Sunayn's POV:

I was already tired with the extra workout I had been doing. My body is exhausted where it has no energy to even go back home from gym. I lay on the floor after punching the punching bag for god knows how many times. I was still trying to get my mind off the letters which had been disturbing lately. I want to know who is the mysterious person behind those letters who is hiding from me and also making me more anxious every time I receive the letter. I don't know when will I get another letter. I don't remember when was the last time I got this anxious.

" Hey bud don't you want to leave? You have been here for long time than needed " my friend questioned me. I got up to meet with the concerned look on his face. Though I wanted to share all the things which have been occurring these days with him but I didn't want to do it and I am not sure of the reason. I am the one who was always open about my beliefs and decisions but this topic looks so sensitive and I don't want another person to get involved with it.

" Nothing Raj just wanted a stay a little longer and you know that the physical test is fast approaching " I said while shrugging and tried my best to act normal while packing my bag.

" Don't try to fool me Sunny. I know you like the back of my hand and don't you dare tell me it is about the tests and all. I know you better than that " he replied while folding his hands and looking at me. I just shook my head and tried to make my way out. Just note that I tried to make it out without further conversation with him but guess what he caught me off guard by holding my wrist. I closed my eyes tightly wanting to disappear but I couldn't do it right.

" Okay. I agree there is something which I am not sharing with you but that is not important right now. And when the perfect time comes I assure to tell you buddy " I said looking at him who nodded. I don't know for some reason I felt the need to hug him coz he really was like my brother who was always there to support me. I hugged him for which he was stunned at the beginning but later hugged and slapped my back.

" I hope whatever it is which is making you like this will soon settle down. And good luck " he said and patted my back. I took my leave after bidding him bye and made my way to home.

As usual at home I had quality time with family coz who knows if I join army when will I get time to talk to them and have dinner daily. I sighed heavily and made my way to my room and took my books to study a little. When I felt I completed studying for today I laid on bed and stared at the ceiling. I again took those letters out and re-read them. No matter how many times I read I come to the same conclusion that I don't know this girl.

Argh!! God who this girl is?

I was coming down to have little water when I saw mom watching a serial and dad doing some work in his study. I went and sat beside her and placed my head in her lap. She smiled at me and started caressing my hair which was soothing me and a small smile appeared on my face.

" Ma I love when you do like this. I really don't understand what is it in your hands which instantly calms me down." I said and kissed her palm which was caressing my hair. She continued with her calming therapy and I closed my eyes contently.

" Umm.. Ma will it be okay if I suddenly come to you and tell that I like this girl and I wanted to marry her " I asked with still eyes closed. Her action stopped and I opened my eyes to see her only to find her looking at me with complete disbelief and shock.

" What are you up to Sunayn. Do you like any girl? I mean I really don't have any problem with it but you didn't tell me before about any such thing? " she asked with narrowed eyes. I can make out that she was already thinking about all the girls I know and all my relatives I know with whom I am close to. I really wanted to laugh out if she was really thinking about any such possibility.

" Ma calm down already. I am not into any girl for goodness sake. I am just asking what would be the situation. That's it nothing serious " I said while getting up and placed my hands on her shoulders to calm her. She was not convinced with my words but I just hugged her to assure her.

" I still don't understand what you are trying to tell me but if there is really nothing like that it is okay. But if there is anything, I will not mind at all. In fact I would be happy to know my future daughter-in-law " she said and laugh. I too laughed with her for trying to lighten the air around us.

" Ma you know me too well. The only woman I love in my life is you and I love you forever. No one will take that place in my heart " I said genuinely and she hit my shoulder.

" You know there is your sister whom you should love too. If Nanda hears it she will bite you like a vampire. " She said rolling her eyes. I agree with her about Nanda coz I am aware that if she heard me, she would bite me for real.

" I am talking about woman I love not about the kid. And Nanda is still a kid mom " I replied and suddenly there was a sound of someone clearing the throat and dad moved towards us and sat across looking at us.

" I heard you complaining about my princess saying she is a kid " he said and we both burst out laughing. Dad can really act like a strict dad sometimes and particularly if it involves Nanda. I know he is very much attached to her but I didn't know he would take a simple statement like this. He knows we are kidding but still acted like he was serious.

" No dear we were just talking and who said she is a kid? she is just a big girl. Isn't she Sunny? " mom asked me and I nodded controlling my laughter. He eyed us carefully before we all burst out laughing.

" I think it is time for us to go to bed. Good night beta " he said after our laughter died off. I nodded and made my way to my room and laid and soon sleep took over me.

Next day I went to college and found the letter in my desk. I quickly stuffed the letter in my bag. I was really excited to read it but I know I have to wait till I am alone. I was eagerly waiting for the time to pass fast so that I can get rid of everything and read the letter in peace but to my disappointment the time was passing very slowly like someone is pulling the needles back not allowing it to go further.

Argh! Why this day had to be so slow.

I was internally groaning all the time and my war with time subsided when I heard the lunch bell go off. Maybe this is the first time I was excited for lunch not to eat but to have some alone time. I took my time to make a proper excuse to avoid my friends' constant pestering then I made my way to canteen.

" Guys I have some important work to do right now in the library. So, you guys have your lunch and don't wait for me. Bye " I said hurriedly and ran towards library coz that is the only empty place particularly during lunch.

To my relief the whole library was empty as expected so I sat at the far corner in case if anyone sees me and opened the letter and started reading it.

She knows me. She knows me. She knows me.

These are the only words roaming in my head. Why does she hide if she knows me? Why does she thinks that she will not be loved by anyone?

And she said she saw in a conference. How should I find her?

An idea popped in my head and I rushed towards a computer in the library and logged in to my email. I searched all the emails I have received after I attend every conference. Let me tell you I have attended many conferences and seminars in my whole college life and I don't know what is the conference she is referring to where she met me. I searched for the photos which I take during conferences and then I started seeing all the female participants in it.

There are hundreds of girls and most of them are my friends in facebook or Instagram too so my attempt to find her is all gone in vain now. I sighed heavily and took my phone to see that I was sitting here for nearly two hours. To my success there are no classes after lunch today and I can directly go to practice. I opened the letter again and read it again.

She lost her dad. She is alone. She likes me. She has no friends. She doesn't like anyone getting near her. She feels some connection with me. She thinks I will not like her too.

How can she imagine herself that I will not like her when I already started liking her?

Oh, really you started liking her even though you didn't see her? My brain mocked me.

What? Did I really started liking her without my knowledge? I don't know when did I started having such strange feelings. I am dying to know her and she literally avoids writing anything about herself. I was never in a relationship with anyone. Relationship would be a big word coz I am not associated with any girl at all. Okay Tara yes but she is just my best friend. I didn't ever once think to be in a romantic relationship with her. And now she is in love with someone else and engaged to be precise.

I always loved nothing more than studying hard and becoming a part of army so that I can serve for my country. I am always the person who would talk about country and its culture rather than girls and partying. I studied hard and still I am. I don't want to distract myself with unnecessary connections so I was always far away from girls. I don't know if this girl knows about my dream of becoming an army officer but I hope she knows. I don't want her to break her heart once she comes to know that I am gone and don't know when will I return.

The way she writes letters makes me feel things that I never felt before. I wanted to meet her and take away all the pain and see her smile. I don't know if I could like her or not but I have this strong desire to make her happy.

For now, I wanted to concentrate on my future and forget about this girl but whenever I try to focus on it my mind drifts to her. She is controlling me without even my conscience. These days have gone crazy with only one thought running in mind. Who is she? How does she look? What will I say when she shows herself to me? Will I really dislike her as she said?

She wanted me to focus on my future and make a great life and I will definitely do that. I wanted to see her face when she sees me achieving my dreams. I wanted to proudly say her that I had finally got what I was looking for. But I cannot do that coz I don't know once I join in army, I will make it alive or not. I will be really honored if I die protecting my country but I wanted to see her once before I make my way to heaven.

Will I be lucky enough to see her?

Will she have enough courage to show herself to me?

God please make sure that I see that person before I make my way to paradise. I prayed and closed my eyes and few tears left my eyes.