Dear crush.

Long time, no? How are you? This is probably my last letter to you. You can see that from my handwriting. My right hand is paralysed. And I HAD to write a good bye letter to you, so I used the left hand. Sorry for the extremely bad writing.

Talking about my disease, my right side is paralysed. The left one is awaited. There are no more therapies, as you know, I'll be dying at any moment. The breathing support is still there and hashsh! The monitor is still beeping. And talk about eating. The pipes are doing no good. I'm practically breathless after every bite of food. So, its kinda difficult...ya know.

By the way! Good news! The drugs have been detected. The doctors don't know about the rape thing, though. And the drugs? Doctors said they'll find out who the dealers are and all. I'll be dead by the time they find those bloody scavengers.

Also, I have to tell you something. Don't freak out. I know you know what I'm gonna tell. So, lemme say it before dying.

I. LOVE. YOU.

I love you a lot. So much that you already know. I had always dreamt of telling you this face-to-face. And I always dreamt of you accepting me and we lead a happy life ever after. My dreams are pretty stupid, right? I know. I wish you were here, Jeff. I wish you were the last person I see before closing my eyes forever. But no, you won't come here. And ha! I still don't know the reason why you hate me. You gotta tell me that before I die. Please. I've spent like 3 years trying to figure out the reason. You owe me an explanation, mister.

I again tell you. I Love You. I love you, Jeff. And trust me, I know it IS love. I miss you. Please come here. I want to talk to you. I want to see your face for the last time.
Why did you start ignoring me Jeff? Why do you hate me so much? I want answers. Come. Tell me those answers which I deserve to know. I ain't leaving you so easily. Wasn't I beautiful or pretty enough to be someone likeable? No. I wasn't. No matter how hard I tried to be funny and happy-go-lucky, you never noticed. Coz ugly fat people like me are not meant to be noticed, right?

You know what? Forget it. I'm dying anyways and you aren't going to remember me either. So yeah. Forget it.

I know we were not SO close that we made a shit ton of memories that will be missed. There weren't oh-so-special moments either. But you know Jeff, every minute spent with you is like a memory to me. Every smile of yours is life. Every time your eyes twinkled, it gave me joy. Maybe those smiles and laughters weren't because of me. But they still managed to capture my heart. I was that crazy teen who used to believe that we are soulmates and we tend to be together. But it just turned out to be utter bullshit. People like me aren't meant to be with anyone. I know. I don't deserve anyone.

Every single breath of mine awaits for you. My eyes, glued to the door, wait for you to enter and give me my last good bye.

As the song goes-
"You got me scattered into pieces, shining like stars and screaming;
Lightening me up like Venus, but then you disappear make me wait...

And every second's like torture, heroin drip no more so;
Finding a way to let go, Baby baby no I can't escape..."

I've never wanted a cliché love story. I've always dreamt of having a unique one. Something out of the blue. And here it is! My out of the blue love story. Or maybe it isn't a love story at all. Aah. My heart's on the left side. Unparalysed. Beating for you...

So here it is! The story of my life. A life that was never meant to be. A life, where the ends never met. A life, which was not worth living.

I love you, Jeff. And I love you with every part of my body. Remember one thing. Never break someone's heart. The circumstances are dangerous. Remember this.

Good bye. Forever, and always. I wish I could make a mark on that heart of yours. Oops. Not possible anymore.

Bye? <3

Try to miss me! <3

The girl who is dying,
Sasha.

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End of the letters.
Too much of the letter stuff, right ;p

Two parts more TOTALLY IN JEFF'S POV. Whoopiiee!!!

I entered into the Wattys :p :p

Thanx for the 1.25k reads...gosh! This means a lot. I'm glad you guys are keeping up with me ;)

And yeah, thanx for 400+ votes too.

I love ya, machas!

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