I moved back in with my parents and brothers. What happened was I moved out and in with my sister and her family. Then admitted i didn't want to live then she got ill because of me. And had to kick me out also she had a baby and she had to protect her own. I completely understand. Im hurt but i understand. I was then homeless for 2-3 months. Then i figured that being homeless was worse then living with parents that disappointed me so i forgave them after 3 years, mind you, and moved back in. To start over. We still have our arguments but based on my lil bro's accusation they surely have changed for the better. Sure i still don't have closure that i need but this is looking up for my future. 

I still hear voices and intrusive thoughts when im not plugged into my music and i don't have the best self esteem. But im strong from what i've overcome. And im proud of myself.