~Preface~
It was December 19. Tonight I would be boarding a ferry taking me far away from my home. It was pathetic that the snow outside seemed like a playground or a park to others but for me it was a very annoying blizzard. It's funny how things seem to be when you look at it from a negative perspective. I've always wanted to get away fron here and now that I can I'm complaining about it. Sometimes I really wonder what's going on with my head. Look at me, Frisk, the last descendant of the Determination soul, the last hope of humanity, hiding away here in a rottening apartment, what a pathetic joke.

~2 months ago~

I sighed, looking outside the airplane window watching the clouds pass by. "Feeling blue much?" "Don't be a jerk Sans. Even though Toriel assigned you to be in charge, doesn't mean you're independent" "Yeah,yeah, whatever" he scowled and closed his eyes. I leaned on his shoulder. "Oh c'mon, you know I was just kidding around" he still didn't budge. I leaned in closer to him practically closing up the gap between us and trying to look cute."Please". He opened his eye a bit and looked down on me. "Yeah sure, that's not gonna work. Really though flirting! How vain can you be?" I frowned but in my head I was smirking. "Let's just see how much you can handle" I thought. I started thinking about Sans leaving or...dying and that did it.
I felt a ticklish itchy feeling on my nose and my eys started feeling teary. "Woah kid I never really meant any of that. Please dont cry you know I cant stand you when you act like this." he said lifting my chin up so he could wipe away the tears. I hugged his waist."I'm glad we're friends" he rested his hand on my head."me too". Sadly I wished we could be more than just friends.

We were on a 1 day flight to I don't know where! Toriel said I was starting to act a bit rebelious and stubborn so she sent me off to who knows where!
Apparently, I'm stuck with Sans as my guardian and it doesnt get any worse than that. "Hey kid watt'cha listenin' to?" he asked. I was so busy thinking and complaining about things I didn't notice I was listening to any music and I could see why. It was the music that played when you fought Sans in genocide. I never went on a genocide route and I dont intend to but I know perfectly what's instore for me if I do. I'd be killing myself killing them. I gulped."Are you sure you want to hear it?" "Yep" before I could react he took out the plug of the earphone and the instense music started to play with a volume that only me and him could hear. "We aren't going to fight at all Frisk. You understand? I would be hurting myself doing that. I promised I would never hurt you." I felt a stab of pain through my chest and a shiver ran down my spine. "Sans, can I ask you something?" I said looking down, to afraid to let him see I was crying. Not that it matteted wich way I looked, he could already hear me whimpering. "Kid, if you're going to ask why I bleed when you kill me. Don't worry" he snickered "It's not as bad as you think" I was curious about that before but, I had other things on my mind. I took a deep breath. "That's not what I want you to answer, it's something else. Do you mind answering it?" He smirked. "Kid nothing is hard to answer when it comes to my genocide battle. Ask away" I took another deep breath. I knew this question wasn't easy to answer and that this would be a painful discussion for both of us. " I was wondering... When I spared you... Why did you...kill me? I just dont understand why."
I looked up after everything was silent. He was staring down at me facee full of horror full of guilt and pouring with tears. I was immedietly alert. I felt disguted with myself. "S-sans, I-"
He hugged me, crying on my shoulder."I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was scared, every part of me hurt, I couldn't do it, every part of me was full of hate, I just wanted to find a brand new life. I was selfish. I didn't realize I had hurt you until you started screaming after the fight and when the note book came out of your bag I couldn't help but read that's when I saw all the scribbles. They were on every single page until the last one. It read about you pleading her to stop. I-I'm sorry Frisk I-". "Will you shut up and stop pitying yourself I cant stand you when you cry. Let's get some sleep it's practically 4 am." "One last thing" he said pulling away from me, holding my chin up. "Wh-" before I could say anything else he leaned in and kissed me I was overwhelmed but I felt so overjoyed as well. I wrapped my arms around his neck. After what seemed like a second to me he pulled away."Wow kid I didn't expect that reaction from you" I smiled " Let's just say that you took too much time than I wanted you too" he stared at me face a bright shade of blue. He pulled his hood over his head and put his arm around my shoulder. "Night kid, or should I say sweetheart?" I hugged his waist. "Whatever you say bonehead, or should I say sweety?" he smirked. "Then I guess I'll still be calling you kid" I smiled closing my eyes."Goodnight bonehead" "night' love".