~Who would ever love me if they found out everything; My sins, secrets, thoughts, acts and deeds of the past~
-Tolu Oni  

SHAWN's POV

I stepped out of my car while my driver rode it to the parking space.

While heading towards the house, I heard a car's honk followed by the gate slided open.

I looked back...

Noticing it was Selena and the guards, I decided to wait at the front porch of the house with a smile.

Selena comes out of the car and her facial expression made my smile falter..

She looked sad and why am I so affected?

Its like her pain affects me ...

I immediately walked towards her and asked

"What's wrong Selena? What happened? What did they say? Why are you crying?"
I asked desperately needing to know what went wrong.

She said nothing as she sobbed.

I hugged her and began stroking her back to give her comfort.

Slowly her Sobs subsided while I led her into the house.

Selena is going through too much and it kills me that I am helpless at situations like this.

I feel guilty for calling her out on stage at my unveiling.

Who would have thought that it would endanger her life?

I thought we would just have paparazzi to deal with and I had that handled.

Till the call On Monday Morning after the little saga with my father.

After Selena left to freshen up, the maid arrived almost immediately and I gave her a short and my top to drop on Selena's bed.

The food arrived and I told the maid about Selena, instructing her to tell Selena to come and have breakfast in the masters bedroom (My bedroom).

I walked into my bedroom and heard my phone ring. Surprisingly, it was a foreign number.

I picked it up.

"Hello"

"Hello, I believe I am speaking with Shawn Angoteh Mahal?"
That was also surprising, because I rarely used 'Mahal' its my second name.

"Yes, and who are you?" I asked, my phone number wasn't open to the public, just a few family, friends and close business associates... And Selena..

"I am Viktor Svyatoyvich, Father to Selena Jerome " if that wasn't unexpected, I dunno what else is.

"I do not understand you..."

"Selena is my daughter and she is now in danger because our family Tattoo imprinted on her back, since birth has been exposed to the public, it wouldn't take time before they add the pieces together...  Before they  come for her.."

"Hold on Hold on.. Is this a prank call or what? Because, I have other important things to do, other than listen to this..."

"Let's have a video Call, Mr Shawn and if you really care for my daughter like you said you did last night, you would accept the video call request" and with that, he ended the call, leaving me baffled and with little time to process all he said, because I got the video call request almost immediately.

I accepted it and the face I saw...

I recognised him..

I swore  I have seen that face before..

Viktor Svyatoyvich?

Russian's richest arms/weapon lord.

What in the hell?

"Does my face and name ring a bell?"

"How are you Selena's father?" I voiced with a glare.

Viktor Svyatoyvich has quite a dangerous reputation and how in hell is he even related to Selena.

He is from freaking Russia!

Although there was a news of Viktor, years ago about losing his wife and his daughter missing.
I read about it.
I read about him.

"Did you hear the news of my lost black daughter, 18 years back? I actually sent her out of Russia to avoid her from getting killed by her mother's killers. By her, I mean Selena, Selena is that her... She is my Luna Svyatoyvich."

And then he told  me everything I needed to know, showing me more proof of being Selena's biological Father. Telling me Luther would be landing in Lagos soon.

...

Viktor already informed me of the dangers of  keeping Selena till he finds a way to safely bring her back to Russia.

Why I'm still staying despite all the risks that comes with keeping her...?

I would leave that question to God because I have no answers.

I don't know why I am so drawn to her, why I care so much.

I can vividly remember my first encounter with her

Her wild and daring traits despite her petite nature

Her amusing try at being threatening seemed cute to me

The way she narrowed  her eyes and twisted her lips in some sort...

I liked her at that very moment.

And I have no idea why...

She seemed tough but I could see right through her, it was an armour to hide her fragile soul.

Realising I was developing different emotions towards her than normal within a short period of my acquaintance was everything I never expected and wanted, it reminded me of HER.

HER, the girl who broke and ruined me.

I loved HER deeply...

But she broke me in the most painful means ever

Ruined me in the most distraught way ever and I take full responsibilities of my actions after HER

I live to regret it every single day

But it has taught me some important lessons like walking out of a heated conversation instead of staying and then risk getting my dangerous rage unleashed.

Love ruined me once and I shouldn't risk it by getting involved again.

So... I tried to shove Selena off.

Didn't work

You didn't try that hard to shove her off, you know?

a tiny voice at the back of my head whispered.

Fine! Maybe I did not try that hard

But,

Then, I had the most amazing quickie ever and It was like I became intoxicated in her nectar.

She invaded my mind without permission

Thoughts of her naked form perfectly fitted around me

Thoughts of her lips which she unconsciously twist when exasperated and pissed off

Thoughts of her hands wapped around my wrist while she led me to the restroom for our rendezvous

My nights were filled with dreams of her

Dreams of her heated look while she strip danced...

Dreams of her gripping my hair while I drove her entire system nuts with pleasure

Dreams of love bites all over her, courtesy of me.

Dreams of a little picnic with her

Dreams of capturing our moment via a photograph.

I couldn't just get her out of my MIND!

She is going to be the end of me

And I would willingly accept it

Its stupid

But have you ever loved someone before?

Love someone so much that it consumes you?

Love someone so much that you would do anything for 'em?

Love someone so much that you fight so hard to deny it but only end up hurting yourself?

Love someone so much that they overtake your mind, soul and body?

Love someone so much that their pain becomes your pain?

Their happiness your happiness?

Its like I have been hit by a hurricane...

The hurricane love...

Love that comes at first sight

Love that hits you unexpectedly

Love that could ruin you but you cant help but allow it

That same love that could build you up too.

I have experienced the former and hopefully its the latter with Selena.

Looking at Selena right now on her bed, Sobbing silently hurts me really bad.

Its like Karma is striking me for how I have treated ladies badly after HER.

Yeah, I was a fuckboy...

Till Selena.

Which means I only stopped a month back, after meeting Selena at Club 99.

I just couldn't bring myself to lay with another woman..how cliche?

Feels like this is Karma's way of  coming back at me...

by using Selena.

I would gladly have this Karma punishment if it means having Selena.

I laid down on her bed and wrapped her around me as I listened to her heartbeat steady... Stroking her back for comfort.

I know she doesn't want to be the typical 'a damsel in distress' she fights too hard.. She Is a Svyatoyvich, isn't she? Its in the blood.

I know the kind of people after her. A freaking Mafia family and brawls like this never ends well.

Why did Viktor have to make a deal with the devil, those people assassinate for a living and he just had to get involved with them, putting Selena in an even more greater trouble. They believe the best way to make their enemies suffer is by hurting  close relatives especially immediate families.

I don't know how Viktor survived their wrath within the past 18 years and I can't help but wonder if there was more to the story he gave me.

But I'm certain of one thing...

I can't let Selena face this alone, she might seem tough but what's coming for her is bigger than she thinks.

Yes,

I have my own demons to fight, like Pleasing my father. It means a lot to me that he would for once see me as good and not the murderer he sees me as.

I did not mean to kill Fredrick, it was self defense... Yes, I was overtaken by my anger and anyone watching might see me as the bad guy because I just kept punching! and punching!! and punching!!! The adrenaline rush was feeding me with just enough to not clearly process what I was doing till I was done.

That night has forever tormented my dreams. I know there is no justification to what I did and I regret it. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would.

My Dad was able to cover up and clear that incident...

But since that night, everything changed, My dad became withdrawn and if pleasing him was hard before, it became harder after that night.

I can't explain how bitter I felt immediately I realised what I did. That day haunts me till date and I have become more cruel and cold to outsiders ever since.

I have learnt to control my rage and act unfazed by things that are meant to hurt and aggravate me

I don't know if I can ever tell Selena about that night, scared she would leave and hate me.

Selena makes me feel human again, makes me believe that I can still be a happy person.

She has become my escape from my haunting dream

Singing was my escape and now that I'm letting go, I'm glad I found Selena.

I have a very haunting past, and what haunts me most, is the murder I committed.

My life is not a clean slate like the internet thinks.

They see me as a young millionaire.

As a young & Eligible bachelor

But I'm more to those stories...

Its not just a dark one, its evil and I hope I don't lose Selena because of my past...

"They are leaving..." Selena muttered..

Who is leaving?

"I don't understand,Selena" I said

"Mr & Mrs Jerome, alongside my siblings... They are leaving me, Shawn.." Selena said in between sobs and my heart broke for her..

She continued..

"Why does nobody love me truly? Everyone keeps leaving and dumping me for their own convenience... Like, I have no feelings and I can not be affected... I needed them now more than ever and they just had to leave?" Selena questioned with pain laced in her tone.

"What do you mean by everyone..?" I questioned and am subconsciously face palming my self for asking that stupid question.

"My life started with getting dumped by my parents...
and then my 5 ex(es).. Do you know how painful each and every breakup was?" She paused and continued..

"Do you know what its like to give your heart out there only  for it to be trampled and utterly damaged? How they make you feel special but end up mocking you and pushing you like something irrelevant."

Oh yes! I can relate to this.

" Everyone treats me like a tool that has no feelings.." She added in a shaky voice as she sobbed, Paused, then continued.

"My father dumped me for God knows why. Then he pops out of nowhere to  tell me I'm in danger and he hasn't even built the guts to call me personally..?
Then my first boyfriend dumps me because I could not give him sex.." 

So she told me everything on how her previous relationships ended.

" What hurts me the most about my last breakup.. Is that I actually had my first sex with him...with a freaking cold-hearted liar!!!" Selena concluded with so much pain and Anger radiating off her...

"Calm down babe...calm down" I comforted her

"My heart is broken all over again... Like Deja Vu.. and with so much pain .. My foster family are leaving me alone.. Alone to face something I know nothing about and how in hell do I complete my studies?" Selena rambled.

"You ain't alone, Selena.. I'm not leaving you to face this alone.. I'm gonna stay with you and we would survive this together, and for school, I can handle it but your father might have other plans.." I said

"Other plans?"

"Yeah.. Your father would be contacting you soon..."

She said nothing but her eyes were still open..

Processing all she just said.. I just can't help but be curious about Selena's fourth ex-boyfriend. Of all the random names to pick.. It was mine?

Here is the short story of her fourth breakup... The Guy calls her up at a cafe and breaks up with her by accusing her of cheating on him with a 'Shawn' guy which she wasn't and she said she even knew no one called 'Shawn'

Selena had no idea of any Shawn at that time, so he probably made up the name ..?

Why am I even thinking of this?

Its really  stupid..

to ease my thoughts..  I ask Selena..

"What are the names of your ex boyfriends?"

"Why are you asking?"Selena asked.

"Just curious.."

"Hmm... Okay..."She paused and continued

"From first to fifth..
Freddy
Chidii
Dan
Eric
Jeremy" she concluded

"Oh..ugly names" I teased..

And Selena chuckled..

Earlier Yesterday Morning, I noticed how Eric, my guard was looking at Selena with a shocked "You!" expression.

"I know this might sound wierd, if my assumptions are wrong and I hope you dont get annoyed whatsoever... But, My guard, Eric.. is he by some weird luck or chance, your ex, the fourth one?.. I noticed the glances you both exchanged, yesterday and it seemed you know Each other, adding all you have said up.... I just assumed.." I said feeling uncomfortable till Selena cut me short and said..

"Yeah, he is my ex.." She answered.

"When was your breakup?"

"About 2 years ago?.. Why are you asking me all this?" She inquired.

Hmm... Same year I met Eric.

"just asking" that's all I said as my mind got hot wired with thoughts..

I have learnt that little things matter and the coincidence of actually meeting Eric, 2years  back..?

Using someone else's name as a means to breakup could either mean two things, if the name used is of someone you know.

Its either you hate the person or its just for laughs...

it might seem stupid to think too much about something so irrelevant... But I trust my instincts and it demands I conduct a full background check on Eric Agahulor

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