to my darling,

the same sentence tumbles off my parent's lips whenever i ask them what happened to me. they keep telling me the only way i'll ever remember is if i do it myself. i keep hearing the same sugared sentences and reaffirmations dripping from the corners of their lips. they keep telling me i will be okay, and all i need is a fresh start. but i don't need a fresh start, i just need you. i need to be with the only normal and sane thing that's left of my tumultuous life.

they keep telling me i need to remember what happened. they say i've forgotten, but i still remember each and every inch of you, clear as day. the only recollection of my school life is you. all i remember is you, your honey voice, your golden touch, your warm ivory skin, how your hair softly fell into your hazel eyes. what did i ever do to make you hate me so much?

i know that i always sound desperate and broken in all my letters, i am always begging you to come back even though you don't reply to me. its because i can't let go of you, i can't let go of the only thing that makes sense to me. my life is just a grand illusion now, i feel like i am a just puppet being pulled by my heartstrings. there are so many gaps and holes in the recollection of my past memories, i always feel like i am being lied to. i know something is being kept from me, but i have no idea what it is. the worst part is that everyone seems to remember everything, its only me who roams around with the baggage of these handicapped memories.

i know i always say this, but please, please write back. even its just one word.

one syllable.

one letter.

anything.

-

A/N

Q-who do you envision the narrator and lover as?

for me since this book was inspired by dan oh and ha ru in extraordinary you, i imagine the narrator as kim hye yoon and the lover as rowoon :)  also in case you've not seen extraordinary you, this is your sign to go watch that masterpiece!!