Sorry this part is late also om thinking about changing the title to honey laveder but still the same au what do you guys think tell me.... part dedicated to my new gf....my ex serenity broke it off, but i found jossy ans we got together we met on coincidence on my tumblr she was a really big fan so i talked to her and there on his history♡
   Tord
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I got done with my work and cleaned up my mess it took longer than usual not like i mined anyways it was....fun you could say like any other time its fun. I got some clean clothes and headed towards the shower maybe i should take a bath buuuut that's like bathing in your own filth. Its been three days since i took a shower and ew im filthy god my hair is greasy damn i wonder what tom thinks. I walked into the bathroom closing the door behind me, u stripped myself naked and turned on the shower. I kept my hand under the shower head till the water turned warm then i stepped inside of the shower feeling the warm water hit my back. I tilted my head back to where the water was hitting my hair making it fall back i must look like a girl now with my hair down like this. Hah and Toms hairs also does that and matt, edds hair is like flawless when it gets wet hairs then rinsed it did the same with conditioner and i washed my body. I wonder what tom would think if he ever looks at my co-
" hurry up dude i need to use the bathroom "
"Bitch okay"
"Im not a bitch"
"Hold kjəeft, deg taken!!"
I turned off the water and wrapped a towel around my waist, and grabbed my clean clothes and unlocked the bathroom door opened it walked out and matt rushed in and closed the door. I sighed and headed to my bedroom, when i got in there i closed the door and threw all of my clothes onto the bed and started to dry off my body. I slipped on my boxers and jeans before there was a knock on my door

Sweet like honey lavender

"Who is it?"
"Its me, tom."
I hurried and slipped on my shirt but kept my hoodie off. I walked to the door , unlocked it and opened it
"Watcha need tom?"
Tom pulled something out of his pocket and handed it to me.
"Its from your mom tord."
I looked at the envelope i will read it later i looked back at tom he was looking at the ground
"You good?"
"I just really want my mom back, tord thats all "
I frowned
"Well soon I'll go out and looking for her okay?"
"Okay, thanks."
He still looked saddened
"Need a hug?"
"No im, im fine"
"No your not"
"Tord im fine okay, so just leave me alone okay"
"Your not fine Thomas James Ridgewell, so stop lying to me"
"Im not lying tord okay, lets just leave it at that"
"TOM YOUR NOT FINE YOUR DOING TERRIBLE YOUR A FUCKING MESS ALWAYS FUCKING CRYING FOR WORTHLESS REASON'S, SO GROW THE FUCK UP"
"SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY I FEEL FOR YOU OR IF ANY OF THIS IS REAL YOU FUCKING SCUM"
"YOUR JUST WORTHLESS YOUR DAD WOULD RATHER DIE THAN TO BE WITH YOU AND YOUR MOM RAN OFF WITH ANOTHER DUDE AND LET YOU STARVE CAUSE SHE WISHES YOU AREN'T ALIVE YOUR THE REASON WHY YOUR DAD IS DEAD YOUR THE REASON WHY ANY BAD THING HAS HAPPENED YOUR NOTHING TO ME AND NEVER HAD BEEN"
I yelled at him not realizing what i had said
"IF I-IM THAT WORTHLESS THEN WHY ARE YOU TRYING T-TO KEEP ME ALI-ALIVE WHY ARE YOU T-TRYING AT, AT ALL?"
he yelled at me, I felt my heart drop realizing what i had said to him, he broke into tears and ran out of my room, i felt warm tears stroll down my face my face heated up with tears i feel to my knees and cried into my hands why am i feeling so empty without him. I started to pant hard my breath was hard to catch i moved my hands off my face and pulled my hair still crying, what if this was the end what if tom ended it today cause of me i need him he needs me. I got to my feet and ran out of the room almost slipping and hitting myself against the door frame

Keep running back to her back to her

. I ran down the hall and looked into his room he wasnt there, i started to panic he could be anywhere. I ran to the living room to see Edd sitting on the couch and had headphones on but I dont care toms not in here. I ran into the kitchen still no tom panic arouse quickly. I went to the sliding door with fresh tears rolling down my cheeks i wiped them away with the back of my hand, i opened the door and ran out there it was chilly cause i just got out the shower and my hairs still wet. I ran out to the center of the backyard. I heared cries and loud sobs, warm tears still rolled down my cheeks. I ran over to the shed were the sobs were coming from and opened the door to reveal a blue clad. TOM i ran to him and hugged him tightly earning a yelp and more sobs and screams
"L-leave me al-alone just let me, me die"
I sobbed into his shoulder disappionted in myself for letting this happening
"Im s-sorry i didnt mean to okay*hic* i love you so much !"
I sobbed louder after that holding him tighter then ever before i felt like i was tearing apart my heart aching so much every word i said to him back there i regretted  so very very much.
Tom pulled back from me or at least tried but i held him back
"Tord please l-let go!"
I refused again
"Tord we're over let go of me!"

Never call me back, back to where we started

I felt my heart drop at the words i dropped my arms off from around him as soon as i did he ran off, my heart ached i fell into a puddle of tears.

You say you want me but i dont know

I felt his presence leave fastly making me feel more empty than ever before

One week later
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      Tord
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I kept myself away from tom feeling like everytime i think of him i cry, wet tears streamed down my cheeks as i clung onto my pillow spooning it as if it were tom

Why would you bother to cover up your tracks

      Tom
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I sat there on my bed with Susan in my hands i finally finished my song i cried after reading it seeing if it makes sense but i was all to confused

You dont know your wrong from right

Edd had gotten me a new door he also hanged it up on its hinges how nice, he also is kinda cute . What am i thinking my heart lives for tord.... or at least it did before i

" broke it off" i heared cries come across the hallway i sighed knowing it was Tord...i broke him.

3rd person
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Tord cried into Matt's shoulder telling him everything that happened when they were gone and just last week the break-up. They noticed the two avoided eachother they didnt exept the part were tord cried running to his room. Tord was broken beyond repair, ge didnt realize how much tom meant to him till now he knew tom was something to him but now he knows that toms was alot more than he imagined.

Tom kinda took the break-up well although he cried alot that night when he left for the bar he just wanted everything to be a dream Tom looked down at his sock covered feet, deciding weather or not to check up on Tord but didn't he held some regret making tord like this, he just wanted forget everything happened between the two everything all the hugs and kisses, talks, laughs, cries just everything he wished he could just forget every feeling towards Tord. But he still held alot of feelings for him. He too felt empty but not as empty as he once used to be.

One month later
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      Tord
~~•♡••♡•~~

I looked at my white cealing, i felt so empty without him next to me, i brushed my hand through my hair and turned to my side and started to pretend it was tom petting me. Tears slid down my cheeks, i started to laugh softly but that turned into sobs
"Tom, tom, please come back!"
I yelled into a pillow as tons of tears rushed down my cheeks and dripped of my chin.

I guess i got to role the dice
You say pretty little things, but you dont play nice

The door opened and closed.

"Tord are you good?"
Matt rubbed my back while Edd spoke, they knew how much tom meant to me after i told them everything, i thought tom felt for me a whole lot, and i cant help but feel as if it was fake now
"I miss him"
They stayed quiet for a minute
"We know"
"I can't help but feel he never loved me "
More tears gushed out of my eyes
"We dont know tord he dont tell us anything, you know that"
I felt hallow as they said that
Maybe if i leave it would get better.
"Hey tord, toms out wanna go do something ?"
Matt chimedq trying to lighten the mood which kinda did, i wiped my tears off with my hoodie sleeve. We got out my room and into the kitchen, edd made me some soup i thanked him and stared at it. The front door opened and closed, the sound of footsteps got closer to the kitchen

Tom~~•♡••♡•~~

I seen a tall red clad looking at the bowl, there were bags under his eyes his cheeks were stained his hair was put back sloppy his horn hair wasn't there anymore just flat its as if he gave up.
Edd looked at me getting a cola out of the fridge
"Hey tom"
"Hey Edd"
Tord looked at me i looked at his eyes they lost there touch the shimmer and shine there so dull you cant see a spark in him. What had i done to him, i want to say something just anything but he looks so fragile like if i say anything he'll cry. A moment later he looked back at his soup but he put his hands to his face hiding himself. Edd walked over to me
"Tom talk to him please i beg you"
He whispered i looked at him then tord
"Sure"
I was nervous and sad once edd walked out i stared at tord sadly he was just so happy now he's like me just a mess and to think i did this all to tord by leaving him...i was just so upset with him i lashed out leaving him alone in the dark not staying the, my heart ached whenever i thought of us i felt sick without him to keep me abstained. I missed him so dearly i knew he was something....and i left the important something to leave it alone till now.

Cause you dont wanna see the night

I walked over to tord and put my hand on his back rubbing it, i felt him shift and sit up
"Edd do you...nevermind"
He said doubtful, i let my hand glide through him hair, he bolted at the sudden movement
"EDD wha!"
He got quiet once seeing it was me
"Tord, look at me darling"
I let my mouth do the talking his face seemed to lighten up a bit but barely.
"Tom...i"
His voice was raspy a bit
"Tord i, im sorry"