Dec 7th, 2021

My dear stepson,
I have been thinking about writing you those letters a few months after I lost your dad. I don't know who you're going to be, yet you're still a baby, I want you to feel through those words all the love that your dad had and will always have for you. Since I met him, I've always admired the way he was looking at you. " He's so smart, he makes me love him so much", he used to say to me every time you were watching cocomelon at home while singing along.

The bond that you shared will forever be unbreakable. I loved watching you guys play together, going out or even sleep together. Your head on his chest: that was the most beautiful moment my eyes ever catched. I was proud of him being such a good father, he said he wanted to give you everything he never had: a luxurious life, good education, unconditional love and more. He wanted you to grow up being a MAN. I wish he could be there to see this miracle happens.

You look so much like him. Literally his twin. Every time, I look at you, I feel at ease despite my pain. You have his big forehead haha. I remember when I first met you, you didn't want me to hold you. In fact, you didn't want anyone to hold you when your dad was around. He wanted me to have a good relationship with you, so I was trying. How could I resist to your beautiful face? I loved you since day 1. Little by little, you got comfortable with me to the point that one morning he left us together to go to work. You didn't cry, I fed you while watching cocomelon and did your hair before he came back to be with us. This was the last time you guys spent together. I wish I can be there to show you all the good memories of that day, I have them all on my phone.

You might be wondering why I'm writing all of this. It's simple, I don't know how many days I have left. Your dad took my whole self with him. You are the only reason why I'm breathing right now. That day, I told myself that I'm gonna be here for you whatever happens to your dad. Only for you. Well, it's difficult when I'm hurting that much. But you deserve so much better, this luxurious life your dad wanted to give you I owe you that. So, I'm gonna work for it but Favie, if I ever fail, know that I tried.

I love you,
S.