom you love only him. You didn't make me that dish when I asked you to but you made it today even before he asked it. I hate you big brother " she said and I looked at her amazed as to how she said everything without spilling her tears. She ran to her room and I shrugged my shoulders and mom went to her room to convince her. After few minutes she came back and sat beside me not before giving me a glare. As if I will get scared to her glares😉

" By the way what great thing you did that mom prepared all these items today? " Nanda asked while mom chuckled. I looked at her and couldn't stop myself from laughing. She was looking so cute with her pout and was serving herself food with accuracy. She was not even looking at me while she asked me and eating as if she was not angry with mom for not preparing it earlier.

" Nanda as I said that your big brother is going to join army.. " I started to which she just nodded while still eating and I continued.

" Now I got selected in physical test and later when I clear my entrance I will be finally a soldier and will protect you all " I said and she looked at me with furrowed eyes and started laughing.

" What? You are going to protect us? From all these years it was dad who was looking after us and how can you say that you will protect us and whatever test you are talking about, I don't know but you better make it clear on what you are doing. I mean what are you going to do with this becoming this army or whatever but don't tell me that you are protecting me coz I know dad will protect me no matter what " she said and gave me a mean look. I don't know what came over me but I started laughing and fell on floor laughing. Then mom joined me and Nanda just shrugged her shoulders and savored her food.

Me and mom settled on couch while laughing and mom side hugged me.

" Mom I am going to miss this when I go for training and all " I said with a lump forming in throat and she nodded understanding. Dad also came and congratulated me for my success and at night I laid on bed with many thoughts and the most disturbing and relieving thought being the letters. I removed all the letters again and read them and placed them back with a hope that I will meet the person someday. Some day!

Days passed by and I did not receive any letter and my exams also arrived within a blink. It was my first day of exam and I did it quite well and after that we all friends settled in a coffee shop and started discussing. I opened my bag to remove my keys and found a paper. A letter. My heart beat increased and I immediately made my way to home after bidding bye to everyone and closed my room door and opened the letter with excitement.

I was stunned would be an understatement. How come she knows that I am going to join in army? How come she knows that I got selected in physical test? How come she is not stalking me and was able to know about me so well? Wait did she say she will write me regularly? But how come she will write to me when I will be gone to somewhere where even I don't have any idea. What am I going to do with this person?

I sat on bed with head in my hands and was really stressed and I thought of smoking. I am not a regular smoker but whenever the things are out of control or stressful, I will need a stress buster and if I could just smoke, I will get a lot of energy.

I took my bike and again made my way to an empty place and took a cigarette and smoked but I think I was not able to get that letter out of my mind. How can someone be this stubborn to not show to someone and keep writing letters?

I took my mobile out and saw so many people are following me on Instagram and sent me hearty congratulations but my heart is yearning for a person who is not even aware that I am searching for her like crazy man. I scrolled through different replies and posted a story of mine.

I know how it feels to be close to someone as well as far from the very person.. Although I can say it really pains to know that the person who is close to your heart is suffering while you are just waiting to meet the person (maybe accidentally)....

I wrote and posted and I think I dug my own grave by doing it coz as soon as I entered my home and opened my phone, I saw many replies from my friends asking me to tell me about this someone. I just banged my head and did not reply anyone coz they will not be satisfied with whatever I say so I just ignored.

Exams finished but the multiple questions I received from my friends were infinity. They kept asking me and I just gave them my only answer that I am stressed and don't disturb me which they didn't buy but eventually gave up asking and I was happy for that.

I was studying day and night and also reviewing various articles so that will get basic knowledge about current affairs and dad too helped me in everything. I was looking forward to the exam which will finally decide my destiny and I am hopeful that god will definitely help me if I had done what suits me. I didn't contact any of my friends from the past few days as I was busy with only thing and that is studying. I didn't know that I can survive without talking to them for so many days and I am fine being like this as I need this separation in near future. Even with this busy day and night hardworking I never once forgot to read those letters and I must say I am not getting bored at all reading them again and again but I am feeling a strong connection with this someone. I started to think about that someone in my heart and also started sharing all the things and I was feeling an easiness while talking to myself with that person in my heart. If by talking to myself is so peaceful how nice it could feel by talking to someone directly.

I don't know how and when but I think I had made this someone a major part of my life and I don't deny the fact that I liked it and I don't regret my decision.

I smiled once again after reading the letter and kept it safely and made my way downstairs. Today I am going to write the exam which is going to be the life changing aspect of my life. I took blessings from my parents and also kissed Nanda on my way and smiled thinking about the someone who will be waiting for me no matter what and will always be proud of me.

I started writing exam and I was slightly nervous but after sometime I composed myself and finished it in time. I was confident that I had written well to maximum extent and I am hoping for a good result. I went back home and told everyone about exam. Everyone encouraged me that I will get it and I should trust that I can do it. I nodded in agreement and went to my room to rest.

" I don't know why I am falling for you slowly and steadily and I can't wait to see you " I said while passing my hands through my hair and looked outside the window. Someday I will meet that someone.