to my darling,

i am sorry once again for sounding so broken and pathetic in my previous letter to you. it never once occurred to me that you could have found someone new. maybe that's why you don't reply. if you did find someone else, i am very happy for you. i hope they make you happy, i hope they take care of you. you deserve the world my love, you really do.

sometimes it seems like i am forgetting you, just like i've forgotten everything. i don't want to forget you, i don't want our memories to be sucked into the hurricanes of darkness and oblivion. i want to carve out my heart and stuff all our memories between the aorta and pulmonary artery so that they never escape my transient flesh.

my love, i hope i get to see you again one last time before we finally part our ways. don't get me wrong, i don't want to leave you but i feel like you have already moved on; so its best if i learn to let go of you as well. i know its going to be hard for me, because all i know is you in this blizzard of eaten up memories. part of me wishes that you come running back into my outstretched arms, your heart beat in sync with mine, our symmetry aligned like silvered mirrors.

all i can do right now is hope.

i hope you really do reply to me this time, or maybe you just sneak into my room through my tempered glass window.

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a/n

i am so sorry for forgetting this book existed omg i wanna cry