disclaimer: this isn't to throw shade at anyone. i'm making this to start a discussion. maybe people out there will relate to this - who knows, maybe no one will. i'm just putting this out there for anyone to read, and that's the simplicity of it. there's no hate or ill-wishes. any situations i reference will contain no names, and i will not give out any names.

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i was recently given the opportunity to be in a group chat. it was my first group chat, actually, and i met some really lovely people in it - some people who i hope will continue to be my friends even after what happened. you all know who you are! 💚

after about a week, i have removed myself from the group chat due to toxicity. i'm not one of those people who throws that word around to fill the space - i mean there was some genuine negativity that i felt was hampering my mood & i firmly believe that if anything is getting to you like that, then you should allow yourself the decency to remove yourself from the environment.

it all started off as it normally does; people introduce themselves, share memes & passions, talk about their ideas and get advice. people naturally gravitate to each other, and i believe now that people naturally oppose each other in the same nature. i guess when you have so many people together, there's bound to be toxic opposites.

as the week went on, the drama began, usually centering around a group of people. it can be the small stuff, but i urge people to speak up if something makes them upset / seems unfair. it can really make the difference for someone! & always hear both sides of the stories and remember what people have to gain and lose. know that some people are capable of lying, but know you can forgive people!

i feel like a major issue is the variety in age and maturity. as an almost eighteen year old, i see myself as more mentally mature than someone who is thirteen. i'm not saying by any means that i'm smarter / better due to that, but i think i can see some situations clearer & know when things are just jokes. when you mix a major age range (13-18), there's usually some maturity issues.

i think that part that made me want to leave most was what happened after i left. for those in the group chat, they know what i mean. i don't want to go into it because i resolved the issue with the person, but some hurtful comments were made about me.

i think everyone should speak clearly. speak your mind. say your truth. if you have an issue with someone, tell them honestly what the issue is. if you adore someone, tell them. if you disagree with someone, don't take it to heart. just always be honest with yourself and others. don't say things you don't mean / don't represent your character.

so, with everything that happened to me in this last week online and in real life, i think i'm going to take a break from wattpad until i feel clear. everyone knows how to get a hold of me! i hope some people can relate to this so it's not just me rambling about nothing!

lots of love to all the friends i made this week!