eyes opened to bliss, a ray of sunlight shines through the gap in the window, landing on seokjin's well-carved cheekbones. he was feeling happier today, for some reason. then his mind brought up hyuri, of course.

perhaps, cooking her breakfast would coax her in some way? so there he was, humming as he baked marinated chicken breast, setting it into the oven.

"why did the tomato turn red?" he speaks as if he was talking to somebody, though he wasn't. "it saw the salad dressing?" he chuckled at his own joke, thinking that it was very hilarious. anybody who saw him would think he's insane, but sometimes he really was.

everything was perfectly garnished. he ook a tray and placed the food on it. it was a little heavy but his arms were enough to manage. he opens the door in struggle and went down to her unit.

he knocked on it, only to realize that it broke last night. hearing the sound of running water - he figured that she must be showering. seokjin entered without a word and placed the tray on the table. his mood enlightened as he made his way to her bedroom. the bathroom door was slightly open and it was obvious that water was overflowing inside.

there she saw her – in another attempt. she was down under the shallow water, motionless. though he panicked a bit, he came to his senses and pulled her out and onto the floor, turning off the running water.

he had now come to a conclusion that she was out of her mind, definitely. she was not breathing at all. all she was wearing were shorts and a loose sweater which was soaked in water. he attempted to do the thing they call CPR but after so many times - she never let out a breath.

though it seemed so lame, at this moment, he only only had one choice. wasting no time, he pressed his mouth onto hers and blew air into her throat. after two tries, she coughed out some water and started to breathe.

"damn it, hyuri. are you out of your mind? didn't you promise me not to..."
seokjin was close to cursing but when he met her eyes staring innocently with a bit of sadness, he paused.

"stop saving me, please!" she cried out.

seokjin flinched at her response, but wasn't surprised. all she knew about was killing herself, after all. anyway, why was he even keeping up with this crazy, disobedient woman who knew nothing but self-harm.

"life is a gift, stop throwing it away." he stares seriously, as if scolding. he'd kill her for making him worry but that was just ironic because she already wanted to kill herself.

"this is my life, i can do whatever i want. besides, it's the only way to escape the emptiness."

this time, seokjin was the one hopeless. she was so difficult to deal with, but of course, being himself he never found a single reason to just let her die.

he wanted her to live - even if she was nobody to him and he was nobody to her.

"come here." he scoots over to her, not minding how he was getting pretty wet because of the slightly flooded floor. "whoever you really are..." she looks up at him, surprisingly intimidated. "i love you." seokjin thought, maybe those words could change her mind.

he hugged her, not caring how wet her clothes were, or how she didn't seem to care. he wanted her to feel loved - because it's what she needed, or at least probably.

but if it was possible to fall in love within one day, maybe he really did love her.

seokjin was surprised. this time, she did not refuse.

"if you're lying, please keep going," she started to tear up. he felt her weakly wrap her arms around him as well

"it's not a lie. please stop crying," he gently pulls her against his chest, feeling her tears drench his shirt.

"please just keep lying to me and tell me you love me," she desperately held his face.

"i'm not lying. dear, not all sweet words are lies, if that's what you think." seokjin tucks her hair behind her ear.

"we all live a lie, but i have no reason to live," she flashed a fake smile.

"then i'll be your reason to live."

"huh?"

silly girl. he thought.

"Live. For me."

she looked at him, trying to register every word in her mind. "let's give this a shot. you will never be alone again. i'll be by your side." seokjin glanced at the time left on my wrist.

he wanted to say forever but that would be a lie.

"until i can."