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jisung never had the courage to approach her in school. she was so popular compared to him. nobody knew his name, nobody really knew his face. he was just kind of there, in the shadows. of course he had his friends, but that's all he had.
including her.
of course he never told the girl how he felt, why would he? she would never reciprocate his feelings, and he was okay with that.
he KNEW that.

today was the same, the final bell had rung and jisung practically rushed to the library. there she sat, nose deep in a book. the brown haired boy smiled at the sight. there was something so entrancing about her presence he just kept coming back.
"hello hea." he hummed, as usual.

she slightly lifted her fingers into a small wave, as usual.

"how are you?" jisung asked, pulling out his notepad and pen.

"tired." she gently whispered, as usual.

"oh hea, you never fail to make me smile." the brunette boy chuckled, slipping one headphone in. hesitantly, he spoke again, "w-would you like the other one?"

for the first time in a while, the girl looked him straight in the eyes. "no thank you."

jisung quickly directed his gaze away from hers. he nodded and slid the other headphone in his ear. the young girl returned her focus into her sea of words, eventually drifting off into a tired sleep.

"hea~ time to awaken." jisung smiled. the young girl smiled, rubbing her tired eyes. "tonight is a dreary night, would you like me to walk you home?" he offered.

"no jisungie i'm okay, don't worry. have safe travels okay?" she spoke quietly. the younger bowed, waving goodbye and exiting the room.

once again, the girl was all alone in the now quiet library. she grabbed her book and made her way to the back of the silent room. hea took a long inhale when she entered the tiny closet. why did her life have to be this way?
she sat on the carpeted floor, pushing the old bottles of chemicals aside to reveal a small box. the brunette removed a bag of chips and began to snack. this was her dinner, same as every night.

i'm getting really tired of this.