Dust

They came at night and attacked the town. Alpha Liam's wolves were attacking anyone who stood in their way, no matter it was human or werewolf. Alpha Henry ordered us to fight back and and protect the pack and town's people. so I was leading my team into town. we had all shifted to our wolves and were prepared.

But the town was different from what we were expecting. it was a mess. the humans, terrified of the sudden attack of man-wolves were hopelessly running everywhere trying to escape. some with babies and children, some with their whole families and some alone. I pointed at my team to protect them and lead them towards the mansion, then attack the invaders. Alex was the first to attack. he tackled a brown wolf and started wrestling with him and the the rest followed. I wanted to help but all I could think of was Robin. so I started running towards her home.

The streets were a nightmare of fire, bodies and blood. everywhere I turned my head I saw wolves attacking people and other wolves. I ran past them as fast as I could and got to her apartment. I broke down the door and ran all upstairs and broke her apartment door. her house was quiet and dark. I shifted to my human and looked around. everything was normal and I didn't know if that was a god sign.

-"Robin!" I called. "Robin where are you?" I yelled out. I ran upstairs towards her bedroom and saw her sitting on an armchair by the window with Cat on her laps.

-"Robin! why didn't you answer me? hurry we gotta go!" I said. no respond. she still kept staring out the window. "Robin did you hear me? we have to go! I'll explain everything later!" silence. "Are you even listening?!" I yelled angrily.

I approached her, putting my hand on her shoulder.

-"Please Robin, you're my mate. I can't leave you behind!" I said and her body slowly tilted towards me and then, I could see the blood on her shirt and hair and huge bite mark on her neck and shoulder.

-"ROBIN!" I yelled and looked at her terrified. her soulless blue eyes were open and staring at me. "NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!" I yelled while crying and hugged her tight on the floor.

-"Hard to lose a mate isn't it? one would think you'd feel something like that..." I looked up and saw Alpha Liam approaching. he was wearing the same suit he was wearing the Christmas night with a smirk on his face.

-"What the fuck did you do...?" I said between sobs, angrily.

-"Me? I did nothing. it was all you. you killed her. look at yourself if you don't believe me."

-"huh?!" I slowly got up and looked at the mirror. there was a lot of blood on my shirt and hands and worst of all, in my mouth. suddenly I could taste it in my mouth as it streamed from my mouth on the floor.

-"...No no no no no I-I couldn't have..." I looked at myself terrified.

-"Yes. you could have and you did. you killed her just like you killed your mother."

-"No!" I yelled and punched the mirror, breaking it.

-"Yes. she died because of you. just like your mother did because of you. and just like Alex, Elsa, Frost and Alice and everyone you love is dying out there for you cause you're not there to help them. you killed them all."

-"Stop it! STOP IT!" I said and threw the mirror on the ground and ran to Robin, who was lying on the floor and held her tight.

-"Why didn't you Dust? why didn't you protect me?" my eyes wide opened and looked down to see Robin talking. "I knew you couldn't protect me. you didn't even tell me the truth about yourself. and then you killed me."

-"Robin...I-I..."

-"I wanted to give you this..." she moved her hand and got a piece of bloody paper from under the bed and handed it to me. I took it and looked at it. it was the sketch of me as a wolf. then I flipped it to see another sketch behind it. this one was sketch of a wolf biting the neck of a young girl while the girl seemed to be in a lot of pain. the color of the wolf's eyes were emerald green. I yelled as loud as possible.

Then I jumped awake.

I looked around panting and scared and all sweaty to find myself in my bedroom. everything was normal. no one had attacked and Robin was still alive. I rested my head back on the pillow and waited for my breathing and heartbeat turn to normal. it had been years since my last nightmare and this one was the scariest ever. I gulped and it made me realize how dry my throat was. I reached for the glass of water next to my bed and drank it all in one sip. then I noticed the slight shaking of my hands.

I got up and walked in my bathroom and turned the lights on. I took a look at myself in the mirror. my hair was messy from the rolling and my face and bare chest were wet with sweat. I splashed some water on my face and took a deep breath. what the hell was wrong with me?

Of course, I knew the answer. I was being me. just me. I should have given up on Robin the first chance I got, not to get this involved. I didn't want her to end up like my mother. she deserved better, much better.

I walked out of the bathroom and picked up the paper cup of tea that she gave me with her number on it and stared at the heart a little. chances that she was awake at 4:32 in the morning were almost zero but it couldn't hurt to text and finish everything. it was even better cause I wouldn't have to face her and I could simply not respond to whatever she would send.

I sat down on the bed and turned my phone on. I entered her number and went to text messages. I stared at the empty page for a couple of seconds, thinking how to start this. I couldn't say I wanna break up cause we weren't together and I couldn't explain the whole mate thing. so when I couldn't think of anything I decided to start it simple.

-"Hey" I typed and sent it. I was thinking of how to start the next sentence when I got a reply.

-"Hey!" she replied. I stared at my screen, not sure if I was still awake.

-"I...didn't think you were awake." I typed it and hit sent. I stared at my phone, waiting for a respond.

-"I just woke up. dunno why. I suddenly just jumped awake. guess it's just one of those nights I can't sleep." I read it and thought for a second. maybe when I woke up it woke her up too. before I could type, another one came along.

-"why are YOU awake?" she asked as I slightly chuckled.

-"Nightmare." I simply typed.

-"Aww someone needs a cuddle?" I smiled at the response.

-"Har har. very funny." I sent it and facepalmed for not thinking of a better respond

-"You know, when I had nightmares my dad always cuddled me. once I told him I wanna grow up so I'm not afraid of anything and don't have any more nightmares. wanna know what he said?" she texted.

-"Sure." I texted back.

-"He said it doesn't work that way and grown ups have nightmares too. they don't go away, they just grow up with you."

-"So true..." I texted back.

-"So care to say what was your nightmare about?" I looked at the text for a second and thought.

-"Clowns." I sent it with a guilt.

-"Then I would not recommend you watching It." I read it and chuckled before sighing.

-"The scary movie? seen it already. probably why I'm having nightmares about it." I sent it.

-"Probably. anyways I thought I was gonna see you at cafe today." she texted and I looked at it.

-"Yeah something came up and I couldn't make it. but I'll be there tomorrow and I'll see you." I sent, not even thinking of consequences.

-"Oh tomorrow's Friday it's my day off. I'm not gonna be at the cafe." she replied and I looked at it with a slight disappointment but then she replied again.

-"But we could meet up at lunch and actually talk with each other. this time we see each other and not see a movie! you free?" I looked at the text thinking a bit. again, the struggle of brain and heart began. and as always despite brain having very true reasons, heart won.

-"Sure! where should we meet?" I texted.

-"Pick me up from my place at 12:30. we'll look for a place."

-"Alright. I'll be there."

-"Good. now I should hit the hay. stay away from nightmares and goodnight." with the kiss blowing emoji at the end. I chuckled a bit and started typing.

-"I will. C U tomorrow. Goodnight." I sent it and turned my phone off and laid on my bed, looking up at the roof and smiling. as much as today was a horrible day, hopefully tomorrow was gonna be great.

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep but the image of bloody Robin got stuck in my head and it wouldn't leave. maybe it was just a nightmare cause by a lot of stressed thoughts and a heavy dinner. or a warning to stay away from her. a warning that I just wasn't hearing.